Infinite brought me Come Back Again ＸＤ Torawa! Torawa! ~

Yes, as the topic i , i'm back! I realized there are a long long time i didn't touch my blogger^^ Now i would like to how my excitement from the concert i went recently, One Great Step 131019_Infinite!
When listening the name of "Infinite", sure you all will know the first Korean Idol group that i fall in love so so much until i download and listen to all their song in album since i knew them from their second mini album title song"Before The Dawn" and the scorpion dance also the reason i falling in love with the rapper and main dance from this group, Hoya (Lee Howon)^^ a guy who is same age with me... I also started to watch their variety show like "You Are My Oppa", "Scandal", "Secret", "Sesame Player"....And they also won their first rank 1 in music show after a year they debuted with "Be Mine", also a great powerful dance song^^ From that time, i have told myself to watch their concert live when they have a show in my country, finally after waiting for 2 years, they have held "One Great Step" live in Kuala Lumpur! So excited to heard that news...^^
现在的我，还是回不到现实，虽然演唱会已经结束了，但每当一个人发呆时，回忆又在停留在那风雨交加的下午，淋得全身湿湿的我们，那些疯狂的回忆，偶像的一举一动，又浮现了，好像提醒着我，这一切还没结束，只是一个开始，内心里也默默希望就算当晚的我赶不上巴士，我也会很开心吧。。。。我还是一样傻傻地停留在南优铉坏坏的笑，那个耍赖的脸孔，那个时时刻刻都关心粉丝的男人。。。。真的很难忘记，就算只是短暂的两小时左右，他们一个个不现实的脸孔已经刻进我心里，可以让时间回到131019吗？其实再叫我夜排多几十次都不要紧，因为那些痛苦都会被短暂的两小时给带走。。。无限就是那么伟大！
现在，我想讲那一天、那一晚每分每秒的回忆一一记录在这儿，我也曾经那么的开心，疯狂！

看的人、不理解的人、觉得我傻的人，其实这些只是你们不太了解我，我很容易满足，虽然花了一笔钱又要忍受超过40小时无法入眠的状况就只为了两小时，所以，很多人说我疯，苯。。。他们也不可能记得你。。。。但是，这却是我的回忆，甜美的回忆，开心、兴奋、能够做自己喜欢的事情是我人生中最幸福的。。。
不能说我疯狂，因为还有人比我更卖力，更疯狂。。。。买了好多他们的周边与专辑，为他们的粉丝准备食物，为了不让粉丝没力气`应援，这次让我见证了粉丝们的合作多么的强大，来到这场地排队，大家都不分你我，互相分享自己的食物，干粮，太感动了！还有粉丝团也尽力说服主办单位以最公平的方式让大家入场，从这儿我认识了为了对每一位排队在摇滚区的粉丝写上身份证号码与名字以避免插队的亲，她的卖力从周五至周六，一个名字不漏的写着名单。。。。甚至回到排队位置时我才发现从周六开始，她连一餐都没时间吃，拿着雨伞面对时热有时又下雨的天气，站在人来人往的大门，一个一个向排队者索取身份证，填写了数百个名字。。。她才18岁，还有她的妹妹也落力地帮忙，看了真的觉得现今年幼的亲真的越来越强大了。。。。还有一个从柔佛来排在我后面的亲，也是18岁，才来到这城市读了半年书，竟为了无限一个人来到这儿夜排，我真的没这个勇气。。。。是时候认老了吗？我？我还是会夜排啊！哈哈。。。。
最佩服的还是粉丝团的人，真的是很卖力，很合作，还与工作人员说好会分给所有到场的应援彩带以及手幅。。。。工作人员得非常好，真的根据名单让我们入场。。。。还维持次序。。。只是严了一些，比如不让我们拍照，非常的啰嗦。。。哈哈~~~可是他们却让夜排的我们能够睡在体育馆里的大厅，这已经很足够了，好过那个RITS....好很多。。。这是我第一次夜排能睡在里面。。。
还有，通过这次演唱会也有捐赠大米的计划，真的好强大叻，1300kg 的大米就在入场的地方可以见到。。。粉丝的威力呀！所以说没能力的我只能通过来到演唱会现场，买最好的位置，大大声地应援这方式支持他们。。。好希望以后的我也能够为他们做那么伟大的事！

这就是Inspirit的大米应援了！壮观吧。。。

只是有点小小的插曲让我在排队时差点哭了， 这就是因为突如其来的大雨，当时的我正准备陪一个亲买荧光棒（这是因为我们本来在官方周边排了半小时左右，那时还是大热天，然后才得知官方荧光棒卖完了，唉。。。只好走去较远的非官方周边区），当时没想那么多，也没想到会突然下大雨，所以将包包、海报、电话、饼干留下让排在一起的亲保管就走了。下大雨时我们在什么都不知道的情况下回来了，这时才发现到主办单位开了门让他们入场！！！！哇~~~我的包包！我的海报！我的电话！！OMG， 这一定被人踩到。。。。惨了。。。用最快的速度回来，当时还又喊又骂的喊着“喂！我的电话！帮我拿！我的sungkyu！（我做的应援牌，给咪咪眼队长的）”， “开玩笑，我的bag！”， 可怜的那个替我保管东西的亲也被人潮推来推去到很后面去。。。还有，当时水瓶、海报、饼干都给人踢踢踏踏的，不知到哪里去了。。。真是的！现在还为那个只看到一眼的海报心疼啊！这是我看过那么多场演唱会最恐怖的现象，那时才一点左右叻，演唱会七点半才开始。。。。那时从拿到编号9到挤到很后面去，我、和我去买荧光棒的亲、帮我保管包包的亲，三个人好像虚脱般坐也不能坐下，看着前面的人潮，假如就因为大雨我们就任命，从星期五下午两三点排了差不多要二十四小时的位置，就这样没了？我要哭了，当然也不只我们，还有左边摇滚区的亲，我听到她喊“喂！这样我拜四旧来排队干嘛！全部都白费的吗？！”， 我到现在还无法忘记那时我们虚脱的表情，其实当时正接近无限彩排的时间，有200名幸运儿可以入场观看他们彩排，拍我前面的一个亲也得到这个。。。当时我真的要哭了。。。真的。。。。

看到这场面，可以想象我多么虚脱吗？！

感动的是，粉丝团的人很好、很尽责，他们也安抚了情绪激动的我们，其实这只是暂时让我们避雨而已。。。。等雨停了后我们还是能够拍回原来的位置。。。所以的确我们也重新整理位置，那位帮忙的亲又重新安排名单的位置，当时最辛苦的是她们了吧。。。我也对重回位置感到开心，当时和我排一起的亲更连厕所都不敢上静静坐在那儿等候，值得一提的是，我的海报真的不见了，入场前我才发现我的饼干。。。哈哈。。。面目全非了。。。幸运的是，电话被人家当足球踢却安然无恙。。。谢天谢地。。。

等待的过程是多么的累、多么的烦、多么的恐怖。。。就为了区区的两小时，我们都喊值得！因为他们是无限！从一个人的等待，到认识排在前后面的亲，真的很幸福，就算之前都不认识对方，但大家都冲无限而来的，尤其是那个咪咪眼队长啊！原来好多人都和我一样喜欢咪咪眼。。。嘻嘻~~~我也认识了好多Inspirit原来也是元组神起的饭。。。听他们说跑到曼谷看神起演唱、还有到韩国神起成员的餐厅。。。哇。。。原来大家都比我疯狂。。。我还是学生，还无法如此疯狂。。。好希望自己能够快快毕业、就业。。。

等待虽然辛苦，为了无限，一切值得！

我和朋友做给咪咪眼队长的应援牌~~~

其实，我在这一个礼拜都在感冒、发烧、咳嗽中度过，这也包括了等待的时间以及演唱会当天，也因为咳嗽我无法好好入眠。。。所以等待变得更累，更不舒服，能够撑到演唱会开始我也觉得很厉害，能够为无限应援、尖叫，我真的很强！不管病痛、咳嗽、泻肚子，为他们，我一一撑下去了，应该又会有人说我傻吧。。。我觉得-值得！活在这世界上，我们本来就是不可能见面的，所以一有这种千载难逢的机会，我一定要争取，甚至更努力！这就是梦想~~~亲眼看到他们的表演与从网上下载是不同的，我看到了fanservice， 我看到了VCR， 我看到了 Destiny ver A 的 mv， 我看到了 他们真人、An Inconvenient Truth 的 mv （无限长大了，嘻嘻，真男人哦~~~）， 我看到他们送礼物、小熊给粉丝、拿粉丝手机自拍、大放爱心、抛媚眼、耍赖、飞吻。。。。这些就是不同之处。。。。我还看到了他们之间的互动，我看到了他们真实的眼泪，我听到了百分百现场的歌声。。。。我还看到了他们性感的样貌~~~（除了成钟）他们穿着紧身黑背心时，跳起勾人舞蹈时，身材。。。哇。。。现场的人都在尖叫吧。。。尤其唱“Paradise”时，真的很性感。。。。看得我快疯了。。。。

自拍时间！哈哈~~~

说说演唱会了吧。。。台上看见无限真的像一场梦般。。。好兴奋、好紧张。。。。当天在我面前徘徊最多的非南优铉莫属了，还拼命抛媚眼、飞吻、比心型。。。印象最深刻的莫过于他蹲在我面前让我拍照的吧，还和我打眼色确保我已经拍到他的照片了。。。等我比了个“ok”姿势，他才站起来，真的好关心粉丝。。。。当场的暖男真的非他莫属了~~~唱其他歌曲时，他也有时反过来对我们笑了。。。应该说。。。他，完美！可爱！

其实刚开始我没发现他反过来的，当时在演唱着“wing”吧~~~他的位置最靠近我们区，所有成员是蹲下的舞蹈姿势，我本能的找着咪咪眼的踪影，可是才发现到，当时低下头的花花看过来我们那边阿~~~啊！！！！惭愧死了！再加上我拿着的是咪咪眼队长的牌。。。哈哈~~~

Nam Woohyun made my day^^

好可惜，手震~~~

所以当时开始我便注意起他了。。。还有一次他对我们耍赖，当时是分小熊和纸飞机的时间，每位成员都有一篮的小熊和纸飞机分给粉丝，他们有的更朝小熊问了一下再丢下给粉丝。。。服务最高！南花花那时作势要丢给我们，我们都伸手向他要，但他看了我们一眼，然后又用坏坏的笑容耍赖，摇摇头，然后走到别区去了。。。真是的，让人又爱又恨啊！可是表情太可爱了。。。虽然当时过后也有其他成员向这儿抛小熊，还有成烈那一吻再丢下的小熊，那不远不近的距离就掉在我面前，但保安拿了给其他人啊~~~伤心。。。。

南花花还有一个让人印象超深刻的solo表演，他的自作曲：Beautiful。 当时他戴上眼镜、拿着一束玫瑰、还有戒指， 还请自替某位幸运的粉丝套上可爱眼镜。。。噢。。。羡慕死了，当时尖叫连连啊~~~

结束时更没有料到他尽然在说感谢词时掉起了眼泪。。。那时我更失控的哭了，真的哭了，这是看了BigBang “Haru haru” 后再次在演唱会哭了，比起掉泪， 我是真的哭出声了，本以为只有我，但看看周围，其他的亲也哭了。。。真的。。。尤其是最后一首歌时场面更感动，大家都拿着手幅“一起走到最后”~~~所有人都举着~~~听说当时有四只哭了。。。。昨天看到粉丝团团长更新的状态更说主办当位负责人说在后台无限都哭了。。。好感动，好激动，好开心。。。。其实在结束时，我也拼命在台前喊“kajima Infinite” （无限，不要走）~~~真的好舍不得他们，七位都是。。。可是当晚他们就要赶飞机，我又要赶巴士。。。哈哈~~~ 最后留下美好的回忆~~~

还有咪咪眼，可能我选错位置了，还以为咪咪眼会在右边区活跃。。。哎，算错了。。。可是，还好最后时刻他终于看了一眼我的应援牌，啊！！！还对着这儿笑了，好开心，没遗憾了，本来我就只抱着让他看见的希望，好笑的是，和我一样期待咪咪眼的右边区也不少哦。。。我旁边就是了。。。。我们都拼命喊“sungkyu！ Kim sungkyu！” 的。。。他solo时唱的60秒真的很好听，全场静下来聆听。。。听的好舒服，可是我们那区竟有一位亲突然喊“Kim Sunggyu saranghae”, 我也傻傻的跟着喊“Kim Sunggyu saranghae！”，惹来所有人看着我，真好笑，没办法，不用这招他是不会知道这一区也有他的粉丝的。。。

除外， 还有L 真的太可爱了，当晚“萌猪” 上身了吧！哈哈！唱个人曲时竟弄掉他的“熊熊”女友， 哈哈，还得所有粉丝尖叫，到最后为了安抚女友还与熊熊bobo呢！好幸福的熊熊~~~最好笑的是退场时还看到他抱着熊熊遮着脸跑到后台了。。。可爱！还有一幕是我没看到的，他跳下台与粉丝互动，等要上去时才发现没梯子，哈哈~~~他尽然爬上去了，听说舞台有1.5米高叻~~~真是可爱。。。。之后就是我的悲剧了，他跑到我们区，坐在楼梯上，要拿粉丝电话自拍，我本想拍一张他的近距离照，被不懂那位推了一下，手机“落地开花”了，惨的是跌在围栏外，我根本无法拿~~~当时只有一个韩国保安在哪儿， 我什么都没想就用咪咪眼的应援牌碰了碰保安一下，第一次他没理会，但我再碰一次，他反过来了，我立刻指着我的手机，那时已“开花”了。。。让他帮我拾起，他真的很好心，替我拾了~~~幸好，电话整体上也没大碍，没办法，老爷电话。。。回想起还真的感谢那位韩国保安。。。。

去了丛林的成烈也变了，不再像初丁，反而很有男人气概。。。全场最帅非他莫属，谁叫他是队内身高担当~~~第一个与我看对眼的也是他，当时他经过我前面，看了一眼，然后又看了我的应援牌，糟糕了。。。我的是给咪咪眼的。。。然后他酷酷的走了。。。嘻嘻~~~ 李浩元也出现了很多次哦。。。。海派到了他的近照。。。他最性感~~~给我的感觉就是性感~~~

帅帅的他 -  李成烈

性感的他 - 李浩元

成烈与L~~~

Hoya 的近照啊！！！

张东雨也很可爱，喜欢作弄成员们，唱了一句优铉的“Beautiful”最好笑~~~可是一想到他那可怜的经历就忍不住可怜起他，竟被保安认为是粉丝，他只是好心拾起粉丝给的礼物。。。。全场他也很high!和他明朗的性格一样。。。好可惜没拍到他的照片~~~ 我们无限的忙内成钟也很可爱，拿了不少粉丝的手机自拍，我朋友也拿到了。。。印象深刻的是他在分小熊环节时手上的小熊分完了，所以他给了我们这区特别服务，握手！哎呀，舞台有点远啦，我的手不够长，只能这样伸着什么都做不到，可惜。。。。

贴心的忙内~~~

其实还有好多好多的回忆，但就到此为止吧！总之，那一晚我很幸福~~~ 无限给了我好多好多回忆，也让到场的人没有任何遗憾，不开心的事都抛在后头，很感动的演出，真的。。。看了VCR也觉得很精彩。。。他们真的好男人哦。。。。如果回到现实我也能够遇到那么棒的男人就很幸福~~~所以，我也不懂到底从什么时候我才能够真正从梦里走出来。。。我和无限的梦~~~你们是否也和我一样珍惜与粉丝相识、相惜的日子。。。下次，如果还有下次，千万不要忘了我们~~~~Inspirit！

回去前拍的最后一张照片~~~

好有纪念价值的应援物，彩带，荧光棒，手幅、咪咪眼的应援牌~~~还有粉丝团给的名片与卡片~~~这都是131019的回忆~~~ Infinite， 下次一定要再来，不要忘记Malaysia~~~虽然人数可能不多，但来到这儿的都是真心为无限的，都是会应援的，都是会唱无限的歌的。。。。不要忘记我们~~~

我舍不得他们啦！！！

虽然只是一个月，但真的、真的、真的非常舍不得，我的同学，弄得我又气、又笑、又哭、又火大！哈哈，可爱的你们，我怎么舍得生气你们呢，老师只是觉得还你们被骂很内疚、自责而已，可能老师做得不够好。。。。可是能够教到你们，真的很幸福。。。。很开心。。。看到你们一个个围着我，和我拍照，还叫我留下时，真的很开心。。。很开心。。。这一切，就觉得自己被珍惜般，虽然只是短暂的一个月，我好开心。。。。
Year4:Keshan-cute innocent face and always didn't bring his work....but i can't scold him la, so cute!!!!, Kalai-clever but always absent, what's wrong o? haha^^, Justin-Chindian, can speak all language very smooth, but very naughty la, a bit shy i think when facing me^^, Aifa-good in selca, haha, cute face, cute pose like angry bird^^, Aizat-looked very clever seem like don't like my class, actually nope...., Irfan-the most hardworking and good boy in the class, although not so clever but i like him so much, Amirul-always like to change his name, clever enough but too naughty too, always talks about wrestling and football, Ikmal-Always help me shout "Diam", but made class more noisy la, hehe...teacher helper..., Mugin-so pity this Indian guy, but like to talk with me, and i like to listen to him too, Syafika-most clever girl in class(out of 4), active and talkative too, Amalina-the most memorable moment is she cried when can't answer my quiz, haha, nevermind learnt from it, Azizah-cute and small girl in class, like to talk with me too, she's the one hold my hand ask me don't go, Syazwani-didn't notice about her too much, but i like her too, ask her to fight harder!, Jimmy-The MOST ACTIVE and NOISY!!! Haha, run here run there but very clever....., Fahmi- Cute small boy who is very quiet, hopefully can help him more, Sofian- cute and got heart to improve himself, hope he can do it one day^^, Habil-always follow me, he seem got some problem, and why you are crying when your English teacher giving speech during assembly, haha^^ Work hard Habil!, Zahid- lied about the worksheet is him, but actually is Justin's, haha^^ Work hard la, Amin-Sir said he was improving a lot, i knew he was willing to learn something, i want to try my best to help him, but class, why you all so noisy???!!!, Rifki-passive but very clever la...He can do all question i made....Big clap for him! He made me think about when i was young^^, Shahrul, quiet person too but is leader in this class, i like him too, he wanted to show improvement i knew, but so sad can't give attention on him, Shafiq,-actually i don't know what is in your mind, feel like sometimes you looked unhappy, don't know what is the reason....haizzz....But when i received your present, you know how happy i am! Really....

That's all for year 4....Now is about year 5, many things happened in this class actually, and they are getting mad at me one day, i'm glad he accepted my apologize and give me a flower, yeap, i'm talking about Sharizan, sorry maybe i'm too moody that day, luckily you are forgiving meXD, Arif-very very very naughty!!! Haha, play ball?? cards??? during class??? No no no！But you are really good in acting, when lecturer come in class, you are always the best actor, thanks^^, Azlina- haha, this girl always said i'm cute, i'm pretty and she like me, haha^^ How touching i am you know, but please la, don't so active until you want to do all the question at board, let some chance for others okay?Nazrul-handsome boy but made girl cried^^ haha, and don't so arrogant because you are handsome, anyway, thanks for giving me face snap a picture with me XD, Ali- cute boy, and tidy handwriting, doing thing smoothly and systematically, i like him XD, Izzat-haha, add my FB? haha^^ I knew you are the one wanted perfection in your life, same stickers, all the same pattern, but less talking please, haha^^ Danial- Why you always looked not satisfied when i arranged you in a team? haizzz...who do you want actually? Anyway, you requested to take photo with me, i'm happy with it XD, Akma- the 1st place in class, wow chasing for a girl in class??? haha no wonder you are always very hardworking and active...showing off in front your girl?  Nadira- That girl, who Akma adore, haha^^ beautiful girl in future, fair skin, cute face^^ No wonder he likes you XD, Fatihah- Active girl, and i think you like someone in class right? haha just feel it in class...haha girl in year 5 started like someone o....Elya- beautiful and cheerful girl, a good and pretty girl....clever girl in class.....I like her too, Aina- quiet girl in class, and she is absent sometimes too, haha^^ I think if i have more chance i would like to help her, pretty girl^^, Girls in year 5 always very nice and helpful, i like them^^, Yusril,- why you wanna quarrel with Daresh always, and talkative boy too, haha^^ Please pay more attention in your studies and stop talk something to bully your friend^^ Daresh- Keep it on! I knew you can do it, and change your hot tempered  behaviour so you won't let them have chance to talk something bad about you, Azimuddin- I feel very sad and touching when seeing you raise up your hand and answer my question, really happy!!!! This is the improvement you have shown , i know you can do it!, Hafizuddin-very quiet in class, but sometimes you are very talkative too, hopefully you will show some improvement in class....Alif- I think you very good with Ali right, like wrestling so much too, haha^^ One more cute guy too XD Yassin- Mamak boy, and good with Danial too....Showed lots of improvement too^^ Very active sometimes...haha^^, Ekmal- I think you are the most clever when talking about Math subject, you always can understand what i'm talking about when the class looked so blur, luckily, haha^^

Year 4 and year 5! I miss you all so much, do you miss me like i miss you???haha^^
Hopefully all the best for you all!!! Hwaiting!

Cute students take photo with me during recess time^^ Love it!

Me, Keshan and Amin XD

Haha, stole some time to snap a pic with them... Habil, Izzat, me. Yassin and Arif, BTW, Arnold at the back there!

Wow, came back school for signing some documents, ask them to come  down and snap a last photo with me....Sad T~T

Year 4!!!! Miss you all so much, I like this photo so much!!!

Year 5 (Most of them), miss you too!!!

Handsome boy Nazrul willing to take picture with me! It's my honor!

Year 5! The last lesson!

First day of practicum~~~

"Nama saya Phang, murid-murid boleh panggil saya Cikgu Phang!"
The first word i say when i introduced myself to students and teachers....I am very nervous when talking about practice for a month in Malay school, wow, you know i'm not so good in speaking Malay actually, so i am afraid when pupil don't understand what i am talking about~~~
The school i'm having practicum is a small school, is about 20 student in a class, so i think it will be easy to teach because the amount is small.....A big challenge for me right now...
After teaching for a week about 4 hour, 8 period, i felt that it was hard when we were planning about the thing we used to teach and also creating the RPH~~~~modul for teaching...OMG!!! i took a night to finish it, and during Tuesday, i will do 2 RPH which made me really tired and can't sleep because lots of works to be done.....Yes, some of us didn't start their class yet, and we, sigh~~~~ But, i feel very lucky because i have chance to learn more than them, is a great opportunity to train myself become more professional? I feel lucky because we also have most of the good Malay teachers in this school who is very friendly and give advice for us from time to time....Although it was tired for me, but i am happy because i can have many learning experiences and also more chances to keep in touch with my student....
Talking about my student, of course majority of them is Malay and some of them is Indian, there are also Chinese of them but not more than 5 of them......It  was a big big challenge for me as a teacher...
Student here are also very friendly but also talkative~~~ I like them so much XD They are so cute and i don't know, just i like them, maybe is because i like children? Maybe...haha^^

Yes, it will be hard if i have finish my first practicum.....i think i will miss them so much, this is my thought for first week, you know, the student is always cute and childish, they are innocent, unlike adult, has a lot of thinking and someone called it mature....for me, being innocent is always the best way because we don't need to think to much which will make us stress out and think negatively.....Maybe we are good enough, but just we will not satisfied the "good", because we are always aiming for the best...

Being back to school and watching all the student, quarrel and then we can see them close back after then, it just simple.....but why do we keep changing from time to time? I like student, they just like won't bother anything just enjoy their life....Actually sometimes i wish i can back to my childhood time......
This is because my childhood moment not so memorable, not having more friends and just quiet, sitting at the backside listening to teachers, i am very shy and won't able to talk although i feel want to go toilet, so i hope i ca become active if i really have a chance to get back my childhood time.....

I love to see when student greet me....I like it XD First time i feel like i have been appreciated by someone, and i will also have my student, is a great feeling you know! They made me want to do my best to teach them, let them happy with my activities..... Not about the marks, just about my passion to teach them and have a good relationship with them....

Just feel very touching when listening the teacher said that student were talking about you in the class...I am very happy.....First time ever....Hwaiting Phang Chia Chia, You can do it!!!

Turtle~~~Always doing thing slowly~~~

With no place to place its heart, no place to go
It’s a sad turtle
Because you have a lot of scars, because you’re alone-
Is that why you’re hiding alone every day?
I can’t protect you anymore or love you anymore
It’s my heart aching story
It’s okay if it’s a little late
Just take step by step, slowly~~~~

it's picking from Davichi's song "Turtle", nice song and i started falling in love with this song, a great mean for using Turtle represent someone who always ding things slowly and hiding himself/herself inside a shell, like turtle, walking slowly.....
With that slow speed, they won't go so far,
with that slow speed maybe there are troubles in front and they don't know....
They will stop when facing problems and try to heal their heart before continuing their journey,
that's why turtle is always slower and slowest~~~
They will find that no place to go after all the slow moves....they are always alone, that's because it takes time to heal their heart like their moves, after a long long time, they will start with a lonely life.....
Dear turtle, I see myself when I see you~~~~~
that's why I will match my steps with yours, which is slower
So that you won’t have to cry by yourself anymore~~~~

This is what i thought from the song~~~nice lyric....

First time i watched F1 live after i entered my teaching life...haha is trainee teacher XD
Wow, Kimi Raikkonen, still the same and i feel very happy for his comeback to F1 last year and he won the first Australlian Grand Prix this year, but maybe the strategies and not raining, Kimi didn't make a miracle again at Sepang circuit.....Nevermind,, as long as you still have strength to fight with that guy, actually after watching the race, i started to hate Sebastien Vettel and i think he is rude by ignoring the team manager's instruction, why did him still want to pass Webber, his teammate actually???
Ya, i knew that he is in pole position and lost it when the changing tyre strategies, but Red Bull still lead....
I found that they didn't even speak with each other after the race, Vettel passed Webber vigorously actually, not the passing situation actually, and we didn't see anyone of teammate will do something like this before, so maybe he will lost many respects after the race~~~~

One more funny thing is Lewis Hamilton and also his girlfriend, Nicole from Pussycat Dolls ~~~
haha~~~he went into the wrong pit lane when coming to pit...hahahahaha!!! Laughing much for it!!!
He came to Mclaren again, we can see how he missed that team, is his team when he was debuting in F1 until last year.... Will him comeback again for Mclaren??? haha^^

From the race, all i can see is poor Alonso when facing 2 Redbull cars and crashed some.....I hope he will still stay for a round and went into pitlane, but although the car facing problem, he didn't allow Webber to pass him and that cause the car can't stay anymore....very unfortunately.....

You can see different kind of people in this world, there are cute funny people who still missed his old teammate and made mistake went into the wrong pitlane, first time ever i saw in F1 race - Lewis Hamilton 

A people full with thought of winning and ignored the team order, that's what we call teamwork???? LOL~~~ Hey, a young people and won the title back to back, why do you take it so serious in passing your teammate?- Sebastien Vettel

Poor person and experienced many unfair thing just because he is old.....i think he was receiving team order for letting Vettel overtake before.....- Mark Webber

Someone who will not take serious for the race and hope for a point at the end....didn't take risk in passing and stay for his place..... But i saw many dangerous overtake in this race and my heart felt worry so much....Luckily, you have point XD haha^^- Kimi Raikkonen

Maybe i don't know what is behind it, and maybe the team will always protect the person who will have more chances to win....Maybe that's the reason Rosberg didn't overtake Hamilton at last????
this is reality, the best one will always get the best, people will always being around the best, the first and only one~~~~
How about the second???? They are also great enough but people always forgot about it..... They will be like a turtle, walking slowly and can't find a place to stay when there are something happen, nobody will look after them, they just kept focusing on the best......that is why we didn't see how hard they work for a good place, and when they have the chances, the first one will always grab it without any of feeling guilty and pity....at the end, what do we can know by the word "Sorry"? After you hurting someone? 
Sorry, just 5 alphabet and we are innocent to think that is enough to heal someone's heart? Not that easy, your act just like saying that you are the best and nobody will have effort to beat you, in the deep of your heart, you are thinking so and what do you mean with that "Sorry"?

Turtle didn't have any impressing thing inside, they did everything with their hard working and not giving up, i will always support those turtles, i won't let them being ignored just because they are not good enough....
The first not always the best.....that's just outside, but the second will always good inside~~~~

I believe in miracles~~~that's why i believe in you, second^^

Hwaiting turtle!!!! Don't hide yourself inside again~~~ Stand up and do your best!!!  

I'm hot right now...

I never been like this before, yes, i wanna scold some CB people and just wanna speak out what i feel right...damn it!!!!
I just watched a fanpost video for U Kiss last performances "Man Man Ha Ni", and really looked great! But at the end when they come to front stage and make some interaction with KISSME, that happened!!! Again!!! Hey, do you have brain? have mind? and are you INSANE??? Why do you kept doing that stupid and nonsense and useless CB　thing to my idol actually??? Wei! We didn't do anything and never unrespet someone although not my idol, what the Shit thing you did last night???!!!
Why you wasted your money to buy a light stick and throw to them??? Just for boo-ing them??? Stupid bastard!!!!! Hey, what are you thinking for buying fanzone tickets just to make our Malaysian felt shameful for your stupid act??? Please stop this!!!! They are idols, they practicing hard just to stand at the stage and received our love, not like you, stupid!!!
I never feel bad like this before, i can't figure out if yesterday i had sudden thought and went for this, what will happen??? I can't imagine!!!! Don't waste your money at here, if you really have strength, prove that i'm wrong don't do this again and again!!!!
U Kiss coming not for you, for us! Kpop Lover, Kiss Me.....I like them, and i saw Kiseop taking someone's phone and self camera-ing, Omo!!!Jealous!, I'm sure i will grab for a front place if i'm there....I hope i'll be there and cheer for them....T~T this happened again....And somemore is enough!!! They have suffered much more at here, they lost their I Phone last time and now, receiving your light stick attack???? What the hell you did for them????
If you just don't like their song, don't come there, don't listen to them, don't ever step nearer and do some stupid thing!!!! Araso???!!!!
I'm wondering what the hell made you so jealous and feel hate to them??? What's wrong man????
Your act really "mempersiasuikan" la!!!!
p/s 不喜欢可以不要来！没人拿着枪逼你去看！　
那么花心思买荧光棒丢他们，不如去做多一些充实自己的事！！！还有，就算不喜欢，可以不要听，不去回应，更别去捣乱！！！拿那个票送我更好！
这次，你们真的太过分了！！！！如果今天的表演也这么样，你们等死吧！！！
Blackjack 们！！！加油吧！！！
好后悔没去，不然。。。。。。对不起，骂了好多臭话。。。。我忍无可忍啊！！！
什么鬼性格来的？？？？
Watch this and you will understand why I'm hot right now, sia sui la you people!!!!

当男人陷入爱情时~~~

哼著沒興趣的情歌
世上的偶像劇也都像是我的故事一樣
以前不在意的外貌 現在卻花很多心思
現在才了解咖啡苦澀的味道


時光飛逝 令我內心著急
想像妳在我身邊 一個人拍著獨角戲


當男人戀愛時
一定會常常猶豫不決
但想為她做的事實在很多
掉入愛情時
給她我人生中所有的東西
只渴望她的心
掉入愛情時


漸漸變紅的臉頰
開始變暈的腦袋
我只想要妳
I`m On My Way
我瘋狂似的告白
當男人戀愛時
為了一個目標努力不管一切
絕不會讓妳後悔
就像世界末日般將我擁有的都給妳
All I Have

就像幼稚的孩子一樣 莫名奇妙的笑起來
沉浸在自己的世界裡 自己當導演


當男人戀愛時
一定會常常猶豫不決
但想為她做的事實在很多
掉入愛情時
給她我人生中所有的東西
只渴望她的心
掉入愛情時

無法分開的深深投入
書中的字在跳舞 因為妳
就算是電影演員和天上的月亮
也是妳的樣子
每天描繪妳的模樣
妳在我的懷抱裡
就可以安心
在只為了你的地方 我的愛絕不冷卻

如果妳能感受到我的心情 妳也會陷入愛情的
若是誰向妳暗示 是希望你明白 就像我現在這樣

當男人戀愛時
一定會常常猶豫不決
但想為她做的事實在很多
掉入愛情時
給她我人生中所有的東西
只渴望她的心
掉入愛情時

當男人戀愛時 當男人戀愛時
當我戀愛時 當我愛上妳時

大爱！！！！当女人陷入爱情呢？？？？哈哈~~~就像现在，看着这可爱的歌词微笑。。。。就算只看荧幕也能够激动，想大声尖叫！！！无限，果然没让我失望。。。。。还喜欢这首歌。。。。

看看mv里他们的恋爱方式，好可爱吧？又不缺浪漫的感觉。。。哇~~~~~我彻底的、彻底的陷入恋爱了。。。

多么希望现实生活会有那么完美的男友。。。。就算只是短时间内。。。。因为，我享受恋爱，不强求恋爱，到了该放弃时就放弃，该开始时开始，结束就彻底结束，话说：好久没恋爱了。。。忘了那种又酸又甜的感觉，心跳加速的感觉。。。。。好久好久没恋爱了。。。。

我，还有希望吗？年龄不小了，就算恋爱也不会甜蜜，当恋爱由最初的甜甜蜜蜜、为对方赴汤蹈火，到一个程度，变得现实，为恋爱而恋爱时，一点感觉都没有。。。。只是在进行日常生活中需进行的事而已。。。。这种恋爱，既不甜、也不浪漫。。。。那干脆单身算了。。。哈哈~~~

陷入爱情的女人，不理智，从头脑中晃过的一切一切，她都会毫不犹豫地说出来，做出来，她不怕挫折，她一心一意希望对方明白她的小小心意。。。。

她不轻易放弃，她不想结束，她会继续毫无分寸地疯狂下去，她会做出一切傻事只为了得到他的注意，但，有时候，陷入恋爱的同时，女人变成女生，只投入在自己的世界里，回到当初单纯的她。。。。

当女人陷入恋爱，她会尽力不露出自己的缺点，只让对方发觉她的优点，但，她却会有想过毫不伪装的出现在男人面前，但还是下不了决心，因为，陷入恋爱的她，希望对方看到她最好的一面，她的努力，是多么的花心思，打扮自己，讨好他。。。。

当女人陷入恋爱，她会忘了应该做的事情，只为了那个男人的一切着想，同时，她却不希望男人看见她伤感的一面，她需要甜蜜，她需要呵护，她需要爱，但，她不会说出这一切，她让男人幸福，让男人恋爱。。。。。

我无法想象当我恋爱时会怎样？当初？现在？未来？没想过，我会享受，我会心动，我会心跳加速，但，我太平凡，没有魅力。。。。所以，没恋爱的资格？ 我，不想自己争取，我期待缘分的到来，但，我的平凡让我很自卑，糟蹋了缘分。。。没有信心，所以一个又一个地错过。。。。恋爱，好难！

 但是，听着歌，享受音乐的同时，我可以感受到陷入恋爱的感觉，看看结尾，他们也只在想象陷入恋爱的滋味，我也是，我觉得我也和他们一样，表情、动作、一切一切都显示出我好像陷入恋爱。。。。但，有几个真正恋爱了？？？还在期待吗？我也是。。。。。

我喜欢，短暂的幸福，我觉得今天的我好幸福，听到熟悉的声音、看到熟悉的面孔，我好幸福，周围有那么多讲义气的朋友，那么都疼爱我的家人，那么多能有说有笑的同学，我好幸福！

我好幸福，可以过追星的生活，可以得到固定的职业，可以一一实现梦想，可以跟他们做承诺，可以看某人实现他的承诺，我好幸福！我可以往更高的梦想前进，我好幸福！

我有机会见到地球另一边的人们，我真的非常幸福，我好贪心地说，假如身边的人也能像我一样幸福，我就真的真的太幸福了！ 有机会期待，等待，不是很幸福吗？

这种幸福，应该胜过陷入恋爱吧？

p/s：朋友们，我们一起实现承诺吧！！！！韩国！五年后见！

倒数：四年九个月~~~~加油！

D-Day ^^

21st March 2013, D-Day!!! Yeap, today is the day, i have decided everything, i think many people will also take this as their D-day right????
Cheering for my sister who will take her result today, hopefully everything will be okay and she will get a nice and suitable colleges.....I think she can do it, cheer for her, it's time to prove that although we are always chasing for a star but we are always on top, like our stars^^
D-Day for, meaningful~~~ I knew GD will come Malaysia once again, is my chance to meet him in three years back to back!! wow, fantastic baby!!! I think is his style to write something nonsense when he is feeling stressful right, i'm also the same, thanks for giving Malaysian fans to cheer for you once again, yes sir! We are one of a kind!!!! get your crayon!!! In my heart, i will go for you once again, i won't regret spending much money for it because i know it worth and it is always more than what i have expected....
One more thing , due to my financial problem i won't go to see many kpop star and this year may become my last year attend for a concert....a paid concert....
It's time to give up this for a nice trip, is my Korean trip with my sister and my friends, so i must save some for this....
My target:
I wanna go GD World Tour (will go for sure if nothing accidentally happen)
Infinite Global Tour (is them Infinite!!!! Of course i will go and it is my awaited moment all the time!!! By the way, Malaysia please??? XD)
That's all my target, and if i'm lucky i will take part to grab some tickets for MTV World Stage again, remember last year??? It rocksss!!!!
 Sorry to say that i must give up Twin Tower Alive Tour (T~T 2NE1, BSB, U kiss)...TVXQ World Tour (U know T~T)....Asian Super Showcase (LOL, who is the last team performing by the way)....A Showcase that included Beast 4 Minute and GNA (I think i'm always missing chances to see Beast live...Junhyung ya!!!)...
But i know it worth right? p/s: no pain no gain XD Give up is for gaining somemore....
Hwaiting!
One more, D-Day!!!!Infinite's comeback....I can't wait to listen to "Man in Love"....and more from them!!! Infinite, I'm always Inspirit!!! So, please come to Malaysia once!!! I have missed GDA....so please make a meet or showcase or even concert here!!!