我好怕．．．

每次都很怕，怕这个那个．．．．．
我很想很想逃避一些东西，我还在克制着，应该会没事的．．．．
很怕控制不到情况，怕越帮越忙，怕自己真的做错了．．．．
最好笑的事还是我觉得自己有点被冤枉的感觉，不知道为什么，自己好像搞扎了所有事情，其实最怕还是有人会因而讨厌我，我怕，我怕被人不爽，被人讨厌的感觉．．．．
因为我要所有人都很开心．
朋友们讲我太幼稚了，哈哈！不幼稚的或我觉得自己会是很恐怖的，我怕．．．自己变得很恐怖，变得有野心，变得会争取，那个时候，我不再是我，更不用说所有认识我，了解我的朋友，你们会问自己，这个人到底是谁？是我们认识的嘉嘉吗？？？？
我不想改变，何必要委屈自己和别人呢？做回自己不好吗？？？？
但是，有时候不变的或，我可能就永远得不到我要的东西了，我不强求太多，我只想看到所有人幸福，开开心心而已．．．而我呢．．．还是做回自己比较实际．．．．．
我很笨，总是那么的笨，永远不成熟．．．．如果有一天真的要争取，我一定是失败的那个．．．
慢慢地期待那一天，期待自己能够为自己争取一些属于自己的．．．．
要如何是好？？？？？
我不懂几时开始有点想放弃的感觉，有点不想再都下去了，我不想去解开自己心中的谜底，我怕，我怕以解开了，我会失去一切，．．．．
我要做的只能忍声吞气，最好的方法只有如此．．．．．
真的，在这黑暗无助的晚上，我好怕好怕，怕自己有天会受不了，会崩溃．．．．再这样下去会让我很痛苦．．．
ｐｌｓ：　让我猜对一次吧！
我很需要。。。。。。

当我们和一个人交朋友到非常信任时，就会发生一些误会？
小误会慢慢地演变成大误会，甚至有人开始责怪你，这种感觉令你非常的难受，不知找谁诉苦，诉说。。。。因为，你找不到你信任的人。。。。。
我好想好想找个人谈谈，发泄发泄，因为。。。。我很辛苦。
一直疑神疑鬼也不是办法，解决才是关键。。。
逃避不是办法。。。。。哈哈^^
累了累了，天天都一样。。。。闷死人了。。。。
我想出去，走走、血拼、玩电动、总之，我只想轻松轻松。。。。

累了。。。

我真的真的很累了。。。。。可以不要再提吗？？？？
我开始分不清谁才是真正对我好，谁才是对我不好的。。。。
快撑不下了。。。。谁能救救我？？？？
帮我分析一下。。。。到底是谁？
谁是真心对我？？？？
谁真正为我付出？？？？
别再一人一句了可以吗？？？？
我真的很辛苦，不懂谁会了解。。。。。
为什么有些离得远的，会突然离得很近？？？？
然后又很远很远。。。。谁才是真心对我的？？？？
开始觉得我不该再胡乱相信人了。。。。太恐怖了！！！！
我撑不下了！可能搞到最后，没人会相信我，但，我只想说信不信由你，我也不能阻止你们不信任我。。。。。。我只想让大家能够开开心心的在一起。。。。
我只能说：“ 请给我时间证明一切！”
别再让彼此的误会加深了行吗？？？？？？？？
我很苦~ 不知该信谁。。。。。。。。
当我们用真心去对待时，为什么总会让彼此的误会加深？？？？
可以对我坦白点吗？？？？？？
开始恨被人欺骗的感觉。。。。。。
我不会再当鸡婆了。。。。。不会不会！
这一次，我只会静静的分析。。。。。。
突然很想念我的好朋友。。。。。。你们最了解我，和我有共同点、特点、又注重骨气。。。。
琳、 叶、洁。。。。。我很需要你们。。。。。
因为，我已不懂要如何面对这一切了。。。。。。
累了，烦了，没有力了，也没有勇气了。。。。。
不要再问我，我分不清。。。
算了，别再评价人了。。。。。。。
友谊会因而淡的。。。。。。。。。。
只是凭知觉吧！彭嘉嘉！清醒吧！这里没有人关心你的，都是怀有心机，别再笨笨的被他们骗了。。。。。别再受他人影响，做回你自己！或许，那是更好的解决方法。。。。。
今天真的很心痛，不被理解，不被重视，不被肯定。。。。
你们到底当我是什么？？？？？
只是救生圈吗？？？？
我可是真心付出的。。。。。。。
白费了。。。。没了。。。。。
既然都是假惺惺。。。。那就看吧！谁才是赢家。。。。。。。

无话可说。。。。

其实，我一直以为自己很了解朋友的。。。。。
现在才发现我错了。。。。大错特错。。。。
我根本不了解他们，我看。。。没有一个朋友是我真正了解的。。。怎么办？？？？？
自作聪明。。。。死了。。。。这次，我输得很惨。。。。
输到我不懂自己输什么。。。。我。。。。真得很没用。。。。
为什么所有事情不能像我想象一样发生？？？？？
难道我真的猜错了？？？？
为什么会是这样子的？？？？？
现在，我的脑海只有问号。。。
好多疑问。。。。。
谁能替我解开呢？？？？

haizzz.....very boring o....
my friends all having their own life already~~~~ haha^^
maybe just left me alone only..... haizzz...... feel a bit sad o.....
but really happy for them too...i'm glad if i can help them solving such this problem....
i hope i can do it.... really~

happy happy and happy...
i like my classmates soooooo much!!!!!
now and.....forever!
suddenly feel very warm and nice being in this class....
having very good friends....talkative friends, friends who can share secret with you....
i like the feeling you know?
hopes.....we will get together no matter what is happening.....
friends like family.....~
i always think like that~

Having a great great time at butterworth...
haha^^ watching such "horror" and "scary" movie....OMG! actually not horror at all@@
but, this is my first time go out with Catty after many many times we have planned it....haha^^
Finally la! but a bit shy la course she is going with her future boyfriend ma.....he is a nice guy o... treat her very nice, just the time factor and courage only left...
Catty said wanna heard him said he love her face to face then only can get in a real relationship....
haha^^ what a relationship! if you didn't know it, you may guess they have been together already, same like me.....
when can i get a nice person arhhh????
just explore first, i'm sure i will find it soon...
can i get what i hope for? to get a real relationship before i turned older, 19 years old...
i hope my 18 year will give me a nice and sweet memory, no matter with family, friends or a lover...
although can't get together in long period but i also hope that i can enjoy this 18 moment, i am trying~ enjoying it, clubbing, shopping, knowing more friends, knowing more about my classmates, make my life full of event.....
very nice man! maybe one day when i recall it back i will not regret it, because i have done what i should do for this moment....
middle of April......still have 8 month i will not 18 more.....
use this 8 months wisely.....explore more!

what is the real feeling when you fall in love with somebody???
actually i haven't fell in love yet, but i wonder how it feels...
suddenly wanna try to make myself have this feeling, sure very interesting right?
fall in love, like somebody, what is the difference inside????
we must go explore more to make ourself more understand about this feel, explore and explore...
one more time, we must have the right to choose what we like and what we want, nobody can stop us.....
waiting, next week sure all of us will have fun, haha^^
it's time to go cameron!!!!
this is my first time to go there, sure it will be fun^^

sienzzz...
but it works.....just now not stay at home till an hour, i go out with my friends already ...
haha^^
actually is damn tired but i think it worth....
don't know when can i meet them again.....
haha^^
having a very great time in station 1.....listening to the music....nice~
sure very enjoying this type of lifestyle.....
tomorrow will go to watch the thai scary movie at 1am......oh no....
sure very scary.....
must be prepare for that, if not.......die....
shouthing voice sure will be heard by tomorrow....haha^^

worry~~

just sometimes maybe i'm too sensitive, something is different by now....
actually i don't know what is the differences....
trust the wrong person really can make us lose everything, honestly.....i afraid of that...
lonely, no friends.... i hate that feeling, so i always try mt best to make friend with all the people especially my classmates.....hope they will not hate me.....@@
i scared that someday i will hurt them, my lovely classmates....
because of i like gambling, playing, loafing, talking, gossiping and many negative things.....
is there someone who hates me? gossiping about me?
hopes that i can disapear in their life??? i very afraid....
actually just because of some small matter will also make me think too much.....
i'm not the most important person, i know nothing, i'm not good in socializing......i....
maybe i just try to entertain all of you, maybe something will make you all hurt or hate...
but, i just wanna make all of you happy, please don't blame me.....
sorry my friends if i have said something i shouldn't say.......
please accept my apologize.....

down....

see all tghe people have their own couple, my heart suddenly feel very down, iu als don't know why i have this feeling, i shouldn't have this feeling, i should be happy for they all....
how about me???
if they all have their couple and then ignored me, i will be the poorest person in the class, seeing all my classmates own their lover and get together...
actually sometimes i'm not quite happy la, i will be lonely soon.....hehe~~~~
hope they all will appreciate what i have done for them so i will not be lonely after this semester....
cause i really scared the feeling of being alone....
haha~
anyway, congrats to all of them and i will also happy if you all can get a good realtionship~

我真的很啰嗦。。。。。
哈哈~讲这个讲那个的。。。。。
唉。。。。。
不想让他们向我一样而已。。。。。。
跟不上对方的脚步。。。。很辛苦的。。。。
累累累~
最近都没有什么新歌。。。。。
有点累。。。。

boiring boring and boring....
suddenly don't know what to do.....
onlining, fbing, msning....then nothing....
please.....i don't want to live in such boring place...
give me some fun, some joy, something can impress me.....
if not, i'm sure i will boring until die already~
God please help me make my life more enjoying and exciting.....
By this time, i can just asking God to save me...
i have nothing to do......
very boring life.....

甜蜜？

今天终于看到了班上的第一对。。。。好甜蜜哦~
哇。。。。。在这里衷心的祝福他们天长地久。。。。
太可爱了！哈哈~
突然很渴望谈恋爱。。。。一定很好玩的。。。。。
只是之前谈过一次短暂的，好希望让我有一次好好谈恋爱的机会。。。。。
我会好好珍惜的~~~~
看到他们那么甜蜜真是羡慕死人了。。。。。
期待下一对的出现。。。。。哈哈哈~
直觉告诉我。。。。。他们要出现了！只是不懂是哪一对而已~
班上同学都迎来桃花运了。。。。。真替他们开心。。。。
自己呢？耐心的等吧。。。。
因为爱情~就像魔术。。。。来时大家都抵挡不了。。。。。
去时也没人挡得了。。。。。。
唉。。。。。。

wa...suprise!!!

wow, i can't believe what i am hearing about this few days, espacially these few weeks....
feels like....Boom^^
haha~ Glad to see them...hehe,you all know la, no need to explain more about it.
haha....don't know how to say, hope all will be stable, nice, good....
actually, really don't know how to.....
Oh My God!
what a day! what a week! what a sweet moment!
i'm always happy to see all my friends have their couple, someimes i will be jealous because i haven't met anyone who can give me the "feel". Even if i have met, it also not last longer......
but, i always glad for them who has found their lover, really...time can change everything, i knew it and i agreed about it....
time....can change many things...
it takes my feeling deeper and deeper, and i can also make it disapear.....^^
don't know why but i very happy this week although it's a busy and tiring week......
sweet moment for they all.....
~ what i have predicted before have became true~
~ good! ~

sienzzz..

本来以为。。。可以轻轻松松了。。。。
但。。。。突然间好多东西要做。。。透不过气了。。。
我真的好累好累。。。。可以不要再这样对我吗？？？？
可以让我开心点吗？？？？？
我想去玩，去旅行。。。。。不想再做这些东西了。。。。
为什么？在这儿竟然是那么的累？？？？
透不过气了。。。又跟我讲有书法班。。。。
我想睡了。。。。。。。
累累累！！！！！！！！
我。。。。要倒了。。。。。
好累好累。。。。。
我想休息。。。。。。。
真的。。。累

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爽~

这几天真的很爽。。。。。
跟朋友去槟城。。。。玩得很痛快。。。。
很开心。。。。开怀。。。。
也让我更了解班上的人。。。。
也让我感到蛮欣慰的。。。。。哈哈~
真的很怀念。。。。。。
我好想好想。。。。重回这种感觉。。。。
可以再让我们班有如此一聚吗？？？？？？
非常非常希望大家能够再一聚。。。。
哈哈哈哈哈~~~