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Re flashing back......

2012-01-02T18:23:00.000-08:00

想回过去一年做的许许多多疯狂的事，终于，我跨入了二字头，唉，一定要实现自己的承诺，对自己的承诺一定要做到！不能玩得疯狂，要克制自己。。。。
可是，我还是会对自己立下几个愿望：
我想和家人去旅行，享受和家人的时光，能吗？？？
想出国，泰国新加玻也好。。。。
看 supershow 4!我唯一一场想在今年看的，或许还有infinite beast 的演唱会，还不确定他们的到来。。。。
无论多么困难都好，生活还是要过的，路，是人闯出来的，所以还是得继续走下去，这是我突然明白的。。。
但是，我还是坚持一个原则，不戴面具做人！不会。。。。所以呢，今年迈入二字头的我是不是变成熟了？？？
一切事都是美丽的邂逅，浮云。。。。所以我学会看开，不理会，能帮就帮。。。。不再对人存有偏见。。。哈哈，看先咯，都不知道自己能不能做到。。。。
当然，我还会继续追星，只是要克制而已，不能像之前要去就去，说真的，累了！
一个月来回吉隆玻三次。。。。还逗留一两天，真的很累。。。。
真的很努力赚钱，为了你们，super junior!!! hwaiting!!!
今年，我也能够闯过的。。。
之前听到的世界末日论，真的会发生吗？？？？不管了！努力实现我的愿望！！！
话说有个亲邀我去韩国，超想去的说！！！赚钱！！！！
如果没有末日，明年我就能够去了~~~~

Alexander's showcase

2011-12-21T05:09:00.000-08:00

really like in a dream u know? i can see him live and meet him in a near distance...OMO OMO!!!! he is soooo cute and handsome!!! Actually i'm not taking much hope to see him because my parents didn't allow me to go before that until Sunday, the day when the showcase they just give me permission to go....how hard...i also felt sorry for them, i know they did everything for me but i just....i don't know why i always like that??? is like what leng said to me i have changed since i go study at ipoh??? But i want to become who i am back....I don't want people say i have changed a lot, please, bring me back!!!I don't want change to become selfish!!! Please....i promise to u all right now, i will try to behave myself from now on, and do everything to help myself improve in my study, don't ever made my parents disapointed again.....
Okay, now i will talk about the showcase! Daebak!!!! Beast ever!!! High!!!! Although it just a small showcase, but i decided to confess to him, Alexander! Wow, but after i see his face, i just can't come out with that word"I love you" really hard to said that you know, and he also shake hand with me, wow!!!! just feel like in a dream, his hand was big and warm, don't know how to describe it.....I won't regret with it anymore, just figure out if someone like him become my boyfriend how good am i!!!!Haengbok weekend!!!

Crazy Weekend!!!

2011-12-04T23:05:00.000-08:00

There are so many things that i would like to share for this two weeks!!! I'm glad that my parents give me permission to go for a concert first time ever!! BTW, i go without their permission before that!!! slap me please!!! Okay, forget about this first, i think i should be one of the most craziest people in the concert cause i suffer from flu and cough before that and it hasn't heal yet during that day, blame it to 2pm concert!!! The organizer didn't let us enter the hall although it was raining and all the people pushing each other and outside it was like a sardine!!!
Okay i will focus on MOA concert right now, I come 8am and it was many ELFs there already, blue shirts!!! sad that i didn't have one.....
我彻底的疯了!!! 失声却能够喊到那么厉害！但是真的梦想实现了，对自己今年做的承诺，都实现了。。。。最开心的事：Lee Sungmin 对我挥手了！！！！只有台和围栏的距离。。。。好近，可以那么紧看到他们，可以和所有人呼喊superman， mr simple 的口号。。。。可以看他们彩排，更在彩排时也呼喊口号。。。棒极了！！！也能在彩排结束时追着B1A4的车走，与看着车窗招手的 JinYoung 那么近距离。。。总之，太开心了！！！第一次在演唱会开始前能看到所有人，但遗憾的事，手不够长摸不到fx和gongchan的手，就在我面前伸手。。。也没有去送机虽然本有这个冲动。。。。
其实，我也看见了许多好气又好笑的事。。。。第一，好气！！！买不到有superman的衣服，银赫在comeback穿的那件！就是因为犹豫了一下没有size！！！买了有成员们名字的衣服，但入场前才发现希澈的名写错了，更气！没有厕所，虽然刚开始得到进，但之后没得进，要去公园唯一一间厕所，超脏的！进入现场时，工作人员竟然指错方向，还我们差点站在royalzone！！！跑去rockzone时，不能站在靠围栏的位置，挤死人了，因为在第二排。。。后面的亲吹了气球一直抱着，令我很不舒服！开场时所有人拿着摄影机，还我要踮脚才看到miss a 的真面目，很美，min很性感！suzy 很可爱！又向我们招手，全场笑!
还有遗憾不能看到sj彩排后的样子，我看到fx 和 b1a4 哦。。。。。sj彩排到一半，他们工作人员突然很凶赶了所有人，神精病！！！！只是喊口号和一起唱而已，再那么外面，也没看到他们，这样也要赶！
开心的事，b1a4 的队长太可爱了，真的很近。。。。真的开始喜欢他们的热情，演唱会结束后也向我们招手，上车前也是，可爱！！！新人都那么热情吗？？？？唯一开车窗招手的叻！！！ fx 也是很疯狂！！尤其是Luna！整天自high！可爱，可惜krystal没来，不然就完美！Amber 的人气很高叻！一到他出场就尖叫声连连！！厉害！！！V妈也不错啦，还有人喊nichkhun，几好笑！两个星期能见到他们夫妻俩满不错的，。。。始源也不错的，上车前还向我们鞠躬，开心死了！！！
总之，我很开心。。。。。可以喊口号，又可以那么近距离看到sj的所有成员。。。。艺声问候时真好笑！！！apa kapa？ apa kapa？ apa kapa？唉。。。。。不能顶。。。。笑死我了！sungmin很帅！！！真的！！！越来越喜欢他了！！！银赫和东海就好像很累。。。。利特呢，结束时还跑来跑去向大家鞠躬，真的很好！！！
回想起来，我们真的很幸运，这几天都在下雷雨，但偏偏当天之下了一阵小雨！！！！太幸运了。。。。因为演唱再看见天黑黑时，差点取消，太幸运了！！！我也真正看到了传说中的蓝海，真的很美。。。。。他们都很棒！！！！我永远都不会忘记的，他们带给我们的欢乐。。。。就算你们说我疯，说我傻也是一样！我真的觉得发了一场梦一样，会有下次吗？？？？希望有。。。。。

2011-10-20T01:50:00.000-07:00

救命啊！！！我要崩溃了！！！
明天开始，做工，打工，要花半天时间在做工。。。
为了考车，为了super show 4，我拼了！
一定要去看，好不容易舍弃了2pm，对不起啊哥哥们。。。。不能赢得看你们一面的票。。。。我相信我是有贵人的，真的相信。。。。
这两个星期不是什么放假，也不是 study week，而是为偶像为自己打拼的日子。人家觉得我好傻，整天沉迷在不切实际的东西，我觉得很实际！万一世界末日论是真的，我问心无愧！
应该加油了，希望大家祝福我。。。。
人生为什么不能像综艺节目般？？？笑笑一下没烦恼！^^
现实是残酷的，我知道。。。。。。
所以有些事我选择不懂。。。。。但我本身很明白。。。。。

Long time ago...

2011-10-20T01:32:00.000-07:00

Long time ago, we all are good friends, we share everything, talked everything and bluffing everything.....
Long time ago, i don't know you, you don't know me, everybody does not know each other, and we just meet in this place, hopefully will be great time among all of us, a great memory that we won't forget....
Long time ago, we throw all the burden we had, come here, spend a new life at here, try to be different at here, share a great moment at here...
Long time ago, we will speak out everything we want to say, all of us will accept it no matter is a good comment or not....
Long time ago, our class full of joy, laughter, and happy moment.....
What happen to you all recently????
where are the kind heart that can forgive everything, start a new life???
i am still searching for the reason, i know i'm very noisy, useless, maybe bring a lot of anger, i'm just someone who said "sorry" for more than a thousand times recently, like what i'm saying will make people hate me, i'm scaring of u all....what happen?
i just want everything to be normal.....
Don't just be more and more selfish, don't just never care about other's feeling....i'm not pointing to who, just...u all.
please, i know there's nothing i can do so i just sit there and watching it, there's no use if i willing to stop it, i'm useless in front of u all right?
i'm not getting mad with someone, just, i hate the surrounding right now....
I know all of u can't be like a long time ago, cause everything is changed day by day...
maybe one day when i get older i can read this and realize that "Oh! there are something like this happen in my life, wow~"
growing up is always happen, a process in our life....everybody will change and maybe the person changed the most is you....
yes, i know i am changing....i want become independent, enjoy my life, never care about something that we doesn't need to care...
p/s 去问，去关心，只会让人觉得你很鸡婆！所以不闻不问是我的选择。
加油吧！

真的吗？？？

2011-05-12T09:49:00.000-07:00

其实，我脑海里突然闪出了种种疑问。。。。
第一，所谓的韩国明星真的到现在都没谈恋爱吗？？？好奇好奇。。。。也不知道为什么。。。。
第二，现在的我，怎么有点到后退的感觉？？？？我到底在找什么？
第三，这么样的生活，我还要过到什么时候？
第四，到底要等多久才会找到能够愿意买手机给我的人？？？好羡慕。。。。。
第五，凭着“冲”字过活，能吗？我的人生永远摆脱不了的字。。。。冲动，但是，到目前为止没做过对自己不好的事。。。
我开始复古了，听老歌。。。。看以前的录影片段。。。。
不知道为什么，我有一个想跳舞的冲动。。。。。。唱歌，玩乐，如果日子可以这么样过，那该多好。。。。
如果上天真的让我有那个荣幸去认识你，那该多好。。。。。。我想。。。。正正式式地认识你们，可以吗？
人生有了那一股冲动，所有想要达到的目标一定能够达成。。。加油！！！！！
这次，只能成功，不可以再失败！！！！！

Born to be somebody

2011-04-24T06:17:00.000-07:00

Justin Bieber's song, sounds nice and i damn like it right now...
After watching his concert n 3D movie, feel like, this week is gonna be his week^^
Like him so much!
Guess what, i have watched 2 concert back to back....XD Like it....I like my life going on like this, no more worries, can it stay like now?
Even i'm still single and maybe for a long time, but i still can enjoy my life like this......
I'm just thinking that if everybody can leave everything and just enjoy their life sure it will be a wonderful world~~~ But it just my imagination....
People have higher expectation for themselves, they don't want to live their life simple, so that's why war happened everywhere....
So, all we can do just praying that everything gonna be fine soon, I will not count anything on those people who like to create war but i thanked to them because they made me feel more satisfied with my life right now....
This is called dramatic life.....Life is real,neither drama nor dream can describe it....This is life, my life...
I'm hoping that 2012 is not real, can it delay the date until 2020 or later? I want to enjoy my adult life, enjoying something i haven't experienced before.....
I always scare of the end of the world.....
God, can you give me more time to treat my family better? Let them have a better life....I want them to see me grow up and become someone can make their life better....I wish i still have the strength to do it, If next year not the end.....
I promise i will do anything i can to make them happy.....
I miss them.....and always live them.....

Happy Birthday, which i distributed special to him.....
I still remember, his birthday but i scare.....I can't read his mind at all, who is that "she"???? Who know?
feel more interested with this person.....The person always emo-ing and feel lonely, i hope i can bring happiness to him, can't i? Why a person aged 18 can think so many things like that? made me wanna understand him well if he allow me to do that.....
But, thinking I'm just a burden to him, useless thing and even maybe he is thinking I'm just someone passed by his life a while, and gone.....anyway, happy birthday to you, Thank God bringing you to this world making me happy before.....Making my heart touched for the first time, I can't forgive myself because i have forgot your birthday by the way you called and still remember my birthday.....
I just wanna become your friend, share what is in your mind right now......
In my memory, always you are the one who tell me your story.....
Hope you won't treat me as your burden.....when seeing your blog, i really wanna touch your heart and know what really happen to you.....Can you let me understand you? If there are no one accompany you this birthday, I will make you happy, as a friend.....
wanna says something, i'm not falling for this person, just an ordinary friend....and i think i can share everything with him.....

April Fool and i become a fool.....

2011-04-02T01:53:00.000-07:00

Damn it!!!!!
Changing from not really comfort become HATE!!!!
Don't make me hate you......Now i'm not because i'm always so kind to give you second chance, and also last chance....
Why don't want to speak out loudly, i don't bother you mad at me, but can you just tell me????
I will try to fix all the mistakes i did because i may not know it is a big mistake i did.....I'm always the straight forward person, hoping everyone also straight forward to me......
But, you choose to tell all this behind me, that's why i really don't like about it......
Maybe people thinking i'm a selfish person, i didn't consider about you, but why you don't sit at my side and consider about me first?!!!
I'm sure that i really feel guilty about that before.....But now, i'm not! I know someone will feel guilty than me....
Think about it, don't make me hate you, don't act in front of me, because i won't act, i'm not a good actress.....
Now, i'm thinking that i'm a fool because always thought this is my mistake......
You know what made me a fool? Everyone know it......

Don't know what's happening~

2011-03-16T06:50:00.000-07:00

WHY????
有点失落，失望的感觉。。。。。
为什么要放弃？？？？
有点不爽自己，其实我可以做得更好，却止步了。。。。
看来，还是年轻好，人老了，不能争了。。。。。
给你，你会要一个年轻少女还是已慢慢踏上成熟路线的？？？？
到底要怎么样才能追回当初的执著？？？？
我想。。。。。回到十六岁的我，无忧无虑的我。。。。。
看到妹妹这么爽，这么开心，心里有点怪怪的。。。。
我好像，妒忌她的生活了。。。。。
能够在第一次见面就给人留下印象，是多么好，多么美妙，多么幸福的事啊！！！！
这种事，在我十六岁时是不可能经历的。。。。。。我想要和她们一样~~~~但，现在的我是。。。。姐姐~~~有点不喜欢这个称呼，因为我老了。。。。。。。
心中总是觉得自己失去什么似的。。。。。
如果生命可以从来就好。。。。。我不会不会不会。。。。。选现在这条路。。。。。
为什么当初会放弃当DJ 的梦想？？？！！！
想了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。当老师很辛苦。。。。。。。。。。。。。。真的不适合我。。。。。
现在要哭也没用，因为路是自己选的，如果能，我想现在飞去韩国，看我想看的，过我想过的生活。。。。。
要怎么样撑下去呢？？？？？？

LIke it XD

2011-03-05T06:22:00.000-08:00

기분 좋은일 하나가 생겼어 너라는 사람을 만나게 된 일
Gi-bun joh-eun-il ha-na-ha saeng-gyeo-sseo neo-ra-neun sa-ram-eul man-na-ge dwin il
그리고 사랑이 있다는 걸 알게 된 일
Geu-ri-go sa-rang-i itt-da-neun geol al-ge dwin il
진짜 사랑이란 어떤 맛일까 달콤한 기분일까
Jin-jja sa-rang-i-ran eo-ddeon ma-shil-gga dal-kom-han gi-bun-il-gga
어두운 골목길 키슨 어떨까 하늘이 하얘지고 예쁜 종소리가 들릴까
Eo-du-un gol-mok-gil ki-seun eo-ddeol-gga ha-neul-i ha-yae-ji-go ye-bbeun joh-so-ri-ga deul-ril-ga
사랑이란 말, 어울리지 않는 말
Sa-rang-i-ran-mal, eo-ul-li-ji anh-neun mal
다른 세상의 일인 듯, 멀게 느껴졌던 말~
Da-reun se-sang-eui il-in deut, meol-ge neun-ggyeo-jyeott-deon mal
자꾸 가슴만 뛰고, 눈앞에 아른거리는
Ja-ggu ga-seum-man ddwi-go, nun-ap-e a-reun-geo-ri-neun
사랑을 어떻게 해
Sa-ram-eul eo-ddeoh-ge hae
I love YOU 이런 기분 사랑인가봐요
I love YOU i-reon gi-bun sa-rang-in-ga-bwa-yo
그대 없이 난 웃을 수 없죠
Geu-dae eobs-i nan u-seul su eobs-jyo
그대 사랑이고 싶은 맘에 나 달라지고 있나봐요
Geu-dae sa-rang-i-go ship-eun mam-e na dal-la-ji-go itt-na-bwa-yo
나의 마음이 기울어져가요
Na-eui mam-eum-i gi-ul-eo-jyeo-ga-yo
차가웠던 말은 모두 잊어요 oh~
Cha-ga-witt-deon mal-eun mo-du i-jeo-yo oh~
oh 눈물이 나도 나 그대면 되요 my love
Oh nun-mul-i na-do na geu-dae-myeon doe-yo my love
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날 안아줘 달콤하게 감싸줘 늘 함께하고 싶다 말해줘 또 날 두근거리게해 날 설레게 해
Nal an-a-jweo dal-kom-ha-ge gam-ssa-jweo neul ham-gge-ha-go ship-da mal-hae-jweo ddo nal do-geun-geo-ri-ge-hae nal seol-re-ge hae
자꾸만 떨리게 해 어떡해 부드러운 초콜릿처럼 달콤하게 하루하루 더 깊게 알고싶게
Ja-ggu-man ddeol-li-ge hae eo-ddeok-hae bu-deu-reo-un cho-kol-lit-cheo-reom dal-kom-ha-ge ha-ru-ha-ru deo gip-ge al-go-ship-ge
차가운 얼음 같기만한 내 맘도 녹여줄 그대의 따뜻한 사랑이 늘 처음과 같길
Cha-ga-un eol-eum gat-gi-man-han nae mam-do nok-yeo-jul geu-dae-eui dda-ddeut-han sa-rang-i neul cheo-eum-gwa gat-gil
가슴이 뛰고, 얼굴이 붉어지고
Ga-seum-i ddwi-go, eol-gul-i bolk-eo-ji-go
그대 없는 일분일초, 시계만 보는 나야
Geu-dae eobs-neun il-bun-il-cho, shi-ge-man bo-neun na-ya
아무것도 아닌 말, 울고 웃는 내 모습
A-mu-geot-do a-nin mal, ul-go ut-neun nae mo-seub
사랑하나봐
Sa-rang-ha-na-bwa
I love YOU 이런 기분 사랑인가봐요
I love YOU i-reon gi-bun sa-rang-in-ga-bwa-yo
그대 없이 난 웃을 수 없죠
Geu-dae eobs-i nan u-seul su eobs-jyo
그대 사랑이고 싶은 맘에 나 달라지고 있나봐요
Geu-dae sa-rang-i-go ship-eun mam-e na dal-la-ji-ho itt-na-bwa-yo
나의 마음이 기울어져가요
Na-eui ma-eum-i gi-ul-eo-jyeo-ga-yo
차가웠던 말은 모두 잊어요 oh~
Cha-ga-weott-deon mal-eun mo-du i-jeo-yo oh~
oh 눈물이 나도 나 그대면 되요 my love
Oh Nun-mul-i na-do na geu-dae-myeon dwi-yo my love
생각만으로 난 눈물이 나~ 그대가 멀리 떠날까봐
Saeng-gak-man-eu-ro nan nun-mul-i na ~ geu-dae-ga meol-li ddeo-nal-gga-bwa
표현하지 못했지만, 나도 알지 못했지만
Pyo-hyeon-ha-ji mot-haett-ji-man, na-do al-ji mot-haett-ji-man
이미 널 사랑하나봐
I-mi neol sa-rang-ha-na-bwa
I love YOU 난 핑크빛 세상 속에 살죠
I love YOU nan ping-keu-bit se-sang sok-e sal-jyo
내겐 온종일 햇살 비춰요
Nae-gen on-jong-il hae-sal bi-chweo-yo
그대 여자이고 싶은 맘에 나 달라지고 있나봐요
Geu-dae yeo-ja-i-go ship-eun mam-e na dal-la-ji-go itt-na-bwa-yo
그대 곁이 가장 편한 자리죠
Geu-dae gyeot-i ga-jang pyeon-han ja-ri-jyo
눈에 가장 담고 싶은 그대죠 oh baby
Nun-e ga-jang dam-go ship-eun geu-dae-jyo oh baby
oh 지금이대로 날 사랑해요 my love
Oh ji-geum-i-dae-ro nal sa-rang-hae-yo my love

HOPE~

2011-03-03T11:01:00.000-08:00

hopefully....i am doing the right thing for them......haha^^

Sleep....

2011-02-11T09:20:00.000-08:00

zzzzzzzzzzzz............
sleep until 11pm, and now.....
become night cat^^ haha, translate from Chinese language......XD
what can i do????
i'm planning a trip playing at Ipoh, the place i stay for study.....
which place is suitable???
actually i can't wait to meet with them in the place i stay.....the feeling is different from gather with them in hometown....

don't know how to spend the time this weekend....i want to save money......
i'm starting to learn guitar, it's hard.....not as easier as i think so it might be a big challenge for me.....Moving out from hostel is such a different feeling, different kind of surrounding...but i like it.....XD

Suddenly think that i wanna try something different....clubbing, or maybe can go out till midnight......That's why i like to move out....

Photo

2011-01-29T08:42:00.000-08:00

摄影。。。。。拍照，原来真的很重要。。。。。因为，我们往往不懂这次的相遇是第几次，或许，这会是最后一次，所以，每一刻每一秒都要以照片作为曾经相遇的证据。。。。。
照片也反映出岁月的流逝。。。。。最不珍惜的，可能会是往后最需要的。。。。。
开始喜欢加入照片里。。。。。开始制造自己的回忆。。。。。。让自己有一天醒觉。。。。领悟。。。。自己曾经那么开心过。。。。。
用照片回忆一切，永远是最好的方法。。。。。
希望往后的日子再制造这些回忆。。。。。。

weird...

2011-01-25T01:51:00.000-08:00

想长大了，想拍拖了。。。。因为朋友们都有男女朋友的照顾。。。。好幸福。。。
可以随便找一个吗？可以让我幸运些，认识一个好男人吗？？？？
我不贪心，但，。。。。。还是过不了心理那一关。。。。。唉。。。。。
还是被自己爱挑的性格害死了啦，难道，我真的要当老姑婆了？？？？？？
救我。。。。。。

yeah!

2011-01-13T05:01:00.000-08:00

dream comes true^^
we get the house finally, thanks to those who so kind to let us rent the house....thanks^^
tomorrow will go back home, my lovely home....
shopping!!!!!! Go shopping!!!!! i want to buy some cny's shirts and pants....desperate right now, just bought two shirts only.....
Many things i gotta do during this weekend.....still~~~~ full with homework and i'm sure can finish it soon...haha^^
Hope tomorrow can reach faster......

头痛~

2011-01-12T03:32:00.000-08:00

为了房子的事，大家都忙到半命。。。。唉。。。。
今天只能求神拜佛咯。。。。他们不要那房子就行了。。。。。
累了~ 天天都忙到要命。。。。可以轻松点吗？？？？真不懂。。。。
这只是有点埋怨啦。。。。一定会不满足的，人嘛~~~~
又要讲人生道理了~哈哈~~~
不要一直不爽自己身边的一切，要开始懂得惜福~~~ 因为，被选来这儿，就是一个福气~~~ 没有磨练就不会成功，别因为被安排到不想被安排的组别而不开心，合作、感情，是慢慢培养的。。。。。
还有，开始厌倦，不喜欢扮可怜的人。。。尤其是逞强的人。。。。
在你面前做到很厉害，不需要帮忙，但，在其他人面前做到很委屈，扮可怜~~~~讨厌！
所以，心软只让那些人变本加厉，我，不会容许这种东西发生在我视线的，看不顺眼就会讲。。。。唉。。。
我是嘴巴多嘛。。。。请别怪我，因为真的没眼看~~~~~

2011

2011-01-04T01:31:00.000-08:00

First update for 2011.....XD
又回到学院了。。。。怪怪的。。。。
有点说不出的陌生。。。。。才两天而已嘛。。。。engine还没真正燃烧。。。哈哈~
祝我的朋友都会考好成绩（中五中六的）。。。
现在呢，希望能去sj的演唱会啦。。。。想很久了。。。。如果不去不知几时才会有这么样的机会，听人家说，上了degree后会越来越忙，第一学期最轻松的，所以要好好享受啦！
就是这样，有些事总是那么的不顺利。。。。。想做的做不到，不想做的却。。。。唉~ 读老师有点命苦~~~~我得承认，但，都过了一年半，还能不接下去吗？花了那么多时间和精力，要放弃吗？不由得我来决定~~~~ 这是事实~~~
回到这儿，开心的：又要放假了！要搬出去了！！！！自由了！！！！
不开心：闷，累，无聊。。。。。要开始变乖乖女，好老师！坚强！不要被人看扁！不要被学生欺负！！！！是我的小小愿望。。。。
摆脱了工作，又要上课！人生，就是这样，永远永远不会停止~ 始终在转动着。。。。身边的一切在演变着，好的坏的，就是这样。。。。
长大了，就要学会变，变坚强，变得聪明，自立！不会依赖别人。。。。。
也学到了一样：假装~~~~
今天朋友说：摩蝎座的人很难猜测，是吗？
其实，我的心都是表现在我的脸叻！生气，开心就是学不到怎样假装。。。。。。
所以，我的脾气并不好~~~~~

到了全新的一年，我，又变老了，二十，好一个耀眼又伤心的数字啊！！！
我，不再天真无邪，不能幼稚，不能不顾仪态，因为，我已经长大了！真的长大了~
伤心~~~~~~~

wow~

2010-12-22T10:33:00.000-08:00

today is mai's birthday and we are having a very very great time gather together...
special thanks to ah teng, because she fetch me go to penang's Neway so i can meet with they all, and luckily it's wednesday and i not need to work....haha^^
But something bad happen too....teng receive a "saman".....what the.....
Should blame that police....OMG!
"kamu akan dikenakan saman sebanyak RM200 kerana bercakap dalam telefon semasa memandu di lebuh raya".....so unlucky...
"kamu mau kena saman ke?" what the....
so we give him duit kopi RM100.....can drink a coffee with RM100....shit....
but, it can't stop our happiness when we reached Neway, singing karaoke from 7++ to 1++. special thanks to leng's boyfriend who is working at Neway which give us benefit to sing more, actually our time is till 12am only....
really miss the moment together....
mai, heok, joann, leng, teng, san, yong, narea and ryan....XD
Hope next time we can hang out like this again.....
miss they all so much, and now all of us busying with our things.....sad....and there are just a little time we can hang out together, and thank God i can meet with them....
this is the only event make my holiday become an unforgettable holiday....
miss you all!!!!

Haizzz...

2010-12-09T08:26:00.000-08:00

Don't know why.....i feel some....."失落感"
有种挫败，全军覆没的感觉。。。。怎么办？
觉得自己很很很白痴。。。。笨蛋，每次对美希望的东西抱希望。。。。。怎么办？
可以不要让我胡思乱想了吗？？？

幸好，家人都很好，对我很好。。。。。
如果不是，我一定撑不了的。。。。
老实说，想念好多人。。。。。
没见过面有六年的同学。。。。。
毕业了两年的同学。。。。
感觉人生真的是一直在轮转。。。。。。身边的人随着年龄，都是不同的。。。。
小学，一群好玩的朋友。。。。。
上了中学，又学会更刺激的。。。。朋友又变了。。。。
到了现在，来到人生该定各自未来时，朋友又变了。。。。变成事业接近的。。。。同行。。。。
但是，还是会回忆起自己当初的那些无知，幼稚，可爱的朋友，想念他们。。。。
希望能出席那聚会。。。。怎么办？
我想保留所有的一切，希望大家会记住我。。。。哈哈~
因为，我也是很想你们。。。。。。真的。。。。
无论你们现在在哪个角落。。。。。期待~~~
今天有那么多感触，就因为昨晚和一些老朋友联络，谈了起来，真的忽略了他们。。。。。
加上工作时遇回好多中学同班。。。。。想起大家疯狂的事，我还能那么疯吗？？？

like a star

2010-12-08T05:07:00.000-08:00

A song...nice^^ i like to listen to it....
Again long time didn't update my blog already....T.T
Feel very very busy la....haha^^
One thing to say......I get my salary already^^ and i have bought a new shoes and now, i am focusing on a new sport shoes and also formal wear....Hope i can buy it....XD
One problem is, no time....I have worked so so hard for the salary....RM1000 ++ !!!! I want it soooo much, so i must work very very hard....without rest except wednesday....So i can update my blog today.....
When i earn more and more money like now, i can spend it whatever i like.....
Now, one more big big problem, primary classmates gathering! OMG!!! Held during i am working......Sienzzzz....
I wish i can go because in my memory, i haven't went even one time, although they have held it twice a year, or maybe more......Maybe they have forgot about me, who knows?
Actually wanna gather with them and see what they are doing right now...
Someone was going for A level next year, to continue his dream to become a pilot......
T.T sure is bad news for me.....Party.....
But now the important thing is working~~~

haizzz....

2010-11-27T08:11:00.000-08:00

Second time update my blog....
Actually i think now i can get in with them...Good...Although i am older....
Gambateh^^
Working with all people younger than me....nice, make me feel younger....
i think i will miss all the time with them...
Thanks Chia Wei and her friend who can accept me....I will do my best to stay good with you all....btw, Chia Wei is my sister....XD
maybe sometimes will feel bored but....is okay.....
Working with you all make me feel very happy...

Working~

2010-11-25T08:53:00.000-08:00

Haha....This is the first time i update my blog since the midyear holiday....haha^^
Say hello to my little diary and i will try to update more and more from today...
I'm very tired of working today...and very angry and disappointed with all of them...
Feel very unlucky since i have been working...
first, hit the steel wall....OMG!!!! Is hurt!!!! But, after that i'm okay already, what an embarrassing moment... Sure many people are laughing at me...
The next day, i adjusting the shirt and....what the ......I have 2 years experiences although i not working at there 2 years already....and....don't know why...hit something again, light bulb!!!! and breaks......
the glasses fell at the floor and hit my head again!!! Sad!!!
And....no mood to say it already...just let it go....
But, some funny things also happened....
my sister and her friend, just 15 years old, and 3 part time worker, same age with them,...
i have to make friend with them and OMG! Guess what, really didn't have any same topic with those "piggy" ^^ They are so cute! the way they talked.....Very like a child, yes, they still a child.....
and my sister has made some nickname for them, cockroach, bee, elephant, big mouth...
wow......Sure i laugh everyday because of their act....childish act, make me reflash back some sweet memories with my part time friend when we are same age as my sister....Funny.....Meaningful XD

Stupid...~~~

2010-11-08T16:38:00.000-08:00

Yor....What the....!!!
I woke up so early and now telling me that the exam is at afternoon?!!
haizzzz.....A bit angry and tired, thought can go back after exam, but now.....
need to wait until afternoon....
And somemore...my broadband is not functioning! i can't play games and online facebook....
I hate it!hate it!

我不受这一套~

2010-11-05T06:16:00.000-07:00

很奇怪叻。。。一直在检讨自己，可是，还是做不到！
我做不到随随便便认识一个男的，然后拍拖，就算我又多渴望。。。哈哈~
失败！
因为没次都忍不住对他们冷言冷语的。。。。好笑！
真的不知道能讲什么，没共同话题！Out!
讲那些喜欢来喜欢去，见几次面而已？幼稚！Out！

累了。。。。为什么现在的人都那么随便？是我太土？
交友，我很乐意！但讲不到几下就讲喜欢的。。。。。累！
有点不喜欢咯。。。。。。。
所以每次都失败下场~

从讲话的方式就判人死刑，应该吗？

20 and 17?

2010-11-05T05:16:00.000-07:00

Aduh, something made me headache again....
姐弟恋？妈呀！真的要气死我了。。。。
虽然我也是有过，但差三岁？！未免太离谱了？
成功就好，不要等下又分。。。。。哇。。。佩服她！
一个小弟弟也要。。。。帅是帅！可是。。。。小了一点。。。。
唉。。。。。头痛，现在真不懂谁才是姐姐，好像是我。。。。。显~~~
总之，只能盼她能找到最爱咯。。。。。。

Going back home

2010-10-27T09:53:00.000-07:00

First time think that going back home is such a great feelings....
Haha~ I can't sleep, wanna eat many food cooked by papa and mami....
I wish i can fly back by this time, without anything worries....XD
I know my life is hard right now, but i will try my best to earn more money when i step into the school and teach the pupils.... I want to make my family feel better unlike now...
I will say we still can survive in such this life but is hard....
not really poor or not enough, just not enough for me.....
I want better life, to realize all my dreams.... Yes to catch up my dreams...
1）i can go travel some places in my country, Malaysia...Yes I did it by going to Cameron, Genting, KL, Penang, Melaka and Johor, is enough already~
2) To travel to overseas, at least a country, maybe Singapore or Thailand....If can, I want to travel at Italy, Spain, and France, my dream countries....
3) Still travelling, but with my family.....
4) I can go for a concert, no matter who the presenter is...I think i can did it next year.
5) Go clubbing! Having fun....maybe i can do it this year....before it ends...
6）Dating~ I miss that moment....
7）can date with a guy maybe is an actor or any famous people (maybe will not realize)

Can get together with people i really love at the end,....
Wow, so many things have to be done, can i?

If i want~

2010-10-26T03:17:00.000-07:00

If i want to go back home, i didn't need to hear others say about....I just go back, this is me....
Actually saying in hostel is also such a boring week for me, and i know it is study week.....
Actually in my schedule, there are no such a word "study" and i'm just telling the truth not lying.....
Maybe people will think i am lying in this case, but i really hate study!
Doing revision is such a boring thing, and i will choose to spend my time go to entertain myself....Don't you think so?
Is such a big deal for me....
I don't know what will happen to me after this semester....
People is getting closer and closer after a long period, but why i didn't think so? Even feel so? Like become further and further....Don't know how to say, maybe i should go back home and relaxing myself, now i don't even recognize who myself was....such a sad thing for me.....
Who am I? What i'm trying to do this one and a half year? Why i feel like i am wasting my time?
I am going to be a teacher on future....can i do that?
If i really can't do it, i will choose made myself fail in the exam....is good for me ........
But, i will think i have already spent one and a half year at here, and studying with nothing (i don't know why i still staying at here).....maybe i should try my best to do all these thing~ Sure i will become a good teacher....XD
I still thinking if i choose to continue my studies at Form Six, what will happen to me right now? Same as my friend? Fail??? Get a bad result? Fail in MUET?
I don't know....Maybe i should look forward....no choice....
Really suffering to pretend i'm okay studying at here....this is the truth....
I want go back.....Maybe just get something from my family, their support....

Still~

2010-10-21T06:49:00.000-07:00

Tired~ But if didn't go out, what can i do? what i can eat? So many wh questions....
moody right now....headache and boring~~~
I want to think for something i can do to avoid myself being boring~~~
Why am i starting to think about many impossible things?
Can i just stop think about it for a second?
My God! Is that mean i am getting older and older? So i have started to think about my future? Or what?
Tired.......

still in love XD

2010-10-20T07:03:00.000-07:00

one of my favorite JYJ's song... nice.... 10000 times like it XD
don't know why i always listening to JYJ's song.... Very nice and comfortable...Good job man for singing English songs....I like them soooo much!
Start looking forward to their concert next year! haha^^
I'm trying to find as if i can find their album, but i didn't so sad~ Maybe i shall go Hong Kong Video and search for it....wow....
Suddenly become big fans of them.....There are many more songs nice....like I can't soar, Ayyy Girl, Be the One, Found You, Empty, Be My Girl....and more XD
One more thing, maybe there will be the end of the world during year 2012, so i must do something so i won't feel regret all the years i had lived in this world.....I must try to realize all my hopes and dreams and all my family's dream....I will spend more time on them....
I can feel that.....God began to take the life of human slowly, step by step....start with some virus....then wars.....and natural disasters, accidents.....all happen non stop in our life.....So must appreciate all the things we had right now....Our family....
Suddenly i miss them sooo much.....Can i fly back home right now?

Everything is back XD

2010-10-19T08:09:00.000-07:00

Glad to see my friends are fine again....XD
haha^^
Hope tomorrow we will have the happy moment...haha^^
haha^^

Maybe i should think of something good for me already XD
i just realized that if i can speak out all the things, that means i'm fine already...i'm still me.....haha^^ ignore me XD

Talking about an ideal guy, or an ideal boyfriend for me, suddenly i have such this thinking...haha^^
1) he must be handsome, for sure, but if not really handsome never mind (i am lying haha^^)....

2) i want he knows something about music, for example he knows to play some music instruments like guitar, piano, violin, just either of them...XD

3) no need too tall...but better he is taller than me....haha^^

4) He is a humor guy, and like to talk funny things and always make me laugh....
* important XD

5) He knew about sports news, and know to play some balls....(eg, basketball, badminton, football, tennis, motor racing.....etc) better know one of it...haha^^

6) He can sing....sing love song by playing music instrument....have a nice voice...and most importantly, he know about romance, and if he can surprise me anytime...XD I like it....

7) Dancing....know to dance....wow... break dance XD

8) I will totally fall in love with him....

9) sometimes he is cute...no need to pretend in front me...

10) No need to be so gentlemen... Just need to be mature enough... I hate some naive act^^

11) He cares about me, messaging me always...

12) If he can be like Nickhun from 2pm, kim jae joong (Hero) from JYJ, Junsu(Xiah) from JYJ......One characteristic of them....

13) He can protect me always.....

14) He has some value that i can cheer for him always....

15) He is a shining star....wow! that will be great!

Conclusion: 3 of them is the most ideal guy for me right now....i wish to have such a exciting journey of love...Sure it will be fun....
Almost perfect, but who suit it? haizzz..... My prince, when will you appear???

SAD MOMENT IN MY CLASS~

2010-10-18T04:54:00.000-07:00

Everything is unexpected.....XD
i don't know why~ Something will happen suddenly, even we don't want it to happen....
Why? Why always at this time our class will have many problems?
Today i can see there are different atmosphere in the class, like it will be burst at anytime, this is what i am worrying about....
Actually i don't know what is really happening, i just heard it from other friends...

I want to find someone in my class to share something happen in my life....XD
Like i may fall in love...or i want to share some Korean music, but nobody cares,....
I know actually i'm not like someone important in class...
Without he/her, they just feel can't survive, that is what i think~
If i disappear by suddenly....nobody knows and nobody even cares...
Yes, i am always trying my best not to know anything....unless they tell me.....I know i am not worth to tell because my mouth can't keep any secret....yes, i admit it....haha^^
If i know something, i will try my best to help them who face problems.....
What must i do to help this class just be as when we just meet each other?
Something weird happen....even though someone closed to each other can be no longer good at anytime and i am worrying about it....

B 型女~

2010-10-17T06:09:00.000-07:00

有你在的地方一定有欢笑，你善良，调皮，任性，霸道与贴心。你看起来活泼好动，但实际内心深处，你有些自卑而自负，你希望自己能把事情做到最好，你很在乎别人对你的评价，你的性格像小孩，单纯直接，情绪化，喜怒哀乐写在脸上，你没有心机，但也缺少些自我保护的能力，你表面看来很容易相处，但想要走进你的内心世界其实并不容易，你需要人家的鼓励，包容，宠爱和肯定，其实你也常常自我反省，你希望自己能做到起码80%的完美，但你似乎没那个毅力，所以你的情绪变化无常，一定是被这些因素困扰的。

今天的我要向大家介绍几首韩国歌。。。。超好听的。。。。。
2pm 的新歌~ ｉ＇ｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｔｈｅｒｅ～　
ｂｅａｓｔ～　Ｓｏｏｍ
Ｓｅ７ｅｎ～　Ｉ＇ｍ　Ｇｏｉｎｇ　Ｃｒａｚｙ
ＪＹＪ－Ａｙｙｙ　Ｇｉｒｌ
尤其是最后一首。。。超好听！
Ｘｉａｈ　Ｍｉｃｋｙ　Ｈｅｒｏ～好帅！

Adam Lambert

2010-10-13T23:43:00.000-07:00

He is a good singer, but, due to people had convinced that he is a gay, he had lost in the final of American Idol.....He supposed to win that time, he had a good voice, powerful and i like his song soooo much....
Actually he is a gay or not really an important thing? I don't think so...
I found out there are still many people have such that narrow thinking....
He is coming to Malaysia for a concert and we as fans should cheer for him, and not criticize him because he is a gay...
Many people asking about his sexuality issue rather than listening to his song and shout for him....
I want to be one of the audience....But....I'm still in Ipoh....Attending classes.....
Hopes he can come again next time!

U smile, i smile

2010-10-13T07:32:00.000-07:00

haha^^ Bieber's song again.... Nice^^
listening to this song while typing this article...
Actually because of boring, i have became active in some groups again...
When i read Ryan's wall which asking a question "Do you think that love at first sight is possible?".... Suddenly wanna do a survey to ask people's opinion, and that is what i get...
Is possible but it may not last longer....
Still can be said it is possible to last forever and never change the feelings....is a good feeling, but hard for people to experience it....
But there are also some of them always experience this kind of feelings. But for them, this kind of feel just a temporary feeling and cannot be last. This is what i said, maybe among all these people, there is someone who you really fall for....and i can be last forever....
Actually the probability for people to find true love at first sight is...0.00000001% ? or even worse.....
maybe i will start to do more research about that...and someday i will find my true love XD
sometimes really envious with people who always get together and closer to each other, people in relationship....
Someday i will get one, but when is it???
I hope it can happen earlier, before i am getting older and older~

sienzzzz~

2010-10-12T08:33:00.000-07:00

人为什么那么自恋的，难道我一定是非你不行吗？神经病~什么时代了？
你不珍惜，我为什么要珍惜? 我才没那么笨~哈哈~
所以呢，女生也该理智点，别再为任何人要死要活的。。。。没用~ 没人会珍惜你的。。。。所以，提高自己，让自己变得更有价值，自然有更多人欣赏。。。。告诉他：“没你也行！还会更好！”
听到那些人自恋的说你还喜欢他，想念他！什么东西？为什么要想念你？
既然都有各自生活了，请放手。。。。
会是，更好的~
别让他觉得你很厌倦。。。。。

2010-10-11T07:35:00.000-07:00

跟他chating 了~
哈哈~真爽~ 小弟弟~ 加油！

等到了。。。

2010-10-10T07:13:00.000-07:00

终于等到了，千年一次的10.10.10 10:10 好开心~
觉得值得纪念咯。。。。
很不错的一天~

纪名浩~

2010-10-10T05:08:00.000-07:00

这个人很厉害~他不是明星~ 不是什么出名的人~ 就是引到我的留意。。。
是面子书的一个朋友。。。。大我妹妹一岁~哈哈~
当然不是喜欢他，也不是产生什么兴趣，只是引到我注意咯。。。。
看名字就很特别了，我所认识的人应该只听过一个姓“纪”的。。。。
奇怪的姓。。。。
就是又特别加上特出。。。。这些是从他“状态”看出的。。。老实说，要在年纪轻轻就有一定的程度真的很难~
所以：佩服他！强中强，遇强更强。。。。跟其他州手没分别。。。不错~ 他是个热爱羽球的人。。。。应该很厉害吧！有潜能，又会游泳，跆拳道，会beat box。。。。难得一见。。。。哈哈~
就觉得人太厉害就开始觉得压力。。。可能吧。。。小小年纪就得承受那么多，真可怜，明明赢了，还是被讲，被批评。。。唉，幸好我不是压力中成长的，谢天谢地，谢谢爸妈从不给我压力，很好~

今天是十月十日一零年。。。。千年才见一次的。。。10.10.10...是值得纪念的，好多人选这一天，结婚，拍拖，和恋人或家人度过，还有，今天还是礼拜叻。。。。更特别，不知你们有没有在此时去喝亲戚的喜酒呢？
我呢，则是像普通一样度过，早上就去踢球（很明显，被逼的），然后买晚餐。。。。然后睡觉，发我的白马王子梦。。。。哈哈~
到现在，很闷，就上了面子书，写了那么多。。。哈哈~
等一下，会等10：10 10.10.10 的到来。。。。期待。。。。

Honestly

2010-10-07T06:02:00.000-07:00

We don't know who are we behind ours.....like sometimes, somebody we knew well doesn't like what we think about, and sometimes betrayal can happen in anyplace, anytime, anyone around us....So, just say truly, have you ever hurt somebody accidentally?
Maybe you had, but you don't know it....
Like what we think right now, everything just nearly to be perfect~ Is that perfect will last long? How long? Forever? Non stop? There might have one day, one day which you will face the truth, nothing can last forever, even how sweet, how happy, how much you want... It can't...
Just ready to face the truth....Nothing can last forever, maybe you will not be the one get hurt...
Someone is play a fool! Just want to warn her that she is nothing~ Nobody will be sad without somebody, they will get a new person soon~
So, what you did, you will get what you will be paid~
Actually this is just caring about my friend, doesn't mean anything for me...
Just think sometimes, why does we be like that?
Don't know how to face the truth, not even when you really fall for someone....
Why not just try it? Everything also need a try before we know how it feels...
trying is just made you become stronger~ Not other means...
I always want to become a journalist, write about some articles, or books about me, my life, what i have faced, my own experiences, share everything with all the people...
So, i am always thinking about sometimes i may have became a famous writer, write something about our lives... and all the meaning of lives...
I will start by keeping update the blog... write my experiences...
Listening to music can make me feel better, i have more idea in writing...
Doing things right is my purpose....
And help to fix up all the bad things in my life, hope someone will appear soon to help me fix all those things....
My dream.....To live a simple life...with someone i love so much, and my beloved family and all the trustworthy friends....Hope i can get more than that....
Dreaming about can get a guy know what meant by romance....A guy can entertain me, can make me fall for him, do every stupid thing for him...
Even i don't meet anyone like this yet, i'm sure i can get one soon....By that time, i will not think about handsome guys, or like other guys appeared in front for me, this what we called destiny, my destiny, i hope it can as beauty as the wonderful story.....
Date with someone famous....Is what i always dream for~ Like other girls, simple~

Steamboat^^

2010-10-07T02:54:00.000-07:00

Hope that i can make it~
i want to eat steamboat~ aim for it soooo much^^
tomorrow i will go to eat~ when i am thinking about this, i can't stop think about many delicious food in front of me....
OMG!!!!!!
Very hungry right now!

Gambateh^^

2010-10-04T06:38:00.000-07:00

This is what i said to my sister, wei^^
Hope she can get a good result because i can see she put many effort on it, every time i go back i will see her studying Math, for her exam, and keep on asking me when she have something don't understand~
Hope it will help me get in a better class next year, i really hope so...
If can, hope she can surprise us one more time, like what she did in UPSR. Something good but unexpected...surprise^^
i think she can do it~
hardworking person will get something nice for them, and i'm not one of them, so am i deserve to get a better result? or what shall i do to make myself become someone can compete with other person?
If i really can do so, i should do it before, not now...because i know my future already, no matter what i do, what i work hard for, i am still a future teacher^^
No more forensic and no more journalist~
i get a pay back because i am not trying harder~

Hopeless,useless,speechless

2010-10-02T01:21:00.000-07:00

i don't what is happening and it makes me very scared~
i don't know what to do right now~ what will happen soon? can somebody tell me?
i'm sick of this kind of life~ meaningless....i want something more~
Why i'm always the one gonna be sacrificed? i hate it!
Somemore, why when i'm coming back here everything bad will come around? i don't understand~
can somebody ensure my family will always safe and happy? i am very scared right now....
i need someone to hear what i am going to talk about....Without using suspicious eyes on me....Can you?
I get angry just now, i don't know what should i talk with him....even though i am regretting right now~
Is he really made me regret to do so? why he don't ever care about us? Can he spend more time on us? Stay at home please!
i'm sick of the day waiting for him to come back, worrying about him, scared something might happen to him...even i am afraid to answer the phone....i just keep calling and calling, can you don't make me worry about you?
My tears drop uncontrolled when i am typing this, is real~
i feel scared, i don't know what is gonna be happened soon...
i'm not angry of you, just worrying what happened to you, I am your daughter, i will try to help you even though i don't know whether i can help or not...
can you just stay away from such these thing? Get back to us please, don't ever made us worried about you~
very suffer to hide the feeling you know?
i have said that i will not go back anymore after this and i am wrong....
i will still coming back...even though every comeback made me sick and sad, and suffer....
i do all of this for us, our family~
Please don't go away~

Is Over!

2010-09-28T20:44:00.000-07:00

Many things happened, but now is over, what left is just two more presentations....oral is over, just like that only, wow! great great great!
Please don't bother about me, i just simply write what i wanna write, not referring to any of you, so please don't worry~
everything is about privacy~ i think....i didn't have it~
Don't know why i feel like that~ Hoping that one day i can get my freedom, a real freedom, not only for a while, but forever^^
Today's oral can be said very hard, the topic "Education"....seems very hard to speak out...i have paused so many time, don't know what shall i talk....but luckily all of it had past....Good!
So, is party time! Will go out later.....
hopefully will have a great time later~
p/s: i'm the one who put my privacy and freedom in my top place, don't you ever challenge me with that! I hate it~

其实~

2010-09-28T06:28:00.000-07:00

你说你~被人利用~你有没有想过，你也是一样，一直在利用人！
人就是这样，互相利用~就是有这类型的人，才会令我们平静的生活变得充满烦恼~
所以，真的能避免人与人之间不会互相利用吗？
老实说，我也一样，为了某某目的，利用了不少的人~淡，我也清楚，相同的时间内，我也会被人利用回，只是不懂几时而已，有时，不懂好过懂~
在这里，希望明天的考试能够顺利过关吧！
真的对我的组员怀有万分的亏欠，就是不会计时，害到我们浪费了很多时间~
讲得又不太好，组员太强了~就是这样，希望他们别怪我~~~
怕怕~~~~怕以后不知怎样过，怕四年难过~
怕家乡朋友疏远了我~~~~~好多好多怕怕~
其实，我还很想你的，我还喜欢你~ 你呢？

LOST WORLD^^

2010-09-25T07:47:00.000-07:00

i'm very happy today......XD
i can give up everything~ ya, everything....i knew i can do it, and i have done it^^
a full release for me right now.....when the things become impossible, i will try to forget it^^ maybe it is good for me to pay my attention on my teenage age.... doing something meaningful like hang out with my friendssss.....it's gonna be a great time^^
i can't wait for that moment, Lost World, theme park..... a bit like Sunway Lagoon, actually i haven't go either of the places....so i must go and find out the water park...it is good for me^^
already packed what i should bring for the trip...... After coming to this college for one and a half year, this is the first time i go the nearest water park....i really can't wait for it^^
Hopes everything will go well tomorrow ^^
wow~~~a great memory for me.....
one week later will be the angels and owners meet each other and play together....
with no doubt, there is hard for my owner to know me in real.......
Hopes he doesn't mind, i don't know how to talk, how to make us more closer, i just try my best^^

Wish me luck^^

2010-09-24T02:31:00.001-07:00

The time is coming, 2 hours to go and we will meet together for the celebration of mooncake festival~ hahahaha^^
Everything will go on without any mistake, this is what i hope for this function~
Okay, actually today is my father's birthday^^ very happy but i can't go back home....That's why i feel sad all the time....

2010-09-22T19:40:00.000-07:00

I got to move on and be who i am

2010-09-22T19:32:00.000-07:00

i gotta go on my own way, like what i'm feeling right now.....

at least for now, i gotta go on my own way........

the song's lyric is like that:

i got to move on and be who i am,

i just don't belong here, i hope you understand

we might find our place in this world someday~

but at least for now, i gotta go on my own way...

hopeless, breathless, the beginning of the sad atmosphere~~~~

but, i must leave, i must choose the right choice, not sticking around there....doing nothing~

So, i will try to forget everything and start my life right now, i have many friends concern about me, i will try my best not to let them disappointed...

So, everything is over right now, i hope you knew it~

haizzz...

2010-09-21T20:30:00.000-07:00

don't know why....my heart like...unpredictable.....i don't know how to describe it....

always think about something unnecessary, it supposed to be impossible! i try to remind myself not to think on it, but i can't , please, somebody help me help me......if not, i think i will be dead...

sad i can't go back home and celebrate mooncake festival...i want go home~~~

somemore, there are tiring for me....many presentation with no breaks....how i'm gonna handle all those things?

i can't eat, everytime i eat, i feel like wanna vomit, can somebody help me?

i think i can't withstand anymore, i want burst already!!!!!

i can't finish even my lunch right now, just eat a little bit only.......

中秋节快乐~ 不快乐！

2010-09-21T07:38:00.000-07:00

哎。。。。不知道做么，今年的中秋节有点怪怪的~有点想回家庆祝的感觉~

妈咪没做工。。。。大姐早放工~ 能够一家团聚的~唯独我。。。有点想哭~ 想家~

再加上拜五就是爸爸的生日了。。。。希望能陪他度过，他都要到五十岁了~

呜呜~ 想想想~ 真的。。。。

怎么办？

开心是开心，还是缺乏自信。。。。不是我，一定不是我，别胡思乱想了~

哇。。。

2010-09-20T06:42:00.000-07:00

朋友的歌唱比赛，他进到三强，又选中他应该唱的歌~不错不错~。。。。

很开心，因为喊到沙哑不是白费的~哈哈~ 他得了第二名~

先别说这个了。。。。

今天的呈堂好像不太理想，有点失望~真的。。。。有种怎么努力，也比不上别人的感觉，也怪自己当作草草了事罢了。。。。。如果努力些，不带原文上场，就会比较好了~

后悔莫及。。。。。哈哈~ 无论如何，过了，过了，很好！

接下来还有很多东西等着我叻。。。。

我觉得，不知为何，突然了解一件事，人，还是以貌取人的多，或是于利益作为中心，每利用价值的人，是不可能得到更好的。。。。。为什么？

有点苦恼，有点难过，有点不满，更有点不服。。。。

怎么做才好呢？要怎么证明我说错了？我说错了吗？

希望如此。。。。。

Sober

2010-09-18T11:41:00.000-07:00

I am talking to him right now, late night, i don't know why...
at first, just wanna do a survey with him, so desperate....last minute find people for my survey...XD
then, i found his humor and can't stop talking with him...what does it feel?
people love logical thinking, and so is him.
he just found out his friend betrayed him, get his girlfriend, so he is very hurt now, and tomorrow is his trial exam and he is still talking with me right now....
i think he will choose to go back china with his father who worked there since he was young. China?
he is the one who went for Shanghai Expo last time....Why? he still appear in my life even though it is impossible for us to get together, just best friend, if he think like that...
Erm....flashing back the great time i had with him last time...
Maybe when i already forget about him, he will try to appear in my life again...
i don't know why, these few days i can't sleep well...tomorrow after depart back to ipoh i must have a nice nice sleep...i scared i can't withstand anymore!
one more person, also suddenly appear and suddenly disappear, i hate him! if i can, i don't want to talk with him anymore!Why i am the person who need to work first? i don't want be that person~

2010-09-12T10:19:00.000-07:00

No idea! No idea!

for my assignmentsss! really feel sick of it! what must i do right now?

i didn't touch the assignments yet, still waiting~ waiting until when? i also don't know...

i still have time to posting something at here, very weird isn't it?

i also don't know why i always stuck in fb and games....didn't even touch my assignments even it supposed to be finished early. then, i'm sure i can go happy hour already, why i always like that?

i can't stay like that anymore, i must at least do something today, for math or english or both! i don't care! must force myself to have idea for it...

2010-09-10T00:32:00.000-07:00

Everything can change...just a moment.....

like a feeling.....maybe you think that you like a person, so much, so desperate....but maybe after a long time or maybe just a short time, you don't know what it feels already~

Like me, i think i like this guy and that guy, but just after a while i saw the one who is better, i will forget about the guy i had said i fallen for him before....Why?

Just .... you want to be the one who hurt people or the one been hurt? Maybe i had chosen not to be hurt, so i try to forget all those impossible things in my life, try to lock myself not to fall in love so easy....

If you have heard i like someone and someone, sure is fake~ if i really like someone sure i will not speak it out! because my face is very thin...hehe^^ i guess you all understand what i'm talking about XD

okie, i must start my assignment now! and i will write about italy, my favorite country^^

Tired...until.....

2010-09-08T10:49:00.000-07:00

你知道吗？人尽然能累到不累。。。。唉。。。。那就是今晚的我。。。该说。。最后一天工作。。。。本想晚点去的，老板娘叫到。。。。不能不去。。。。

一天二十四小时，我花十三小时工作。。。。应该说是十四小时阿！

多恐怖！人多。。。。蛮爽的。。。因为折折裤。。。。。招待招待顾客。。。。就这样~十一点晚上了！今晚，我就是这样~

哈哈~想想做多一天就可以真正享受我的假期，真的很开心~

快快！撑完十四小时！加油。。。。

哈哈~最重要，赚钱！

又每晚可以坐mercedes 回家~

老板娘亲自载耶！爽到~

Miracle!

2010-09-01T07:12:00.000-07:00

Miracles could happen....and i believe that~ i know something real and full of happiness will happen...and i am waiting for it~

You know, in the world maybe just a miracle can happen in a month... Somebody you love will fall in love to you soon......That is really special and amazing!

Not just what you think.....but is real! Not just in your dream, no more dreaming~

If all this become real.....i will.....wow~ i can't imagine it~

Just guess what will happen to me soon and check it out~ XD

Amazing^^

2010-09-01T07:07:00.000-07:00

When you know about something that will make you happy.....That's it!

i'm very happy to hear about that.....although not from the people i want to know.....

Wishing them.....really.....

Teenage Dream!

2010-08-31T04:10:00.000-07:00

i'm still teenager! i have my own freedom! i don't want my life full of studies, assignment and all these stupid damn thing! i want to leave......

If give you to choose:

A. work

B. study

C.both

what would you choose?

But i have no choice....my only answer can choose is C both! i need to do both thing during my teenage stage....

people going back for holidays....but i am going back to start my part time work....zzz....

Lazy, although sometimes is fun.....

再让你选：

谈恋爱还是等到毕业才打算？当然是谈恋爱对吗？

问你们吧！一次巧妙的相遇让你爱上他。。。。你会在这时争取吗？

等？等他？现在的社会还会有“等”你的他？有吗?

我看，这些，戏中的一切一切，都是假的~

如果真的有真爱，为什么还没出现？为什么还会有哪些花心汉？

希望大姐能早些清醒。。。。了解所谓的爱，别再。。。。沉沦在他那儿。。。

头痛~头痛~

3 in a row^^

2010-08-30T09:02:00.000-07:00

wakaka...can't believe i just do it! at ipoh....first time ever!

just watched City Under Siege, Grown Ups and Phua Chu Kang The Movie^^

it's fun......

at first we watched City Under Siege at 4:15-6:10

then Grown Ups at 6:00-7:45 (we enter the room at 6:10)haha^^

after that Phua Chu Kang The Movie at 7:55-9:40...wow! very rushing until we just had our dinner after we reached our college. And i'm still eating the burger now.....feel a bit vomit because we just eat KFC and now Mcdonald.....haha^^

very tired but i will try my best to finish what i wanna do for the group assignments....hope that i can finish it as soon as possible so i can relax and change my mode into holiday mode!

somemore, i had to work for teh first week holiday....first time ever work with my sister sure something funny will happen....

my elder sister's boyfriend(seriuosly?) will come to visit her 15th....haha^^ sure he will "kena" with me! haha^^ damn stupid guy.....fast fast nreak with my sister la！ Geek! Just not really like him....i always like Han Ting to be my brother in law, he is handsome, know what my sister need, and they are working together! a bad guy is nevermind for me, just he know to come back to your side at last....that is the important point.

don't know when can i meet a guy like that? is that i'm too "挑剔"？

this too ugly i don't want, that too short i don't want, the guy i haven't met before i also don't want....i just want a right feeling in a right time.....is that difficult?

2010-08-28T22:43:00.000-07:00

haizz....

what is love actually? a fool?

seeing my sister change her couple like lightning, Oh My! i still wondering if she knew what love meant.

Actually very worried about her la, that guy, Oh My God! Geek face, a terrible look! are u sure want him to be my brother in law? impossible^^

write a song for my sister, what the hell is this? maybe i'm more mature than her...even though i'm younger, just, dunno how to say...

haha~

2010-08-28T06:54:00.000-07:00

just now go watch Step Up 3 with Chin Yee and San....nice movie...

Moose....great n cute, especially the way he perform in semi final (i mean in the movie la). what a guy! haha^^

Besides i have met our maktab friends there, one from pahang de and other from melaka, unbelievable! haha^^

Of course in the cinema also meet with my senior, who come back for PBS. And i, will be back to iph tomorrow, so sad......

Tomorrow still wondering if i need to go back my secondary school to take my original SPM examination's slip. But everything is what we call "takdir"

haha^^ cuz i left my comb in my friend's car, so i need to follow her back to school...Oh My God~

累。。。

2010-08-28T05:26:00.000-07:00

刚刚在家乡的电影院看了一部电影~哇料~原来戏院是那么的烂，服务超“周到”的，还要去买爆米花哪儿叫服务员来替我们买票，真实的，。。。

又没有荧幕显示。。。够力！

唉。。。。不能埋怨这么多的。。。。这就是城市与家乡，华人与马来人的分别吧！

我家乡有两家电影院，但这两家竟可以差这么远。。。。唉。。。。

还是不说了，越说越气！

这就算了。。。原来在怡保久了，开始习惯哪儿了。。。。哈哈哈~

所以见到这儿的人就觉得有点怪怪~

变了~老实说。。。。差别很大！

唉。。。。课业又再没动到。。。。。。。

惨！

Haizzz...

2010-08-26T22:57:00.000-07:00

what a boring day, all people go to work...nobody accompany me.....

haizzz...

My friend is busying prepare for their trial exam already...feel regret didn't go to penang...i should go...then i can meet with my friend already...

What a day.....

Sure i will be very very boring today, let's start my assignment n go out tomorrow....sure!

虚惊一场

2010-08-25T21:25:00.000-07:00

wa.....what a....

真是，朋友的电脑无端端不见了。吓倒我。。。。唉。。。

原来是学院HEP收了起来。。。。气死人了！

神精病！无端端开什么玩笑，吓到我们半命了啦！

拿人家的电脑也没讲一声。。。。

经过这次，以后不要乱乱拿电脑放在图书馆了。。。。。

小心一点~

原来学院也会生产出小偷。。。。。

What a day...

2010-08-25T09:27:00.000-07:00

这种是叫幸运还是倒霉？

其实应该很开心才对！但。。。还是做不到。。。真笨！又白费一次机会了。。。。真没用啊！

彭嘉嘉啊彭嘉嘉！为什么你那么没用？应该趁机证明给大家看，你不是没魅力的！

你还有本钱，不用怕人家讲你。。。。不用怕。。。。

开心？好奇？没用？乱？

被这些思想给烦着了。。。。

睡不着，怕吵醒同房。。。。打字声尽量降到最小声。。。。

今天应该爽才对呀！别想这么多了。。。。

明天要回家了。加油！

凡事开心就好！

2010-08-24T22:47:00.000-07:00

Vampires suck......

later i'm going to watch it^^ happy*

but something is disturbing now.......like something wrong recently....haizz.....don't know how to describe it....

I need something which can make me more patient in facing all the things happen recently....

i wish everything will go well soon......as soon as possible.....

sad for them anyway, that none of my business, trying not to "kepo-ing" too many things.....

just take care^^

Maybe i'm not a good person, but i'm trying t be good....not in the education but in my life.....

Trying to avoid from being hated by other people, that's all i want.....

人生。。。

2010-08-24T04:45:00.000-07:00

唉。。。。有机会让你生存，为什么要这么样了解自己的生命？

就算累了还是要撑下去呀！为什么？

天下那么多女人，真的非君不娶吗？什么时代了？

真的很不值！有些人甚至没得选，但你有！为什么这么折腾自己？

你还有家人，朋友。。。。。。替他们想想嘛。。。。。

既然你已选了这条路，希望黄泉之下你能安息吧！

虽然不认识你，但太可惜了。。。。。

希望大家别变成第二个他。。。。没有事比活在世上更美好！加油！

haizzz....

2010-08-22T06:13:00.000-07:00

那又何必呢？
干嘛整天吵吵闹闹呢？唉。。。。。。
累了啦。。。。。可以和平地谈一次吗？
好怕。。。。班上出事了。。。。。
不想要这样~

2010-08-22T04:44:00.000-07:00

haizzz.... Actually....
在感情的世界里，永远不会有对或错的，砍开一点，就会比较开心。。。。不是吗？
这条路，既然已选择了，就料到会被伤害，所以，不能怪他的无情，只能怪自己天真。。。。
但，天真也不尝不好啊！你开心过，甜蜜过，就已足够了。。。。
伤害？真的要那么计较吗？至少他带给你快乐，欢乐。。。。。
将开心的都记住，伤心的忘了它，那就没事了！
忘记虽是一件难事，但也要忘记！
没有事情是百分百美满的，再幸福的日子也会过。。。。变成过去。。。。。
珍惜眼前有的，就是实际！
朋友阿！有另一半的要珍惜，没有的。。。。要把握！让自己活得无遗憾，至少可向大家说，我曾经拥有过，虽然我已失去了。。。。
美好的事不会永久，不美好的也会度过，变成回忆、过去。
珍惜眼前人。。。。。让自己幸福！记住！幸福！

爱？

2010-08-22T02:27:00.000-07:00

唉。。。。。很累哦。。。天天都在赶课业。。。要半命了！
神啊！救救我吧！

???

2010-08-21T05:45:00.000-07:00

sienzzzz lol....actually many assignmentssss wait for me to finish it....but, always have something disturbing.....in my mind, ask me not finish it.....haizzz.....feel lazy to do all the works....
after not going to online for a long long period...
suddenly wanna play sdo....ok...sdoing for a while n continue my stuff...

2010-08-15T00:19:00.000-07:00

dying la......Help!
how can i handle it?
very tired la....how i wanna start my pengantar pendidikan?
no idea.....haizzz...
feel lazy to do the powerpoint for BMK....
can i juz ignore it?

Dream?

2010-08-14T21:47:00.000-07:00

i had a very nice dream yesterday, is about...........i want it to be real...can i?

2010-08-14T06:32:00.000-07:00

Oh My God! Didn't have any ideas for my EQ assignment! make something not the real....
Think of it.....
Help!!!!!!!!!!!
>.<

2010-08-13T23:29:00.000-07:00

sienzzzzz...alone at the room.....nothing can do cuz i can't excess to my facebook....
maybe is a sign for me to start my coursework....

apa ni?

2010-08-12T05:39:00.000-07:00

生气~
什么东西都是你们知道罢了~ 我是什么？
一个小角色，一个不被注重的，一个没人想要认识的~
这样也该通知吧。。。。刚才真的要骂人了~ 真的~
当你们是朋友，你们却当我是狗屁！你们给我记住！
我也不想记仇~ 是你们害我的~
你们能做的东西，我也照样能~
静静别当我是病猫！
这次，气不消。。。。。。

haizzz..

2010-08-12T04:30:00.000-07:00

what a suden decision made by me, i wanna relax before the moment i promise to try prepare for it....
maybe i should do it, haizz.z....
BMK assignment, i have began to do it, the first assignment taht i had touched for this semester, proud of myself?! No please....
seeing they all quarrel for just a small little thing, so maybe to stop them to blame it to each other, i shall volanteer myself to do it, in additional, my tiltle is the most suitable title to do the public speaking~
Why? The lecturers who just attended our class an hour per week, give the work more than the lecturers of our major subject...
Feel lucky to have Mr. Khiril and Mr. tan as our math lecturer~ haha^^

追求？

2010-08-08T02:31:00.000-07:00

开始觉得自己很傻，很傻，超级傻。。。。
一直渴望被追求的感觉，可是呢。。。。哈哈！一点都不爽，而且还很烦。。。救命啊！！！
我要被他气死了！救命啊！！！我以后不敢了，不会那么渴望了！一点都不好玩，傻的！
觉得自己很笨！气死。。。。无言~
看来，被追求也要看对象的。。。。。他，他，或他？哈哈~
我没得选~看天咯。。。。给我怎样的缘分，希望是好的吧~ 一点点帅，体贴，对我好，有百变的讨好招式，忠心，和我有很多共同点，至少要会一个运动，哈哈~老实说，外表不太重要。。。。
但是呢。。。。这种人好难找哦！
前一个算不错了，还是。。。。。zzz。。。。

Smething old is better than new?

2010-08-06T04:44:00.000-07:00

人家都爱说：旧的往往比新的好。。。。是真的吗？不是贪新恋旧的吗？唉。。。真是的，要说人都是变得很快的动物吗？人性？！
唉，自己也是一样，不知道自己想要什么。。。。。奇怪。。。。。
我有感自己有点怪怪的。。。。。
真的要人家替我决定吗？
有些东西，拥有时不会珍惜，等到失去了，才来后悔。。。。。
所以，千万不要做让自己后悔的事。。。。。

Take It Off

2010-08-05T07:25:00.000-07:00

wow....Best song.....
haizzz....don't know why like that....something will change without any notice....very dangerous.....
so...must be prepared all the time so nothing will change yourself.....
Gambateh^^
wow, chat with friends at SP. Suddenly teh feeling of missing began to attack me.....
don't know how....miss them soooo much^^
but very very long time didn't hang out with them already.....
is there anything will change when we meet? i don't know....
sometimes feels liek i had made a wrong wrong decision, how? how to fix it?
pay the money? i didn't have it. Just run away? No! Of course!
Why people can feel suitable with their life so fast? but not me?
Regreting....how?
1 and a half year wanna be the end already......
Maybe i just suitbale to work and earn money....maybe~

Something Bout Love...

2010-08-04T08:22:00.000-07:00

看着其他人出双入对的，怕有一天，剩下我一个人。。。。孤零零。。。。。怕。。。
爱情？真的要拥有了才会开心吗？有了才会幸福吗？没有不行吗？唉。。。。。
人家都是甜甜蜜蜜的。。。。。就算单身也至少有蜜蜂，唉。。。。唯独我。。。。。
看来，要开始唱Lonely的歌了。。。。。可怜。。。。
又有一首歌，出现在我脑海里，Lonely No More....... i don't wanna be lonely no more........
haha^^ 奇怪奇怪，东西有时，不会珍惜，没有了。。。才来辛苦。。。。埋怨。。。。
唉。。。。幸好有家人，家人对我最好！
想家了。。。
Final Decision: Love can be your love to your family and friends.....not only to a specific person....you know what i mean....^^

addiction...XD

2010-08-02T07:21:00.000-07:00

I like this song soooo much, it seems very meanful for me.....really^^ i like it....
From the way code v sing it.....nice.....

累。。。。

2010-07-29T04:11:00.000-07:00

回家回家。。。。。。。本该是很美好的事，但，想太多导致有点不想回家。。。。
想等九月。。。。哈哈~
吃着炒饭。。。。又饱又饿。。。哎。。。。。。
有点觉得自己不太满足，有朋友又有人陪，还想要什么？
就好像有些事，有些人，对一些东西，永远都有gap的存在。。。。。
又说人家做得不好，以为自己做得很好似的。。。。。
又乱乱发脾气，来到这儿就是这样了，还发什么鬼脾气？
说自己做不到，跟不上，你不是做得很好了吗？！
这些人，既然那么不满足，那干脆死掉算了！来这世界干嘛？这里没人得罪你的。。。。！
人，来到这世界，当然会有些挫折，不必一直埋怨，让自己过得不开心。。。。。
记得！这世界没人得罪你的！

2010-07-26T06:08:00.001-07:00

HAHAHAHA^^ can watch predators finally, although not really interesting as what i'm expected....but fine....i have watched it! no worries about it already.....
really waste a lot of money this week.....T.T
must begin to save money already.....
but what i must say by now is...."SALT" ! i'm coming^^

Haizzz....

2010-07-25T02:43:00.000-07:00

为什么？为什么我整天都忘记些重要的事情。。。。。比如：忘了买这个那个。。。。
哦。。。。fullscap paper 也忘记买，一直都提醒自己要买要买。。。。哎哟，又忘了！
气死人了！
讨厌！
生气！连一些小事也记不起。。。。
竟然过了两天才想起。。。忘了。。。。。

First time...

2010-07-22T08:15:00.000-07:00

今天是我第一次演那么长的戏, 大戏剧! 哇........真的很紧张............
怕自己演得不好，害到所有人。。。。。
可是，得加油咯。。。。。。还有一些时间。。。。。
慢慢来，希望不会害到全班啦。。。。。

dun let me hate u~

2010-07-22T04:03:00.000-07:00

i hate you!!!

2010-07-20T08:16:00.000-07:00

真是气！
爽爽就冷落人，爽爽又找回人。。。。什么意思？
需不需要那么小器？？？？！！！！
神经病！不会不会再睬你了！不会！
就算你真的找回我也不会不会睬你。。。。。
讨厌鬼！。。。。。。

事情的背后~

2010-07-19T04:25:00.000-07:00

唉。。。。。
事情发生的背后，总会有它的理由，
世上绝对不会有解释不到的真相~
这是真的。。。。但，有时，有些事绝对能够令你认为它没有理由。。。。
唉。。。我也不懂自己在写什么。。。
无聊，想写写些东西。。。。就想到了这个，理由？
好期待游戏的开始~~~游戏？？？
最近染上看电影的习惯了。。。。。。电影，电影，。。。。。
究竟，在我寂寞无助时，谁？谁能在我身边呢？？？
加油！我能度过的。。。。有什么事我没试过？！
一定能~度过。。。。。

2010-07-16T20:06:00.002-07:00

there goes my baby~ usher

2010-07-16T20:06:00.001-07:00

there goes my baby
(oo girl look at you)
you don't know how good it feels to call you my girl
there goes my baby
loving everything you do
oo girl look at you

bet you ain't know that i be checking you out
when you be putting your heels on
i swear your body's so perfect baby
how you work it baby yea
i love the way that you be poking it out
girl give me something to feel on
so please believe we gone be twerking it out
by the end of the night baby

i've been waiting all day to wrap my hands
around your waist and kiss your face
wouldn't trade this feeling for nothing
not even for a minute
and i'll sit here long as it takes
to get you all alone
but as soon as you come walking my way
you gon hear me say

there goes my baby
(oo girl look at you)
you don't know how good it feels to call you my girl
there goes my baby
loving everything you do
oo girl look at you

i get the chills whenever i see your face
and you in the place girl
feel like i'm in a movie baby
i'm like oowee baby oh
like waterfalls your hair falls down to your waist
can i get a taste girl
no need to keep this baby
i ain't ashamed of calling your name girl

i've been waiting all day to wrap my hands
around your waist and kiss your face
wouldn't trade this feeling for nothing
not even for a minute
and i'll sit here long as it takes
to get you all alone
but as soon as you come walking my way
you gon hear me say

there goes my baby
(oo girl look at you)
you don't know how good it feels to call you my girl
there goes my baby
loving everything you do
oo girl look at you

and girl i feel like it's our first time
everytime we get together
baby loving you feels better than
everything, anything
put on my heart you don't need a ring
and i promise our time away won't change my love
there goes my baby
(oo girl look at you)
you don't know how good it feels to call you my girl
there goes my baby
loving everything you do
oo girl look at you

there goes my baby
(oo girl look at you)
you don't know how good it feels to call you my girl
there goes my baby
loving everything you do
oo girl look at you

难~

2010-07-16T19:59:00.000-07:00

如果这么容易让我喜欢一个人，那就好了。。。。。可是，真的很难~ 喜欢一个人很难~
到现在，还是他。。。。奇怪，真的很失望，当收到他信息。。。。
他今天会去怡保。。。。可是，我却回去双溪大年了~
这就是有缘无份吧。。。。没了。。。。
教会的活动我也不会去了。。。。
不会想他了。。。。

damn it!

2010-07-14T08:21:00.000-07:00

i dunno what happen to me today...everything not going well....
this must began with when they announcing to go celebrate the day we all meet for a year....OMG!!! i wanna go shopping and release tention....watching predators....everythig seems gone.....
最后还是去了。。。。可是竟然那么倒霉！那部戏在五点四十五分才有。。。。。就只能随便看别部戏了。。。。显~~~
蛮好看的。。。。可是才发现原来我的薪水竟然还没进~ 哇料！！！做了那么久了。。。。薪水又低。。。。有那么迟拿到。。。。。气死人了！！！！害得我本以为有一笔钱用的，又没了！没了！真的很不爽~ 好了，又要再次和父母拿钱。。。他们的生活也没好到哪里去。。。我怎么那么自私？？？？？他们挨到那么辛苦。我就爽爽向他们要钱。。。。真的很恨我自己！！！今天的不爽就是不爽我自己，那么厉害花钱。。。。。。用什么还？？？？
在的士上，忍不住流出了泪水，我怕！我开始怕了！我的心好痛~ 想到爸妈我的心好痛。。。。
打到这里，又想哭了。。。。怎么办？不能哭！！！要回去了。。。。。
真想回去了不再回来。。。。很笨的想法。。。。。
我好想爸妈，大姐，嘉微，运宏，运健。。。。。。。。

geram-ing....

2010-07-11T01:06:00.000-07:00

guess what! something makes me really geram and hate it.....damn it^^
really like wanna use my hand and hit the wall or anything around me....hate it hate it!
privacy...i really want some privacy...please! stop disturbing me.....
my laptop, my phone and everything belongs to mine seems not to....like everybosy can hold it, use it without my permission...
if u are mine, will u get mad and fed up???!!!!
one more time i need to stress this....privacy...........don't make me do the thing i dun want to....

boring~

2010-07-08T22:15:00.000-07:00

sure it will be a boring weekend for me, preparing for many presentationsss.....
bik, bi, chinese.....this two subjects just our minor subject, why i feel like it has became a major subject???!!
even the major subject, mathematics also more relax than it.....haizzz....
must find a way to go out, to withdraw money.....
but....who have time to go out with me? everybody is busying with their stuffs, and this make me feel like wanna go back home....what a boring weekend.....

2010-07-07T06:40:00.000-07:00

本来，我一直忍。。。。忍。。。。。可是真的很辛苦。。。。
我不想每次都是我在忍。。。。你明白吗？？？
我可以不要知道，我可以不知道，我也不想知道。。。。所以，可以要讲的活，不要在我面前讲吗？？？！！！讲了又不给我知道，什么意思？？？
我只有一个要求，不要在我面前讲！！！！我怕有一天我忍无可忍。。。。。
人的忍耐性是有极限的。。。。
如果换成是你被这样对待，你要吗？
劝劝大家！如果有些事不想让人知道，请。。。。请。。。。别在她面前讲。。。。会令别人胡思乱想的。。。记住！我也会记住的。。。。。
不想被伤害，请别伤害人。。。。。
不开心时，部落格是发泄的最好地方，因为，我找不到我能够信任的人。。。。。
要找一个自己信任的人是很难的。。。。记住！
我不知道自己要的是什么。。。。zzzz.......

Thomas Muller XD

2010-07-03T20:30:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna keep focusing on him recently....
it should be said that i started focusing about him when the match of germany vs. england in world cup final 16....this guy rockkkkk the show!!!! he scored 2 goals which made germany won 4-1 to england.....besides, i also found that he still young, just 2 years older than me XD
actually i didn't watch the match before, just knew the result from website.....haha^^
then, i always guess how is the look of this guy, is him same like the type of michael ballack or klose??? or just like kahn, podolski, philip lahm....cuz i haven't heard about this guy.....if not because he had scored in the match, i think i won't keep my interest on him....
the fact is......he really cute!!!!! and he will become the future star for germany^^
this i know it when i watch the match germany faced argentina, my favourite!!!
watching my favourite team being blash by germany, i feel a bit sad and disapoited, i didn't see any interesting score or shot from argentina, from messi, from higuain......
however, the one who help germany lead at 3rd minute, Muller......from time to time, i begin to view my sight on him....what a handsome guy! even handsome than ballack or klose, i just tell the truth! i got a feeling that he will rock the show soon^^
Thomas Muller! even i will not support germany at semi final due to they will face spain, my top favourite.....i hope you can do well in that match^^
haha^^ like people say, if a team won england at final 16 or final 8....when england try hard to get to final 16 from the group.......the team will finally won the cup!
so.............work hard for Muller^^

waka waka!

2010-07-03T09:44:00.000-07:00

first time ever! watching football match live with my friends at ipg ipoh! wow!!!
shout until no voice....cheer for argentina, but the winner is germany...a bit disapointed....
but i also saw someone who is the hero for this match, thomas muller....^^ handsome^^
he scored the first goal for germany.....haizzz....juz begin 3 minutes....
i don't know what is the facts disturb the presentations of messi, higuain, n others argentina's player.....or what i can say is germany perform a very good defences n attack....
really....

2010-06-30T22:15:00.000-07:00

这世界就是这样，有些东西总有一天会失去，永远都挽回不了。。。。
别人永远是“得益者”。。。。。

for me, i will try my best not to give such that"people" to get what they want....so cruel isn't it???
this is what we called earth! world!
if you didn't do as what i say, maybe the one who lose everything is you.....
they will also treat you like that, people always jealous and selfish....
so, try to become selfish from this moment, helping doesn't have people's pay back....
they just pay you will a cruel heart.....

제가 당신을 미워!

2010-06-30T05:34:00.000-07:00

不喜欢被隐瞒，不喜欢特意去听人家不想告诉自己的东西。。。。这就是我！
最重要的是绝对绝对不会特意去破坏别人的关系。。。。这就是我！
讨厌那些自以为是的人，更讨厌那些明明不管他事却要做到与他有关系的人。。。。这就是我！
不喜欢的人就不会特意去讨好他，不会去和他有更好的关系。。。。这就是我！
不喜欢插手人与人之间的关系，你们问我，我只回答，不不知道。。。。
好的，我会替你们传千里！坏的，我只会静静，当作若无其事。。。。这是我！
我不想任何一方受到伤害，更不想任何一方不原谅对方。。。。我要大家和平过日子，大家能开开心心相处。。。。
我不会因为人家说我太吵而停止当“小丑”！小丑还是会继续为快乐而奋斗，为悲伤而。。。。突然想不出该说什么，不喜欢幸灾乐祸，不喜欢幸灾乐祸的人。。。。这就是我！
不该听的不会听，就算听了也扮不知道，因为不管我的事，不会想太多。。。。人家要讲就会讲的，勉强去打听是笨蛋的行为！我就是这么想~
希望他们能够放开包袱，做回朋友，再由朋友和好如初，做回伴侣，因为，他们只要时间，时间让双方成熟，重新开始。。。。了解对方。。。。