crush？really?
oh no! what am i thinking about? why i always think about him only? i'm not like that before~~~~
this really made me feel uncomfortable la.... i can't held this anymore~
tell me what should i do? i need to forget about that feel quickly~ not even appear it anymore, say goodbye to that cutie~

Waiting, waiting, doon't know what am i waiting for~
i don't know why, today my sister talk many things about him, i wonder why....... just say goodbye only, why she so concerned about it? my sister also talk to me that all her friends think he is cute~ cute? really?
wow~ this like made me more like him after my sister have told me that~ it just like been influenced by other people you know~ wow, sucks~
now, i got a little suspect that my sister also like him well, even though she seldom talk about a chinese is cute or what, i am really confused now.... somebody can help me? solve this confusion that i got in my mind now.... please, stop it! Don't keep on watching him, it will made you..... like have caught a virus~

Friend? Where got friend in this world???? Are you sure really got friend who cares about you????????????
Friend? concern about all the things you do~ My sister just wake me up~ Oh My God! How stupid am i today....... i made my sister so angry~ Don't know why she so care about such a thing like~~~~~~~~ i really don't understand what they are talking about, why they so concern a such little thing? why they think so many things????
Bully??? how about bully? when we really concern about a friend.....it really can made us been bullied???????
i'm so confused now~ am i stupid? am i dumb? i don't know~

Nothing to say.... very very very very very bad luck!!!!!!!! Shit!
I have lost my locker key.... then i can't go out eat with my sister, what the ******
Then i have lost the game~
lost....... very fail!
working more than half day doesn't like what i'm thinking about, that's not even fun! not happy at all.......
i think i really getting older already compared with others part time.... they can hang out together and happy ..... who am i? i looked too ego??????? too arrogant??????
why like nobody want to talk to me????? i feel really fail and sad......
for they, who am i? old lady? too mature?
i want to be like them! hang out happily together...... like the past time~

something is disturbing me right now! or i should say someone~~~~~ i don't know, maybe i'm too ego to win at everything~ like when i saw him talking with that girl, i feel not good, that is not because of jealousy, i know it.....don't know what cause i feel like that, i am the one who act rude to him and made him scared to me, but now when i saw him with others girl talk happily, i'm ..... don't know how to say~
then, i do such a bad thing, haha~
i made him, or just he came and talk to me again...... i just standing there and he also confusing, i think he think if he want to come talk to me or not..... then he come~ haha~ i'm suceed!
i try to take this chance, don't want to act like last time again~ haha! last time i have shocked him so now, i'm not acting like that again, try to talk....... be a friend~ maybe~~~~~~
that is not because i like that guy, just to act in front of that girl only....... i don't like her~ haha!
right now i think i'm the worst person! Oh my! sorry to all my friend if this had made you all feel i'm not mine......... but that is me! i want to win! win! win!
i will fight for it!

Can't wait can't wait to reach 18 but a little bit feel like don't want to grow up so fast because i don't to be responsible on everything! 18 is like you are big already, many things you can do happy hour and......
"future love" by kristinia debarge, i like that song soooo much! Damn like it!
i don't know why everytime i hear that song like got a weird feeling about my lover at future, i don't know how will i meet him anh at where i will meet that guy..... ^^ hope it is a sweetest memories in my life even though it may not last longer~ i just want a real real love, love that can make us comfortable and happy~
wow~ i don't know from when i dream for a love..... am i mature enough to accept the truth? because of my physical appearance and attitude, i may not attract people to fall for me~ how shall i change? really want to change? maybe i have lost many chances already~ just last chance for me okay? i want to try like others......

i want holiday never ends! i relly enjoy it by working! i like that feeling even though got something unhappy when i work at there, i think and i'm sure i can handle it! i meet new friends and i'm sure nobody will pretend like at teaching institute~ i like to hang out with them......
i want to try to talk to them! i know i can do it! must be confident to myself!
^^
can we get more holiday~