sad again~

it suposed to be very excited about the new year festival today, but why i can't even think about it .....the sadness which you all sure can't feel about....i was wondering what was happened to me recently?????
just.........something disturb me. no body will care about it, about me, about what i'm feeling......
you know? this istitution made me felt like oh damn! can't imagine......sick......
headache, sadness, all started to appear on my mind.......
what the hell? why????? i always be the weakest and the most unimportant, if is like that, please you all, no need me as the joker you all can also alive....please, let me go~~~~~
this will make me more suffer, i hate that! i hate that!
nothing to feel happy in this place.... My God! please bring me away from this! please...i'm bagging you @@.....
i will not longer stand at this place and act like nothing is happen.....
laugh happily always......ya i'm very happy with some of them in our class, made our class fun and full of joy! without them, i think i can't survive in this class.....
and one more, trustworthy friend......i'm not happy.....you will help me....thanks sooooo much....
i think i will try to stand off.......acting, cause you all also acting in front of me, why i must be the stupid person who treat you all better? no way!
no mood to perform now.......low.......
sorry if i'm not performing well today because i can't!
nothing made me to smile facing audience.....nothing, not at all.....
p/s: sometimes you say other person but you didn't mention that you are sucks than they all!

shocked!

wa liao....怎么也不肯相信自己听到的。。。。
他。。。就这样走了。。。。。。
前天才讲到他有多可爱。。。。。
哇。。。。真的被吓倒了。。。。
有点想哭。。。。

对不起。。。。我不能出席聚会。。。。
我很想去，但却担心。。。。
要开课了，什么都没做。。。。都不知道他们会怎样对付我叻。。。。。
该怎么开口说：“不好意思，我在这假期只顾着玩，没动到功课。。。。”
他们真的给了我很多压力。。。。。。
太勤劳了。。。。唉~
真奇怪自己为什么有时间去玩。。。。甚至写小说（写爽）。。。。
却不去动那些课业。。。。。
没办法~我就是我。。。。。
觉得他们很倒霉和我同组。。。。。我也不想。。。。
一直讲人懒惰。。。。其实最懒惰的是自己~~~哈哈。。。。
加油吧！

......

我真的开始不了解我自己了。。。。。。
不知不觉又去看回一个已和我一点关系都没的人的档案。。。。。。
很怪。。。。。对她的东西感兴趣。。。。。
就只因为她是你喜欢的人成曾喜欢的那个。。。。。
她和他。。。。根本不可能了。。。。。。
她已有了另一个。。。。他？？？？？
不懂他在想什么。。。。。
不懂为何，就是不喜欢她。。。。
不是吃醋，只是不爽她对他的态度。。。。。差到~~~~
他的内心应该还忘不了她吧。。。。毕竟伤得太深了。。。。。
只要钱。。。。向“钱”看齐。。。。。
haizz。。。。。
习惯就好~习惯就好~ 我也不懂几时又变回这样子。。。。。。。
哇~~~~~~~~烦死人了！！！！！！！
突然很想那帅哥。。。。。。。。。真的很帅。。。。。
今天和一些很久没见的朋友玩真心话大冒险。。。。。
其实一些只是第一次见面罢了。。。。。
向不熟的人讲秘密。。。。很怪~
也因如此知道了原来一个好朋友曾拍过拖。。。。
从中二到中五。。。。。。哇料！
我们竟没一个人知道。。。。。
她可瞒了好久噢。。。。。佩服。。。。。。
之后，一个朋友突然问了一个不知怎么回答的问题。。。。。。。。
你曾喜欢过你朋友的男友吗？？？？？？ 我有吗？？？？？
我承认。。。。。。曾经。。。。喜欢别人的男友。。。。。。。。
该不算是朋友吧。。。。。
当时都对他不太了解。。。。谁知他已有女友？？？？
他也向我表白啊！
都已很久了。。。。。但一个问题却令我想起。。。。。
要见回小学同学了。。。。。
好期待见到xxx........
不知他们还会认得我吗？？？？？？？？？？
不知会有话题讲吗？？？？？？？

one more day gone already... suddenly realised the time passes so fast lol....
haizzz.... why? when we suffering for our assignments, it passes slowly, but when we are enjoying in our hometown, it just passed...... day by day.....
hate this!
so miracle i didn't go out whereas my sister went for a party... haizz....so pity, i just staying at home, blogging and watching movie only.....so boring!
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don't know wanna write what....

second day~

it can say that a great day, i mean yesterday~
but a little bit bored.... don't know why today didn't go outing....
haizzz.... so boring.....
hopes that my friends will come and fetch me out, cause i'm now really boring....
still wonder why the whether is damn hot during last few days..... very hot!
until need to go bath many times.....
hotttttttttt! this is what no good about sp.... everything is better....

boring o~

dear, once again..... boring....
suddenly......he sms me, we had a long period not contact already....
when i come back sp, everything is like wanna repeat..... keep on repeating....wow~
very boring, i reallt think everything wanna repeat back already...
glad to hear that my sister got her little fans already....one more thing, she become pretier with her hair staightened.....^^
wanna change my hairstyle but still can't decide if i wanna go cut it or leave it....
hearing jj lim's song, meanful..... like many feeling come back....feel better, more feeling...
unlike at institution, very boring......everyday assignments....presentations.....gerko......exams....
back to my hometown really can make me relax......^^
facebooking, msning, blogging, smsing, this what i do when i back here....
funny right? this can be also boring but.... i like it.....
hearing songs......i like it.....
smsing with him......damn like it (although a little bit bored).....
msning with friends.....
btw, by this time i don't want think about it already just hope that this week can pass slowly.......
i don't want to get back to reality soooooo fast^^
please,.....

damn...

suddenly feel a little bit moody, i think my friends all become further and further from a day by a day.....far away....... suddenly fell weird.... very weird...... some people began doing such boilkot....stupid! i hate this.... really....
but i still want to be myself, stay the way i am,...... no matter who wanna say something no good about me, i can stand still.... without worries....^^
it cannot disturd my feeling of excited cause i wanna meet with my primary's friends already.... very happy la....haha~ but a bit nervous and scared.... how are they now? what are they doing? studying where? i wanna know all these.....
but for sure i'm not the popular among them.... just like a suppoting character only.....
wow...... a lot of assignments waiting for me.......scared i can't do it.... what should i do?????

haha~ not more than 15 hours... i will be back....
wa.... feeling great...
besides that, we will celebrate three febuary's baby birth later, can play fireworks lol...
haha~^^
nice~~~
i think today i smile the most....... very happy.... meet.....^^
reunion is great and awesome!!!!! i like it^^
wow....
can't wait.....

CNY^^

wa.....真的要说时间过得真快~
这么样就二月了。。。。。新年了~
要说时间不够，忙到半死。。。。。
没用~只能争取时间~唉~~~~
好多课业等着我们呢！真的会忙到半死的。。。。。
轻松的日子为何那么快结束。。。。。
真希望能一直停留在农历新年那儿。。。。。
哈哈~应该是不太可能吧。。。。。
跟朋友亲戚相逢。。。。。这是最特别的一次。。。。
现在是所有人等待你回去。。。。。真的很特别~
真想念那儿的朋友~

Once again i'm going out, i feel that recently i always go outing lol.....haha~ It's quite fun can watch movie at midnight. What i could not expect is the ticket's price is nearly twice as the usual. I can understand it. It's weekend. i Forgot about it until i'm showing my student card to the ticket counter... haha~ is ok. the important thing is i'm enjoying....
i have started to watch movie at cinema recently, and almost once a week.....
Many homework that i didn't finish yet, still got many presentations to do.....
i think it's gonna be a busy week for me....
but luckily i will go back home at this Friday......
waiting for this moment^^

let's boom the music!

very bad mood recently, maybe is because of homesick or may be not.....
papa mami, sis, bro.....miss you all sooooo much~~~~~
another fact is, i feel some people like"跟屁狗"feel very geram lol.........
don't know who shall i trust and say all the things right now.....
feel unsafe at anywhere......
can i trust you????? this is all i can say@@
feel confused and down, lost direction.....
i wannna come home! go back home! tell everything, my unhappiness to my family.....
my beloved papa, mami, sis and bro....they're only person wh i can trust right now....
really~~~~~
maybe i'm too hot-tempered or i start to feel bore about all those thing.....
become a bad person~~~~~ ya! that's my motive~ a way for me to escape everything.....
can i do it?
i don't know....

stupid~

今天的我真的很笨~
非常地笨~笨到。。。。不能讲。。
提呈西游记时忘了讲明好多好多东西~
唉~老了~老了~
练习体操~更丢脸~
为什么？那么简单的动作我却做不好？？？？
我很尽力地去练~但还是徒劳无功~还是不行....
不行就是不行。。。。。。 只让人家有机会嘲笑你一番。。。。。
真是不值~真的很不爽~ 那些瞧不起人的眼光~怕人害他输的眼光~
我只能一个人默默地承受~ 真的好怕。。。。。。
还好有些真的很好的朋友~愿意陪我做~
愿意教我......当时真的很感动@@
我会努力的。。。 不会让他们瞧不起我。。。。。
一个动作不行不代表所有动作都不行~ 我能的！
是个女生内我是最差，最懒的~ 真怕会连累他们。。。。。真心对我的朋友~
开了一个会议，女生会议。。。。讲了很多东西~
原来我又做了一个超级笨蛋的事~
那些留言是针对我们而来的~我竟去。。。。。。
haizz。。。。。。只能怪自己太笨了~