Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Alexander's showcase

really like in a dream u know? i can see him live and meet him in a near distance...OMO OMO!!!! he is soooo cute and handsome!!! Actually i'm not taking much hope to see him because my parents didn't allow me to go before that until Sunday, the day when the showcase they just give me permission to go....how hard...i also felt sorry for them, i know they did everything for me but i just....i don't know why i always like that??? is like what leng said to me i have changed since i go study at ipoh??? But i want to become who i am back....I don't want people say i have changed a lot, please, bring me back!!!I don't want change to become selfish!!! Please....i promise to u all right now, i will try to behave myself from now on, and do everything to help myself improve in my study, don't ever made my parents disapointed again.....
Okay, now i will talk about the showcase! Daebak!!!! Beast ever!!! High!!!! Although it just a small showcase, but i decided to confess to him, Alexander! Wow, but after i see his face, i just can't come out with that word"I love you" really hard to said that you know, and he also shake hand with me, wow!!!! just feel like in a dream, his hand was big and warm, don't know how to describe it.....I won't regret with it anymore, just figure out if someone like him become my boyfriend how good am i!!!!Haengbok weekend!!!

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Crazy Weekend!!!

There are so many things that i would like to share for this two weeks!!! I'm glad that my parents give me permission to go for a concert first time ever!! BTW, i go without their permission before that!!! slap me please!!! Okay, forget about this first, i think i should be one of the most craziest people in the concert cause i suffer from flu and cough before that and it hasn't heal yet during that day, blame it to 2pm concert!!! The organizer didn't let us enter the hall although it was raining and all the people pushing each other and outside it was like a sardine!!!
Okay i will focus on MOA concert right now, I come 8am and it was many ELFs there already, blue shirts!!! sad that i didn't have one.....
我彻底的疯了!!! 失声却能够喊到那么厉害! 但是真的梦想实现了,对自己今年做的承诺,都实现了。。。。最开心的事:Lee Sungmin 对我挥手了!!!!只有台和围栏的距离。。。。好近,可以那么紧看到他们,可以和所有人呼喊superman, mr simple 的口号。。。。可以看他们彩排,更在彩排时也呼喊口号。。。棒极了!!!也能在彩排结束时追着B1A4的车走,与看着车窗招手的 JinYoung 那么近距离。。。总之,太开心了!!!第一次在演唱会开始前能看到所有人,但遗憾的事,手不够长摸不到fx和gongchan的手,就在我面前伸手。。。也没有去送机虽然本有这个冲动。。。。
其实,我也看见了许多好气又好笑的事。。。。第一,好气!!!买不到有superman的衣服,银赫在comeback穿的那件!就是因为犹豫了一下没有size!!!买了有成员们名字的衣服,但入场前才发现希澈的名写错了,更气!没有厕所,虽然刚开始得到进,但之后没得进,要去公园唯一一间厕所,超脏的!进入现场时,工作人员竟然指错方向,还我们差点站在royalzone!!!跑去rockzone时,不能站在靠围栏的位置, 挤死人了,因为在第二排。。。后面的亲吹了气球一直抱着,令我很不舒服!开场时所有人拿着摄影机,还我要踮脚才看到miss a 的真面目,很美,min很性感!suzy 很可爱!又向我们招手,全场笑!
还有遗憾不能看到sj彩排后的样子,我看到fx 和 b1a4 哦。。。。。sj彩排到一半,他们工作人员突然很凶赶了所有人,神精病!!!!只是喊口号和一起唱而已,再那么外面,也没看到他们,这样也要赶!
开心的事,b1a4 的队长太可爱了,真的很近。。。。真的开始喜欢他们的热情,演唱会结束后也向我们招手,上车前也是,可爱!!! 新人都那么热情吗????唯一开车窗招手的叻!!! fx 也是很疯狂!! 尤其是Luna! 整天自high! 可爱,可惜krystal没来,不然就完美!Amber 的人气很高叻!一到他出场就尖叫声连连!!厉害!!!V妈也不错啦,还有人喊nichkhun, 几好笑!两个星期能见到他们夫妻俩满不错的,。。。始源也不错的,上车前还向我们鞠躬,开心死了!!!
总之,我很开心。。。。。可以喊口号,又可以那么近距离看到sj的所有成员。。。。艺声问候时真好笑!!!apa kapa? apa kapa? apa kapa? 唉。。。。。不能顶。。。。笑死我了!sungmin很帅!!!真的!!!越来越喜欢他了!!!银赫和东海就好像很累。。。。利特呢,结束时还跑来跑去向大家鞠躬,真的很好!!!
回想起来,我们真的很幸运,这几天都在下雷雨,但偏偏当天之下了一阵小雨!!!!太幸运了。。。。因为演唱再看见天黑黑时,差点取消,太幸运了!!!我也真正看到了传说中的蓝海,真的很美。。。。。他们都很棒!!!!我永远都不会忘记的,他们带给我们的欢乐。。。。就算你们说我疯,说我傻也是一样!我真的觉得发了一场梦一样,会有下次吗????希望有。。。。。

Thursday, October 20, 2011

救命啊!!! 我要崩溃了!!!
明天开始,做工,打工,要花半天时间在做工。。。
为了考车,为了super show 4, 我拼了!
一定要去看,好不容易舍弃了2pm,对不起啊哥哥们。。。。不能赢得看你们一面的票。。。。我相信我是有贵人的,真的相信。。。。
这两个星期不是什么放假,也不是 study week,而是为偶像为自己打拼的日子。人家觉得我好傻,整天沉迷在不切实际的东西,我觉得很实际!万一世界末日论是真的,我问心无愧!
应该加油了,希望大家祝福我。。。。
人生为什么不能像综艺节目般???笑笑一下没烦恼!^^
现实是残酷的,我知道。。。。。。
所以有些事我选择不懂。。。。。但我本身很明白。。。。。

Long time ago...

Long time ago, we all are good friends, we share everything, talked everything and bluffing everything.....
Long time ago, i don't know you, you don't know me, everybody does not know each other, and we just meet in this place, hopefully will be great time among all of us, a great memory that we won't forget....
Long time ago, we throw all the burden we had, come here, spend a new life at here, try to be different at here, share a great moment at here...
Long time ago, we will speak out everything we want to say, all of us will accept it no matter is a good comment or not....
Long time ago, our class full of joy, laughter, and happy moment.....
What happen to you all recently????
where are the kind heart that can forgive everything, start a new life???
i am still searching for the reason, i know i'm very noisy, useless, maybe bring a lot of anger, i'm just someone who said "sorry" for more than a thousand times recently, like what i'm saying will make people hate me, i'm scaring of u all....what happen?
i just want everything to be normal.....
Don't just be more and more selfish, don't just never care about other's feeling....i'm not pointing to who, just...u all.
please, i know there's nothing i can do so i just sit there and watching it, there's no use if i willing to stop it, i'm useless in front of u all right?
i'm not getting mad with someone, just, i hate the surrounding right now....
I know all of u can't be like a long time ago, cause everything is changed day by day...
maybe one day when i get older i can read this and realize that "Oh! there are something like this happen in my life, wow~"
growing up is always happen, a process in our life....everybody will change and maybe the person changed the most is you....
yes, i know i am changing....i want become independent, enjoy my life, never care about something that we doesn't need to care...
p/s 去问,去关心,只会让人觉得你很鸡婆!所以不闻不问是我的选择。
加油吧!

Thursday, May 12, 2011

真的吗???

其实,我脑海里突然闪出了种种疑问。。。。
第一,所谓的韩国明星真的到现在都没谈恋爱吗???好奇好奇。。。。也不知道为什么。。。。
第二,现在的我,怎么有点到后退的感觉???? 我到底在找什么?
第三,这么样的生活,我还要过到什么时候?
第四,到底要等多久才会找到能够愿意买手机给我的人??? 好羡慕。。。。。
第五,凭着“冲”字过活,能吗?我的人生永远摆脱不了的字。。。。冲动,但是,到目前为止没做过对自己不好的事。。。
我开始复古了,听老歌。。。。看以前的录影片段。。。。
不知道为什么,我有一个想跳舞的冲动。。。。。。唱歌,玩乐,如果日子可以这么样过,那该多好。。。。
如果上天真的让我有那个荣幸去认识你,那该多好。。。。。。我想。。。。正正式式地认识你们,可以吗?
人生有了那一股冲动,所有想要达到的目标一定能够达成。。。加油!!!!!
这次,只能成功,不可以再失败!!!!!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Born to be somebody

Justin Bieber's song, sounds nice and i damn like it right now...
After watching his concert n 3D movie, feel like, this week is gonna be his week^^
Like him so much!
Guess what, i have watched 2 concert back to back....XD Like it....I like my life going on like this, no more worries, can it stay like now?
Even i'm still single and maybe for a long time, but i still can enjoy my life like this......
I'm just thinking that if everybody can leave everything and just enjoy their life sure it will be a wonderful world~~~ But it just my imagination....
People have higher expectation for themselves, they don't want to live their life simple, so that's why war happened everywhere....
So, all we can do just praying that everything gonna be fine soon, I will not count anything on those people who like to create war but i thanked to them because they made me feel more satisfied with my life right now....
This is called dramatic life.....Life is real,neither drama nor dream can describe it....This is life, my life...
I'm hoping that 2012 is not real, can it delay the date until 2020 or later? I want to enjoy my adult life, enjoying something i haven't experienced before.....
I always scare of the end of the world.....
God, can you give me more time to treat my family better? Let them have a better life....I want them to see me grow up and become someone can make their life better....I wish i still have the strength to do it, If next year not the end.....
I promise i will do anything i can to make them happy.....
I miss them.....and always live them.....

Happy Birthday, which i distributed special to him.....
I still remember, his birthday but i scare.....I can't read his mind at all, who is that "she"???? Who know?
feel more interested with this person.....The person always emo-ing and feel lonely, i hope i can bring happiness to him, can't i? Why a person aged 18 can think so many things like that? made me wanna understand him well if he allow me to do that.....
But, thinking I'm just a burden to him, useless thing and even maybe he is thinking I'm just someone passed by his life a while, and gone.....anyway, happy birthday to you, Thank God bringing you to this world making me happy before.....Making my heart touched for the first time, I can't forgive myself because i have forgot your birthday by the way you called and still remember my birthday.....
I just wanna become your friend, share what is in your mind right now......
In my memory, always you are the one who tell me your story.....
Hope you won't treat me as your burden.....when seeing your blog, i really wanna touch your heart and know what really happen to you.....Can you let me understand you? If there are no one accompany you this birthday, I will make you happy, as a friend.....
wanna says something, i'm not falling for this person, just an ordinary friend....and i think i can share everything with him.....

Saturday, April 2, 2011

April Fool and i become a fool.....

Damn it!!!!!
Changing from not really comfort become HATE!!!!
Don't make me hate you......Now i'm not because i'm always so kind to give you second chance, and also last chance....
Why don't want to speak out loudly, i don't bother you mad at me, but can you just tell me????
I will try to fix all the mistakes i did because i may not know it is a big mistake i did.....I'm always the straight forward person, hoping everyone also straight forward to me......
But, you choose to tell all this behind me, that's why i really don't like about it......
Maybe people thinking i'm a selfish person, i didn't consider about you, but why you don't sit at my side and consider about me first?!!!
I'm sure that i really feel guilty about that before.....But now, i'm not! I know someone will feel guilty than me....
Think about it, don't make me hate you, don't act in front of me, because i won't act, i'm not a good actress.....
Now, i'm thinking that i'm a fool because always thought this is my mistake......
You know what made me a fool? Everyone know it......

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Don't know what's happening~

WHY????
有点失落,失望的感觉。。。。。
为什么要放弃????
有点不爽自己,其实我可以做得更好,却止步了。。。。
看来,还是年轻好,人老了,不能争了。。。。。
给你,你会要一个年轻少女还是已慢慢踏上成熟路线的????
到底要怎么样才能追回当初的执著????
我想。。。。。回到十六岁的我,无忧无虑的我。。。。。
看到妹妹这么爽,这么开心,心里有点怪怪的。。。。
我好像,妒忌她的生活了。。。。。
能够在第一次见面就给人留下印象,是多么好,多么美妙,多么幸福的事啊!!!!
这种事,在我十六岁时是不可能经历的。。。。。。我想要和她们一样~~~~但,现在的我是。。。。姐姐~~~有点不喜欢这个称呼,因为我老了。。。。。。。
心中总是觉得自己失去什么似的。。。。。
如果生命可以从来就好。。。。。我不会不会不会。。。。。选现在这条路。。。。。
为什么当初会放弃当DJ 的梦想???!!!
想了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。当老师很辛苦。。。。。。。。。。。。。。真的不适合我。。。。。
现在要哭也没用,因为路是自己选的,如果能,我想现在飞去韩国,看我想看的,过我想过的生活。。。。。
要怎么样撑下去呢??????

Saturday, March 5, 2011

LIke it XD

기분 좋은일 하나가 생겼어 너라는 사람을 만나게 된 일
Gi-bun joh-eun-il ha-na-ha saeng-gyeo-sseo neo-ra-neun sa-ram-eul man-na-ge dwin il
그리고 사랑이 있다는 걸 알게 된 일
Geu-ri-go sa-rang-i itt-da-neun geol al-ge dwin il
진짜 사랑이란 어떤 맛일까 달콤한 기분일까
Jin-jja sa-rang-i-ran eo-ddeon ma-shil-gga dal-kom-han gi-bun-il-gga
어두운 골목길 키슨 어떨까 하늘이 하얘지고 예쁜 종소리가 들릴까
Eo-du-un gol-mok-gil ki-seun eo-ddeol-gga ha-neul-i ha-yae-ji-go ye-bbeun joh-so-ri-ga deul-ril-ga
사랑이란 말, 어울리지 않는 말
Sa-rang-i-ran-mal, eo-ul-li-ji anh-neun mal
다른 세상의 일인 듯, 멀게 느껴졌던 말~
Da-reun se-sang-eui il-in deut, meol-ge neun-ggyeo-jyeott-deon mal
자꾸 가슴만 뛰고, 눈앞에 아른거리는
Ja-ggu ga-seum-man ddwi-go, nun-ap-e a-reun-geo-ri-neun
사랑을 어떻게 해
Sa-ram-eul eo-ddeoh-ge hae
I love YOU 이런 기분 사랑인가봐요
I love YOU i-reon gi-bun sa-rang-in-ga-bwa-yo
그대 없이 난 웃을 수 없죠
Geu-dae eobs-i nan u-seul su eobs-jyo
그대 사랑이고 싶은 맘에 나 달라지고 있나봐요
Geu-dae sa-rang-i-go ship-eun mam-e na dal-la-ji-go itt-na-bwa-yo
나의 마음이 기울어져가요
Na-eui mam-eum-i gi-ul-eo-jyeo-ga-yo
차가웠던 말은 모두 잊어요 oh~
Cha-ga-witt-deon mal-eun mo-du i-jeo-yo oh~
oh 눈물이 나도 나 그대면 되요 my love
Oh nun-mul-i na-do na geu-dae-myeon doe-yo my love
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날 안아줘 달콤하게 감싸줘 늘 함께하고 싶다 말해줘 또 날 두근거리게해 날 설레게 해
Nal an-a-jweo dal-kom-ha-ge gam-ssa-jweo neul ham-gge-ha-go ship-da mal-hae-jweo ddo nal do-geun-geo-ri-ge-hae nal seol-re-ge hae
자꾸만 떨리게 해 어떡해 부드러운 초콜릿처럼 달콤하게 하루하루 더 깊게 알고싶게
Ja-ggu-man ddeol-li-ge hae eo-ddeok-hae bu-deu-reo-un cho-kol-lit-cheo-reom dal-kom-ha-ge ha-ru-ha-ru deo gip-ge al-go-ship-ge
차가운 얼음 같기만한 내 맘도 녹여줄 그대의 따뜻한 사랑이 늘 처음과 같길
Cha-ga-un eol-eum gat-gi-man-han nae mam-do nok-yeo-jul geu-dae-eui dda-ddeut-han sa-rang-i neul cheo-eum-gwa gat-gil
가슴이 뛰고, 얼굴이 붉어지고
Ga-seum-i ddwi-go, eol-gul-i bolk-eo-ji-go
그대 없는 일분일초, 시계만 보는 나야
Geu-dae eobs-neun il-bun-il-cho, shi-ge-man bo-neun na-ya
아무것도 아닌 말, 울고 웃는 내 모습
A-mu-geot-do a-nin mal, ul-go ut-neun nae mo-seub
사랑하나봐
Sa-rang-ha-na-bwa
I love YOU 이런 기분 사랑인가봐요
I love YOU i-reon gi-bun sa-rang-in-ga-bwa-yo
그대 없이 난 웃을 수 없죠
Geu-dae eobs-i nan u-seul su eobs-jyo
그대 사랑이고 싶은 맘에 나 달라지고 있나봐요
Geu-dae sa-rang-i-go ship-eun mam-e na dal-la-ji-ho itt-na-bwa-yo
나의 마음이 기울어져가요
Na-eui ma-eum-i gi-ul-eo-jyeo-ga-yo
차가웠던 말은 모두 잊어요 oh~
Cha-ga-weott-deon mal-eun mo-du i-jeo-yo oh~
oh 눈물이 나도 나 그대면 되요 my love
Oh Nun-mul-i na-do na geu-dae-myeon dwi-yo my love
생각만으로 난 눈물이 나~ 그대가 멀리 떠날까봐
Saeng-gak-man-eu-ro nan nun-mul-i na ~ geu-dae-ga meol-li ddeo-nal-gga-bwa
표현하지 못했지만, 나도 알지 못했지만
Pyo-hyeon-ha-ji mot-haett-ji-man, na-do al-ji mot-haett-ji-man
이미 널 사랑하나봐
I-mi neol sa-rang-ha-na-bwa
I love YOU 난 핑크빛 세상 속에 살죠
I love YOU nan ping-keu-bit se-sang sok-e sal-jyo
내겐 온종일 햇살 비춰요
Nae-gen on-jong-il hae-sal bi-chweo-yo
그대 여자이고 싶은 맘에 나 달라지고 있나봐요
Geu-dae yeo-ja-i-go ship-eun mam-e na dal-la-ji-go itt-na-bwa-yo
그대 곁이 가장 편한 자리죠
Geu-dae gyeot-i ga-jang pyeon-han ja-ri-jyo
눈에 가장 담고 싶은 그대죠 oh baby
Nun-e ga-jang dam-go ship-eun geu-dae-jyo oh baby
oh 지금이대로 날 사랑해요 my love
Oh ji-geum-i-dae-ro nal sa-rang-hae-yo my love

Thursday, March 3, 2011

HOPE~

hopefully....i am doing the right thing for them......haha^^

Friday, February 11, 2011

Sleep....

zzzzzzzzzzzz............
sleep until 11pm, and now.....
become night cat^^ haha, translate from Chinese language......XD
what can i do????
i'm planning a trip playing at Ipoh, the place i stay for study.....
which place is suitable???
actually i can't wait to meet with them in the place i stay.....the feeling is different from gather with them in hometown....

don't know how to spend the time this weekend....i want to save money......
i'm starting to learn guitar, it's hard.....not as easier as i think so it might be a big challenge for me.....Moving out from hostel is such a different feeling, different kind of surrounding...but i like it.....XD

Suddenly think that i wanna try something different....clubbing, or maybe can go out till midnight......That's why i like to move out....

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Photo

摄影。。。。。拍照,原来真的很重要。。。。。因为,我们往往不懂这次的相遇是第几次,或许,这会是最后一次,所以,每一刻每一秒都要以照片作为曾经相遇的证据。。。。。
照片也反映出岁月的流逝。。。。。最不珍惜的,可能会是往后最需要的。。。。。
开始喜欢加入照片里。。。。。开始制造自己的回忆。。。。。。让自己有一天醒觉。。。。领悟。。。。自己曾经那么开心过。。。。。
用照片回忆一切,永远是最好的方法。。。。。
希望往后的日子再制造这些回忆。。。。。。

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

weird...

想长大了,想拍拖了。。。。因为朋友们都有男女朋友的照顾。。。。好幸福。。。
可以随便找一个吗?可以让我幸运些,认识一个好男人吗????
我不贪心,但,。。。。。还是过不了心理那一关。。。。。唉。。。。。
还是被自己爱挑的性格害死了啦,难道,我真的要当老姑婆了??????
救我。。。。。。

Thursday, January 13, 2011

yeah!

dream comes true^^
we get the house finally, thanks to those who so kind to let us rent the house....thanks^^
tomorrow will go back home, my lovely home....
shopping!!!!!! Go shopping!!!!! i want to buy some cny's shirts and pants....desperate right now, just bought two shirts only.....
Many things i gotta do during this weekend.....still~~~~ full with homework and i'm sure can finish it soon...haha^^
Hope tomorrow can reach faster......

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

头痛~

为了房子的事,大家都忙到半命。。。。唉。。。。
今天只能求神拜佛咯。。。。他们不要那房子就行了。。。。。
累了~ 天天都忙到要命。。。。可以轻松点吗???? 真不懂。。。。
这只是有点埋怨啦。。。。一定会不满足的,人嘛~~~~
又要讲人生道理了~哈哈~~~
不要一直不爽自己身边的一切,要开始懂得惜福~~~ 因为,被选来这儿,就是一个福气~~~ 没有磨练就不会成功,别因为被安排到不想被安排的组别而不开心,合作、感情,是慢慢培养的。。。。。
还有,开始厌倦,不喜欢扮可怜的人。。。尤其是逞强的人。。。。
在你面前做到很厉害,不需要帮忙,但,在其他人面前做到很委屈,扮可怜~~~~讨厌!
所以,心软只让那些人变本加厉,我,不会容许这种东西发生在我视线的,看不顺眼就会讲。。。。唉。。。
我是嘴巴多嘛。。。。请别怪我,因为真的没眼看~~~~~

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

2011

First update for 2011.....XD
又回到学院了。。。。怪怪的。。。。
有点说不出的陌生。。。。。才两天而已嘛。。。。engine还没真正燃烧。。。哈哈~
祝我的朋友都会考好成绩(中五中六的)。。。
现在呢,希望能去sj的演唱会啦。。。。想很久了。。。。如果不去不知几时才会有这么样的机会,听人家说,上了degree后会越来越忙,第一学期最轻松的,所以要好好享受啦!
就是这样,有些事总是那么的不顺利。。。。。想做的做不到,不想做的却。。。。唉~ 读老师有点命苦~~~~我得承认,但,都过了一年半,还能不接下去吗?花了那么多时间和精力,要放弃吗?不由得我来决定~~~~ 这是事实~~~
回到这儿,开心的:又要放假了! 要搬出去了!!!! 自由了!!!!
不开心:闷,累,无聊。。。。。要开始变乖乖女,好老师! 坚强!不要被人看扁! 不要被学生欺负!!!! 是我的小小愿望。。。。
摆脱了工作,又要上课!人生,就是这样,永远永远不会停止~ 始终在转动着。。。。身边的一切在演变着,好的坏的,就是这样。。。。
长大了,就要学会变,变坚强,变得聪明,自立!不会依赖别人。。。。。
也学到了一样:假装~~~~
今天朋友说:摩蝎座的人很难猜测,是吗?
其实,我的心都是表现在我的脸叻!生气,开心就是学不到怎样假装。。。。。。
所以,我的脾气并不好~~~~~

到了全新的一年,我,又变老了,二十,好一个耀眼又伤心的数字啊!!!
我,不再天真无邪,不能幼稚,不能不顾仪态,因为,我已经长大了!真的长大了~
伤心~~~~~~~