赌注

如果有一场永远没胜算的赌注~~~你敢放手一搏吗？ 我的答案~~~是，我会。虽然在不清楚的情况下开始一段赌注，但。。。我还是希望有一天我会是赢的一方~~~

在赌博当中，我觉得我最多只能拿回自己的投注，却不能够大胜一场。。。所以，我很怕万一大胆下注的结果不理想，会不会就此失望，绝望？ 就是这种思维，让我在下注时无法投入所有，永远都有所保留~~~现在，年纪大了，开始思考，后悔~~~~

这一次，无论友情、感情，我想再下注一把，敢敢下注，让自己不会再后悔。
无论未来发生了什么事，真心希望自己不会再做感到后悔的事~~~ 就算结果不理想，可能让我最后伤痕累累~~~但我要下注。。。。

感情的事就是这样，在互不了解的情况下认识，相知、交往。。。。你无法理智，不能保持在双方安全的水平，所以，你永远不知道谁是胜利者~~~ 那种不懂一切的事虽很刺激，当你拆穿它丑陋的一面时，却无法不感到伤感,绝望~~~我怕。。我很怕。。。但没有开始争取便害怕是胆小鬼的行为，我当了好多年的胆小鬼。。。这次想替自己争取一次了~~~

让自己主动一些，接近一些，付出一些，失败了，只能结束~~~可能会有意想不到的结果呢？

加油！嘉嘉！

I feel OLD

OLD.....I thought this word won't appear in my life, my dictionary...But after all the things happened in sudden, maybe something that people won't call it as burden, now became mine....How sad, I'm only 24, no...still 23 (my birthday is in December, hehe) How come such this thing happen to me?

Travel, all i want now is pack all the things and start my journey, anyplace, anywhere, just let me relax a while, don't think too much about it....

Songs...something always good in healing no matter what happen, i can't imagine one day without music....When i start feeling old, i listen back to all the songs i liked when i was young, younger...Actually feeling great when looking back all the things and i won't feel regret for everything i did in the past....chasing for stars, stay a night lining up only to buy tickets for them or Stay nearer even only 2 hours or less than it...

One thing i started feeling is after a long drive to Sunway Lagoon Surf Beach to catch up MTV World Stage 2015, it's Jason Derulo okay? but i gave up while waiting for him to perform on stage (please, really wait a long time okay, and those Indian guys started...OMG, tired plus scared so i gave up)...He was the last person performing on stage...So I only can watch him at the back...more fresh air, haha...Such a crazy day...Something funny was, when A Pink was performing on stage, those ARMY ...hahaha...shout like ARMY, chant like ARMY....Wow, that was the first time i watched a concert with guys,....many guys...haha...Even i couldn't hear my voice fan chanting for A Pink...Daebak! and my brother also in it...

Sharing some pictures during MTV World Stage here also...I miss the moment...Next year hopefully won't be any activities or courses please...tiring when driving along from JB to KL....and then rushing back after the concert...(Concert was from 7:00pm to 11:30pm, so great and having fun)

Waiting for the show to be started^^

It's A Pink^^

Selfie^^ Tired face...

梦想。。。

神奇。。。我看到小孩子的梦想。那与众不同的梦想~~~
 真心希望他能够实现梦想~~~~
老实说:喜欢做的，往往与能做的,所做的，有非常大的差别。小时候，我们都做喜欢做的。长大了，到了选择的阶段，我们会发现自己开始懂得区分喜欢做的和现实能做的，那个区分，造就了一个选择_未来的选择。好多人在这个交叉点选择了放弃梦想，回到现实。我也是。我现在的却不是在做我喜欢做的事。。。应该有很多人和我有相同的处境吧~~~
有时候真的很羡慕那些选择了梦想的人。就算可能不能够实现，到起码你做出了选择，你享受了那个过程~~~你得到的是多么的可贵。。。。
虽然我离梦想逐渐遥远。。。但我开始用不同的方式接近它，追求它~~~

Awkward or What?

Sometimes, you will fall into a situation, speechless, don't know what to do....confusing...and causing some awkward there...OMG..and i was in those kind of situation today....

I feel quite sad for making myself into such kind of situation, hopefully everything can replay this time, really....But time passed fast, and now tomorrow will be coming, soon, real soon...

P/S: Stop feeling like that, to me, myself....

Okay, first dinner with my colleague after eight months working at this place...Time passed fast, again.... Next time please don't like that again, Feeling down for this kind of situation...

But, still taking some photos...^^



Yeah...Red^^

Continue with my favourite topic, drama, Korean Drama ... Yes, watched back some old Korean Drama recently, "Lie to Me"...Feel nice tat main actor...If in real life have such that kind of man, wow,,,it will be awesome, really, please let me meet him soon! "Yong Pal" also a nice drama to watch, Joowon an d Kim Taehee done a really great job making the story touching and just nice...more mature love....


Stupid line runs slow....haih...made me can't even upload my picture....

Boring Day...Lucky?

I was wonder can i get some lucks in my life? People always said that don't believe in lucks, You should use more effort to prove that hardworking is the most important thing and it will always win over your luck. Talking about luck, maybe it just came when you didn't ever realise about it, and then it goes.... Shall i catch it or ignore it? It just a question when the luck coming in real.... And then, some people will always depend on the luck, and didn't ever try their best in every works, like me? Sometimes...

People also said sometimes what i predict, especially the worst thing will happen....So I can't easily speak out what my mind keeps on thinking, sometimes will become real...I don't want it to become real..

Actually feeling lazy recently, so wanna leave some words here...Guess what? I'm very weak in English, and now, i became an English teacher, OMG....So something we unexpected will always happen and that's called life...

Feeling happy for my sister who get offer from UKM, a quite good government university, and then her first choice, mass communication, maybe in the future she will become a well known script writer? Or journalist? Or host? Or just a simple jobs from IME Production? Wow, really feel happy for her and i will have a reason to run to KL then...haha^^

Watching "Oh My Ghost", korean drama starring by Park Boyoung, a well known korean actor with the guy main lead in "The Best Lee Sunsing" (IU)...Nice drama...it taught us to enjoy our live, live out our live, love as hard as we can while we still young, still alive.... Really feel sad for that ghost in the drama (Shin SoonAe).... She keeps working hard while she was alive for her family and didn't ever had her own time....She fell in love with the cops, but he murdered her...(She still can't remember about it) Now, she became a ghost and fell in love with the chef who didn't know who exactly she was....Only thought that she is Laa BoumSun... What will happen next when the guy knew the truth? Very speechless? Disapointed? She will leave him alone again, like others....OMG...so sad~~~

That's all for today, oh, i still busy and didn't have time to upload my memories during BigBang Made Tour in Malaysia...Will talk about it soon~~~

LOSER

i like the lyric in this song sooo much! it's touching...really....speaks out all inside our minds....

For example, GD's part:

Honestly, I’ve never fit in with the world
I was always alone
It’s been a long time since I’ve forgotten about love
I can’t listen to hopeful love songs anymore
You and me both
We’re just sad clowns, tamed and scripted
I’ve come too far
I’M COMING HOME
I wanna go back
To when I was young

I want to go back to young days too....sincerely....

Then TOP's part:

It’s a cycle of girls and mistakes
Love them for one night
And hate them when morning comes
Can’t own up to it
Because of my selfish pleasure
Everything is being ruined
Can’t stop this dangerous full speed run
Now I have no interest, no fun anymore
I’m standing alone at the edge of a cliff
I’m going home
I wanna go back
To how it was before

This is not what i think, i'm not that mature, hehe~~~

Taeyang and Daesung's part also my favourite, actually i like the whole lyrics~~~~
So please listen to this song....nice~

我~变得麻木了？我变了？

听着2ne1 的lonely。。。。开始写这一篇文章。。。。好久没有这样~一个人休息了。。。其实，在家里静静的享受，也蛮不错的。。。虽然会有点闷，那是当然的~

我好像渐渐失去了当初的热情、笑容。。。。不懂什么时候开始，很难信任人们讲的话，就好像所有人在背对我似的。。。。难道年龄越来越增长，人会越来越没安全感吗？
突然好想念在中学时期，还有在大学时期那段疯狂与热情~~~~
总是觉得人变得敏感~ 笑也变得尴尬~~~~ 不再单纯、自然~~~~

有一件事，我很好奇，到底，在茫茫人海中，谁注意到了我这个小人物？谁又能够记得我的存在？交情、关系，怎么好像变得泛泛之交~~~ 失去了长长久久的感情？或许，随着日子以及年龄的增长，我的门越来越狭窄，能够进来的人，变得寥寥无几~~~~~ 好想念能够与我随时疯狂，说走就走的朋友们，但是工作，始终令我们不再像当初一样，也随着岁月，渐渐收敛了~~~~

接近25的我，却还是未能够为梦想踏出一步，反而渐渐地后退~~~~ 想念以前的自己了，彭嘉嘉？你在哪里？我好像找回那个自己，可以吗？

我，变得麻木了，开始不再介意与理会人情事物， 那也并不代表“你们”可以骑到我头上来的~~~ 机的朋友说过：以前的你，对所有事，无论说出来有任何影响，你都会说出来~~~但，现在的你，所有事都在嘴里面，却在表达前吞回进去，人也变了~~~  可能，自己心里知道，我们都不小了，说出来也没用，没有人会正视问题的存在，只会让你越描越黑。。。。因为，大家都有自己的主见，并认为自己是对的，那，说出来是不是多此一举？

虽然在人情事物面对一些问题，我还是相信，自己终有一天会克服的！

开心的是，我没忘了宠自己，让自己活得开心~~~~ 对，我不可以忘记娱乐自己~
所以，真心希望这次再次去闯一闯，开开心心的玩乐~~~ 算了，什么都不要管了，人，要往前看~~~ BB， 好想你们哦。。。。想念3年前那个令我疯狂的夜晚，令我爱上你们，痴痴等待你们到现在~~~~ 我，不管有多累，一定要去看。。。。说声： Long time no see!

唉。。。最近叹息的次数一直在增加，你们也一样对吧？工作很难对吗？告诉自己：就这样混过吧，不是混了那么多年了吗？ 怎么会有没挑战的人生？闭上眼睛，伸呼吸，世界多美好！地球还在转，心爱的人还在！为了他们，还是要撑下去！加油！

p/s：想谈恋爱了。。。。但为什么没对象？