i think for a whole night~ i realized something........... i really like him~ much and much from day to day~~~~
die~~ @.@ i don't know how to handle it.......
what alonely christmas i thought i got on this year~~~ nobody go hang out with me, cannot off on my work.....
"just don't give up, i'm working it out, please don't give in, i won't let you down" a nice song by adam lambert, same like "future love" by kristinia debarge, my favourite song by this time. a song can told us many things we want to know..... got many special meaning in our life.....
sorry, i really got no feeling with another guy already..... that guy who i fall for him 2 years ago....
i like the other one, a guy i think about for a whole night........ but age can really be a big matter.... i know it....... after he know about my age, we had less interact already..... damn sad you know......
@.@
i want to talk to him~

today is my first day ever been at reception alone, without help of anyone. but luckily i can handle it with the help of senior~ haha~ very lucky la~
they say christmas must wear shirt followed by the theme of christmas then got a contest lol~ why don't just wear our uniform and a santa claus hat le? simple and easy.... now i wonder where should i go to find the red shirt and white pants la..... looked weird, i guess.
when i think about i can't have a holiday during christmas and new year, i feel a little bit sad lol.....
don't know why..... haizzzz... people say at least i can use this time to earn more money but i don't think so.... freedom is the most impotant thing in my life.... i'm still 17(not after 26th) so i want a life full of freedom! i want to go hang out with friends and family, go play....... my dream,....@.@
i think she reallt fall for him already, what should i do? like the same people... actually he not rea;;y handsome only.... but why we can fall for him?
stupid! i have promised myself not to talk about him again.... so forget it!
today i meet back a friend that haven't met for 2 years, feels like very weird and suddenly he become very unknown to me......@.@
haizzzz~~~

hahahahahaha~~~~~~~~
try a new hairstyle today, tie my hair la~ haha~
but sad lol, many people say not suitable for me, so i don't want tied it la......

Sometimes when we miss somebody..... but sometimes we don't know what is in our mind now~ like me~i don't know and i really got no idea why i miss him...... like think about him always... got influenced by somebody- my sister~ she always talk about him and it really makes me fall for him..... stop talk nonsense! impossible! impossible! impossible! too young and he may got girlfriend already, i feel regret to call somebody come visit me..... i don't want him to misunderstood.....
can i just cancel the meet? i am very regret now~
okay, now i will cancel the meet and meet on another day~ like monday or tuesday~

confusing~

i really don't know what am i thinking about lol~ i want die lol~
suddenly i contact back with someone who can consider as my ex lol~
don't know lol~ he ask me to go out with him~ a christmas party~ still confusing right now whether want to go or not~ he say he can fetch me but i feel uncomfortable lol~ what should i do? accept or decline? i am very selfish~
i think if he come to find me at my work place......it can test whether another person is cared about me or not only~ soooooooo bad~ why i got this thought???????
my sister is right, i like the guy already maybe....... i know is impossible for this relationship....
i'm confused la~~~~~ i don't know what is the real mean if we are falling for somebody~ so i may not like other people or that guy..... maybe i feel lonely so got a feel only~
should i accept to go out with a people that haven't meet for 2 years? i think many things can change lol~ maybe he is not the one i knew before already~

yeah! finally tomorrow i can off already! but sometimes when you have comfort with something, feels like don't want holiday "pulak" ....... maybe too many days i have worked till addicted already~ haha~
don't know where should i go hang out lol~ shopping at longwan? tesco? osman store? go "ji ke"???? where lol? shall i go central square? the place i work lol...... haha~ is my off day le~ don't want go there lol~ but i really want shopping la......
buy shoes, shirts, skirts, towels....... more! i think i may waste all of my money at the same time....... exactly~
i also want to go play badminton or any games..... go jogging to prepare next year's physical test~
haha~ one day off is not enough for me to do all these thing lol~
next week~~~~ and next next week.... my birthday!

Truth?

what's the truth in my mind now????
i don't know! want to burn out already!!!!!!!!!!