我变了？

不知不觉～一年了…证明了近两年的忙碌～也就是二十五岁后，一年只写一篇文～哈哈～一年没碰了，部落格～
我好像失去了当初的热诚～失去了勇气～失去了冲动～究竟是好事还是坏事？
每做一件事，都要沉思一凡，做不到决定，选择困难症越来越严重，记性越来越不好～好想回家～却埋怨该死的远距离～就好象没有尽头的路，还很长～也不清楚还有多少的挑战等着我～
记忆力衰退是让我感到最恐惧的事，每每对自己非常重要的事却在关键时刻忘得一干二净～好累…
我时时提醒自己，告诉自己，我比好多人更幸福，有家人，有能够诉苦的朋友与屋友，有一群大学时代的同学同事，有认识多过十年的朋友们，最重要有稳定的工作～但是，还是会有心累的时刻，看了之前的部落格，原来四月就是如此的难挨，漫长。
可能没有假期的关系吧，也可能开始忙碌了吧～也可能我…变了～面对一年比一年更有挑战性的工作以及孩子们，正能量真的越来越少了，有时候难得会怨几句，之后又要完成这些使命～也不像年轻时那个对任何事物充满好奇心的时候，现在只对未来抱着满满的不安～每天在和时间赛跑，偶尔偷偷懒，却好像犯了很大的罪般～人生，就是这么好玩，呵呵～
是我变了吗？还是环境在改变？制度在变？我………不开心～

喜事连连

不知该怎么形容～最近的却是工作以来最忙的时候了～忙～当然是因人而异的，所以，我只说这两年工作最忙的一次。
但，频频收到关系较好的闺蜜们的红炸弹！真的又惊又喜啊～惊的是，真的都来得太突然了，喜的是，真心替他们感到开心。有嫁到远远的，也有苦尽甘来的～这里只能献上我的小小祝福～
但是，想想自己曾定下的人生目标，二十五岁前嫁出去，看来是无望了～😂
现在～算农历，过了～阳历，还有九个月～所以，我还是一个人～一个人久了看到身边朋友开始找到幸福，有时也是觉得自己也渴望像她们一样，另一边又担心自己失去了一个人可以享受的自由，人，就是如此吧，永远不会满足。
哈哈～我的真爱？你在哪里？我等得花儿都谢了…🤔

人性丑恶

所谓，每个人都有优点缺点，好与坏~如果我们用好的方面评价一个人，自然看到他的优点，但，反面来说，我们就看到他的缺点~~~
当那缺点触碰了你的底线，那~~~他的好都会被遗忘~ 反而，你只会记住他的坏~~~
就像现实生活中的一些案件，凶杀案，绑架案，我们只看到犯法的人，犯罪的人的错，他们应该接受惩罚，法律的制裁，但，有时候发现原因后，他们真的犯了该死之罪吗？
是，危害了其他人的性命是一个不归路，但那个被害的~~~真的完全无罪？ 或许，他是间接危害凶手重要的人的那个人？他生前做了好多好多坏事？ 难道这一切，就因为他的死能被原谅？
再说一个例子，绑架案。。。受害者，某个富家子弟的孩子？ 那为什么会有这种事情的发生？会不会因为~~~在生意上太刻薄，没替其他人留下生路，而其他人只是一时之气，做了不该犯的错。。。。却令自己变得和那富商没什么两样的人~~~这又是谁的错？

我在想：为什么要帮助那些永远思想不成熟，不懂得感激的人？你凭什么资格得到我们的帮助？帮了反而被责怪。。。为什么永远不会替自己所说的话负责？继续用言语上责怪别人~~~
可以先想想自己到底做了什么事吗？
真心希望某人可以清醒，看清事实~~~~因为：你真的太过分了~~~~

时间

今晚喝了好浓的咖啡～注定～失眠了～
其实～只是想尝试…谁还记得我？当我是朋友…其实我有点低落～无助～所以需要倾诉的对象…听我说话的对象…想了想～翻了翻～电话簿里寥寥无几的号码～期待着他们的回复…你，有试过这种情况吗？只是单纯找个人聊聊天…然后～有人回复了～😁😁😁真心感谢她～～～肯陪陪我这个凄凉的“老处女”～哈哈…对…就这么简单～一年没见的朋友就这样见面了…
我一直记得一位朋友告诉我的…我：“不好意思问叻～万一他们都没空呢？他们不想出去呢？” 她：“你都没问～怎么知道他们没空？怎么知道他们忙？你问了～他们真的没空～那就没办法～可是他们也可能想赴约呢？可是，要开口问～才知道答案～你尝试了就可以了” 就是她的一句话～我开始较主动，积极～就算有时候没能让朋友们见面～那也有行得通的时候～所以，就让我主动吧～ 是啦，可能你们忙了，忘了，那我可以让你们记住～因为朋友，得来不易，我们懂得大家都有缺点，所以互相包容～
其实看奥运直播羽球赛也一样～说真的…其实刚开始有点失望想放弃的～就是本来约好却好像都无法赴约了…就剩下室友陪我～也是幸好有她～过后～电话一通一通到～他们还是赴约了～虽然迟了～却赶来～有的住的较远…却也一起过来…其实，心里有些小感动～虽然没说出口～我就是这样感性的…哈哈
其实我懂的…大家都很忙…又住的远…都是硬挤出时间配合…对于这点～就是朋友吧…都有心想联络感情…就像刚结束的五天假期…之前是没回家乡的…今年却觉得…虽然短短几天…坐巴士都花了两个半天了…可是能看看家人～陪陪他们～多累又怎样？ 晕车病又犯了…好久没这样了～所以坐长途巴士其实一整程我都想吐的…忍了又忍到家了～爸爸也说了…其实下次就坐飞机回来啦…我跟Hon去机场接你～～～可能你们觉得只是小事～幸福的你们都有人接的…懂我家庭状况的人就懂那句话的含义～～～我很感动～我爸爸凶凶的脾气也不好～人人怕他～人们口中可能他不是什么好人…可是他就是我爸爸～他为我默默付出很多～太多了～我妈妈也一样～用那瘦小的身体撑了我们一家…拼命工作～就算得到不公平的待遇…不回家～我怕那天一回家～两老都苍老了…我很怕那一天的到来…所以我想回家～
其次～一位接近三年没见的朋友回来度假～为了她～我当然要抽点时间见见他～谈了很多～原来可能我们没刻意联络～很很少通话…只是偶尔在微信发点信息～但，一点也不尴尬～就像大家说的一见如故吗？原谅我成语运用得不好…
所以，要拉近彼此的关系，就得争取时间～在那忙碌的时间抽出那微不足道的时间～采取那点主动～后果就会不同了…
写着写着，我又想家了～想姐姐的 baby,爸妈，弟弟，家乡的朋友…
看了最近口碑不错的韩国网络剧“一巴仙可能性” ,男主对女主说的一句话～看是普通，却贴心的一句话～“你不是很忙吗？为什么还会过来？不忙了？” “还是很忙，只是在那里抽点时间过来罢了” 当有人愿意抽点忙碌的时间见面，代表他重视你，不管是朋友还是情人… 受重视的感觉很好…
所以我可能看起来很闲空～我只是不表露我的忙而已～我也有忙得时候～但为了我重视的人～我会抽出时间～所以，事情永远不要只看表面～新鲜感～很快就会消失，当大家慢慢了解…每个人令人欢喜和厌恶的一面时，你能够包容彼此～那就是你重视那个人的存在～不管是朋友或情人～原谅我没情人，所以有时很难理解情人间是否也一样～
谢谢在我生命里包容我的所有人…我很珍惜你们…所以家人在我心中永远第一～朋友第二～偶像第三～情人？未知数～
好像离题了…
最后，花点时间给你重视的人吧！时间…大家都有～

Shit i feel ashame... really

Today.. i can't sleep... hard to fall asleep... it happened suddenly and i was helpless that time.. sit there and prayed... luckily... nothing bad happened...
So i would start from the beginning, how it happened..
I was supposed to drive my siblings to have a tea time... yeah.. and we found the place... but getting into the wrong side.. omg!!!shit!its a one way road.. and i can't drive reverse or in front.. and we found a place to park.. but its opposite side.. and this is the first time i was facing this kind of situation... omg... in my heart... don't know how nervous i am.... first time,still okay... and the cars... opps... wait a while and park for second time... but.. don't know how it happened... i was near to the car on my left...oh... and my car kissed it.... nothing strach... but i really had no idea how to fix this situation.... and my siblings not even knew the way to park... so my mind blank... helpless... stopped there and wait for the driver... hopefully could apologize to him or her... maybe had no choice but to strach his or her car... omg.. what should i do....

And then someone came.. i thought he was the driver and i kept apologized to him that tim...but hr said i better drove away before the owner knew it... so... but... i don't know how to fix the situation and i just asked for his help... yes... this is my second time askingsomeone stranger to help me... and... luckily he did it... without causing any damage to both car... oh... just luckily... wow.. i knew my mind was blank that time... i just kept saying thanks to him... haha... so awful....then... i really not dare to have dessert nearby... so we went somewhere further...sigh....

So... what i had learnt from it is don't even go or drive to a place you not really used to it at night... maybe met with the guy is my luck... but next time.. who knows what will happen...?
One more... although the world is really sick nowadays.. but there are also kind person in this world...
Just wanted to say thank you.. really thank you ....thank God!

Smtm5

Junoflo.. c jamm... bewhy....G2....jung sangsoo..... xitsuh.... who else?
Myungdo....^^
My favourite contestant so far...
Have you watch it?  Turn up!
C jamm became very strong in thus season...maybe he can win it? Who know?
I really like this show so much... the lyrics...rap...flow...the beat...i started watching the show since season 3 watching my favourite Iron won top 2...The song...still my favourite until now...Season 4 mino's fear....keep on playing and playing too   ....
So...who will be the winner this season...?

Travel-Singapore

Although i had been working at jb for more than a year...Today was my first time travelled to Singapore...We just walked around at Sentosa and having lots of memories there...
Next time...Taiwan or Korea?
I always thought that travel can make our mind relax..and you can forget every stressful moment in your life...it can also heal someone's heart sometimes...
Tried something different whole we are young...while we have the mood...♡♡♡
Okay...most important thing during your trip will be...pictures!!!
I took a lot of pictures for a whole day trip... Yes, sometimes a trip without wasting money would be worth with some meaningful photos...^^
I would like to share my photos during the trip^^