你。。。谜一般的人

好奇。。。还是好奇。。。对一个人的保鲜度不超过三天的我。。。对这谜一般的人好奇了，超过了保鲜期。。。我想告诉你，到现在没那勇气整理。只能够等。。。等我放弃的那一刻，我会说出一切吧。
我想说。。。我，不喜欢纠缠不清，不喜欢扭扭捏捏，所以，你是第一个我还想继续纠缠的。
我不喜欢的，毫不犹豫的放弃，不会在那边假装，也不会找代替品。。。所以，我能够如此忍耐，却任何明确的提示都没有也那么傻傻等待的，你是第一个。。。
我承认，我们有很多不同的看法，兴趣，我们根本就不一样。。。但，我却想进一步了解你。。。我对于自己有兴趣的，会毫不犹豫，毫无矜持，更不会将自己吊高来卖。。。用心接近你的每一步，是花了我最大的勇气。。。尽量让自己厚脸皮一些，只希望自己会拥有不一样的结果。。。
但，越来越接近那个线，那个自己心里的限期。。。
我，是不是该放弃了?

早安 晚安

看似简单道出的话。不同的人都会感觉到不同的意义。对你来说，可能只是随口说说，对其他人来说，那句随口说说可能就代表了很大的意义。。。
我的赌注，目前为止，不太顺利。可能我不太有经验吧! 自己好像无法好好经营一段感情。。。就这样，慢慢地，冷淡了。还有一星期的期限。我能度过吗?
我朋友说过，我是在感情路上举棋不定的人，在决定前都会犹豫一阵子，所以错过了。我不擅长等待。但，这次我等了。我对所有事物的新鲜感不超过三天，但我忍了好多时间。我对不回复我的人无条件放弃的，但我到现在都没放弃。。。我的要求很高，没条件，没事业，薪水没我高的我选择自己过活更好，但我停下了我的脚步。。。可能你并不知道你有多重要，更影响了我。。。我到现在都不清楚答案。。。但我想坚持，至少让你正面评价我。。。
有时候，我会觉得自己很傻，明知道有时候那态度是多么敷衍，我却耐心等待。。。
果然，女人很奇怪，放着简单的路不走，却选择一个没答案的路，让自己心伤。。。不能怪别人，只能怪自己选了这条路。。。
谁能够把我救出来啊?!

赌注

如果有一场永远没胜算的赌注~~~你敢放手一搏吗？ 我的答案~~~是，我会。虽然在不清楚的情况下开始一段赌注，但。。。我还是希望有一天我会是赢的一方~~~

在赌博当中，我觉得我最多只能拿回自己的投注，却不能够大胜一场。。。所以，我很怕万一大胆下注的结果不理想，会不会就此失望，绝望？ 就是这种思维，让我在下注时无法投入所有，永远都有所保留~~~现在，年纪大了，开始思考，后悔~~~~

这一次，无论友情、感情，我想再下注一把，敢敢下注，让自己不会再后悔。
无论未来发生了什么事，真心希望自己不会再做感到后悔的事~~~ 就算结果不理想，可能让我最后伤痕累累~~~但我要下注。。。。

感情的事就是这样，在互不了解的情况下认识，相知、交往。。。。你无法理智，不能保持在双方安全的水平，所以，你永远不知道谁是胜利者~~~ 那种不懂一切的事虽很刺激，当你拆穿它丑陋的一面时，却无法不感到伤感,绝望~~~我怕。。我很怕。。。但没有开始争取便害怕是胆小鬼的行为，我当了好多年的胆小鬼。。。这次想替自己争取一次了~~~

让自己主动一些，接近一些，付出一些，失败了，只能结束~~~可能会有意想不到的结果呢？

加油！嘉嘉！

I feel OLD

OLD.....I thought this word won't appear in my life, my dictionary...But after all the things happened in sudden, maybe something that people won't call it as burden, now became mine....How sad, I'm only 24, no...still 23 (my birthday is in December, hehe) How come such this thing happen to me?

Travel, all i want now is pack all the things and start my journey, anyplace, anywhere, just let me relax a while, don't think too much about it....

Songs...something always good in healing no matter what happen, i can't imagine one day without music....When i start feeling old, i listen back to all the songs i liked when i was young, younger...Actually feeling great when looking back all the things and i won't feel regret for everything i did in the past....chasing for stars, stay a night lining up only to buy tickets for them or Stay nearer even only 2 hours or less than it...

One thing i started feeling is after a long drive to Sunway Lagoon Surf Beach to catch up MTV World Stage 2015, it's Jason Derulo okay? but i gave up while waiting for him to perform on stage (please, really wait a long time okay, and those Indian guys started...OMG, tired plus scared so i gave up)...He was the last person performing on stage...So I only can watch him at the back...more fresh air, haha...Such a crazy day...Something funny was, when A Pink was performing on stage, those ARMY ...hahaha...shout like ARMY, chant like ARMY....Wow, that was the first time i watched a concert with guys,....many guys...haha...Even i couldn't hear my voice fan chanting for A Pink...Daebak! and my brother also in it...

Sharing some pictures during MTV World Stage here also...I miss the moment...Next year hopefully won't be any activities or courses please...tiring when driving along from JB to KL....and then rushing back after the concert...(Concert was from 7:00pm to 11:30pm, so great and having fun)

Waiting for the show to be started^^

It's A Pink^^

Selfie^^ Tired face...

梦想。。。

神奇。。。我看到小孩子的梦想。那与众不同的梦想~~~
 真心希望他能够实现梦想~~~~
老实说:喜欢做的，往往与能做的,所做的，有非常大的差别。小时候，我们都做喜欢做的。长大了，到了选择的阶段，我们会发现自己开始懂得区分喜欢做的和现实能做的，那个区分，造就了一个选择_未来的选择。好多人在这个交叉点选择了放弃梦想，回到现实。我也是。我现在的却不是在做我喜欢做的事。。。应该有很多人和我有相同的处境吧~~~
有时候真的很羡慕那些选择了梦想的人。就算可能不能够实现，到起码你做出了选择，你享受了那个过程~~~你得到的是多么的可贵。。。。
虽然我离梦想逐渐遥远。。。但我开始用不同的方式接近它，追求它~~~

Awkward or What?

Sometimes, you will fall into a situation, speechless, don't know what to do....confusing...and causing some awkward there...OMG..and i was in those kind of situation today....

I feel quite sad for making myself into such kind of situation, hopefully everything can replay this time, really....But time passed fast, and now tomorrow will be coming, soon, real soon...

P/S: Stop feeling like that, to me, myself....

Okay, first dinner with my colleague after eight months working at this place...Time passed fast, again.... Next time please don't like that again, Feeling down for this kind of situation...

But, still taking some photos...^^



Yeah...Red^^

Continue with my favourite topic, drama, Korean Drama ... Yes, watched back some old Korean Drama recently, "Lie to Me"...Feel nice tat main actor...If in real life have such that kind of man, wow,,,it will be awesome, really, please let me meet him soon! "Yong Pal" also a nice drama to watch, Joowon an d Kim Taehee done a really great job making the story touching and just nice...more mature love....


Stupid line runs slow....haih...made me can't even upload my picture....

Boring Day...Lucky?

I was wonder can i get some lucks in my life? People always said that don't believe in lucks, You should use more effort to prove that hardworking is the most important thing and it will always win over your luck. Talking about luck, maybe it just came when you didn't ever realise about it, and then it goes.... Shall i catch it or ignore it? It just a question when the luck coming in real.... And then, some people will always depend on the luck, and didn't ever try their best in every works, like me? Sometimes...

People also said sometimes what i predict, especially the worst thing will happen....So I can't easily speak out what my mind keeps on thinking, sometimes will become real...I don't want it to become real..

Actually feeling lazy recently, so wanna leave some words here...Guess what? I'm very weak in English, and now, i became an English teacher, OMG....So something we unexpected will always happen and that's called life...

Feeling happy for my sister who get offer from UKM, a quite good government university, and then her first choice, mass communication, maybe in the future she will become a well known script writer? Or journalist? Or host? Or just a simple jobs from IME Production? Wow, really feel happy for her and i will have a reason to run to KL then...haha^^

Watching "Oh My Ghost", korean drama starring by Park Boyoung, a well known korean actor with the guy main lead in "The Best Lee Sunsing" (IU)...Nice drama...it taught us to enjoy our live, live out our live, love as hard as we can while we still young, still alive.... Really feel sad for that ghost in the drama (Shin SoonAe).... She keeps working hard while she was alive for her family and didn't ever had her own time....She fell in love with the cops, but he murdered her...(She still can't remember about it) Now, she became a ghost and fell in love with the chef who didn't know who exactly she was....Only thought that she is Laa BoumSun... What will happen next when the guy knew the truth? Very speechless? Disapointed? She will leave him alone again, like others....OMG...so sad~~~

That's all for today, oh, i still busy and didn't have time to upload my memories during BigBang Made Tour in Malaysia...Will talk about it soon~~~