Friday, August 14, 2015

Boring Day...Lucky?

I was wonder can i get some lucks in my life? People always said that don't believe in lucks, You should use more effort to prove that hardworking is the most important thing and it will always win over your luck. Talking about luck, maybe it just came when you didn't ever realise about it, and then it goes.... Shall i catch it or ignore it? It just a question when the luck coming in real.... And then, some people will always depend on the luck, and didn't ever try their best in every works, like me? Sometimes...

People also said sometimes what i predict, especially the worst thing will happen....So I can't easily speak out what my mind keeps on thinking, sometimes will become real...I don't want it to become real..

Actually feeling lazy recently, so wanna leave some words here...Guess what? I'm very weak in English, and now, i became an English teacher, OMG....So something we unexpected will always happen and that's called life...

Feeling happy for my sister who get offer from UKM, a quite good government university, and then her first choice, mass communication, maybe in the future she will become a well known script writer? Or journalist? Or host? Or just a simple jobs from IME Production? Wow, really feel happy for her and i will have a reason to run to KL then...haha^^

Watching "Oh My Ghost", korean drama starring by Park Boyoung, a well known korean actor with the guy main lead in "The Best Lee Sunsing" (IU)...Nice drama...it taught us to enjoy our live, live out our live, love as hard as we can while we still young, still alive.... Really feel sad for that ghost in the drama (Shin SoonAe).... She keeps working hard while she was alive for her family and didn't ever had her own time....She fell in love with the cops, but he murdered her...(She still can't remember about it) Now, she became a ghost and fell in love with the chef who didn't know who exactly she was....Only thought that she is Laa BoumSun... What will happen next when the guy knew the truth? Very speechless? Disapointed? She will leave him alone again, like others....OMG...so sad~~~

That's all for today, oh, i still busy and didn't have time to upload my memories during BigBang Made Tour in Malaysia...Will talk about it soon~~~


Sunday, May 3, 2015

LOSER

i like the lyric in this song sooo much! it's touching...really....speaks out all inside our minds....

For example, GD's part:

Honestly, I’ve never fit in with the world
I was always alone
It’s been a long time since I’ve forgotten about love
I can’t listen to hopeful love songs anymore
You and me both
We’re just sad clowns, tamed and scripted
I’ve come too far
I’M COMING HOME
I wanna go back
To when I was young


I want to go back to young days too....sincerely....

Then TOP's part:

It’s a cycle of girls and mistakes
Love them for one night
And hate them when morning comes
Can’t own up to it
Because of my selfish pleasure
Everything is being ruined
Can’t stop this dangerous full speed run
Now I have no interest, no fun anymore
I’m standing alone at the edge of a cliff
I’m going home
I wanna go back
To how it was before


This is not what i think, i'm not that mature, hehe~~~

Taeyang and Daesung's part also my favourite, actually i like the whole lyrics~~~~
So please listen to this song....nice~

我~变得麻木了?我变了?

听着2ne1 的lonely。。。。开始写这一篇文章。。。。好久没有这样~一个人休息了。。。其实,在家里静静的享受,也蛮不错的。。。虽然会有点闷,那是当然的~

我好像渐渐失去了当初的热情、笑容。。。。不懂什么时候开始,很难信任人们讲的话,就好像所有人在背对我似的。。。。难道年龄越来越增长,人会越来越没安全感吗?
突然好想念在中学时期,还有在大学时期那段疯狂与热情~~~~
总是觉得人变得敏感~ 笑也变得尴尬~~~~ 不再单纯、自然~~~~

有一件事,我很好奇,到底,在茫茫人海中,谁注意到了我这个小人物?谁又能够记得我的存在?交情、关系,怎么好像变得泛泛之交~~~ 失去了长长久久的感情?或许,随着日子以及年龄的增长,我的门越来越狭窄,能够进来的人,变得寥寥无几~~~~~ 好想念能够与我随时疯狂,说走就走的朋友们,但是工作,始终令我们不再像当初一样,也随着岁月,渐渐收敛了~~~~

接近25的我,却还是未能够为梦想踏出一步,反而渐渐地后退~~~~ 想念以前的自己了,彭嘉嘉?你在哪里?我好像找回那个自己,可以吗?

我,变得麻木了,开始不再介意与理会人情事物, 那也并不代表“你们”可以骑到我头上来的~~~ 机的朋友说过:以前的你,对所有事,无论说出来有任何影响,你都会说出来~~~但,现在的你,所有事都在嘴里面,却在表达前吞回进去,人也变了~~~  可能,自己心里知道,我们都不小了,说出来也没用,没有人会正视问题的存在,只会让你越描越黑。。。。因为,大家都有自己的主见,并认为自己是对的,那,说出来是不是多此一举?

虽然在人情事物面对一些问题,我还是相信,自己终有一天会克服的!

开心的是,我没忘了宠自己,让自己活得开心~~~~ 对,我不可以忘记娱乐自己~
所以,真心希望这次再次去闯一闯,开开心心的玩乐~~~ 算了,什么都不要管了,人,要往前看~~~ BB, 好想你们哦。。。。想念3年前那个令我疯狂的夜晚,令我爱上你们,痴痴等待你们到现在~~~~ 我,不管有多累,一定要去看。。。。说声: Long time no see!

唉。。。最近叹息的次数一直在增加,你们也一样对吧?工作很难对吗?告诉自己:就这样混过吧,不是混了那么多年了吗? 怎么会有没挑战的人生?闭上眼睛,伸呼吸,世界多美好!地球还在转,心爱的人还在!为了他们,还是要撑下去!加油!

p/s:想谈恋爱了。。。。但为什么没对象?

Sunday, January 11, 2015

好想无视,但做不到~

其实早上已看到有关新闻,什么韩国团体非礼穆斯林女生的,又是马来西亚! 为什么要让我们马来西亚的kpop迷变得那么抬不起头,丢脸? 你们这样做又何必呢? 每个人都有自己喜欢,想达成的梦想, 想做的事, 所以言论也因人而异....

看到所谓的fanservice(不知多少人梦寐以求的抱抱,波波) 竟被讲成是非礼,大叔,你的脑有问题吗? 读太多书变笨蛋吗? 这是付钱入场的fanmeeting,竟然演变成这种局面?!! 严重无言....
女的,就不想讲多多了,毕竟我们都懂,肯定征求她们同意了,这种福利根本就小事一桩。。。其他场合也一样的。。。只是对象随便?忘我?发hiao?为什么答应?

可能有些人觉得偶像来到一个国家得懂规则。。。用那么好的福利回馈粉丝却被讲到那么卑鄙。。。。haters,服了你们,看吧! 当初的VIXX 现在混得多么的红!看来他们是不会再来了。。。。难道要逼我们买机票去别国家看吗?想让偶像感受我们的热情,我们国家的,也那么难吗?为什么一直一直都要跟我们过不去?!!!别说我是帮自己偶像讲话,你们的言论简直在批评所有kpop偶像, 什么?小白脸? 脑残啊你们?!!!

告诉你们吧!假如他们要,不知多少愿意得到这样的“非礼”。。。要博得人民的尊重,先听听我们的心声吧!你们的一举一动又再让Malaysia Kpop 迷难堪了。。。开心吗?

假如你们令到我们也得不到福利,我恨死这个言论乱扯的国家了,别成为那个害群之马。。。还有,我很主观,所以本不想多加评论。。。但看到他们越扯越过分。。。你们越过线了,他们可以采取法律行动的~~~

为什么每次就只有我们国家有问题?
太阳:别挑云吞妹上台懂吗???

Thursday, December 11, 2014

其实我~~~好怕~

随着时间逐渐消失,心里的恐惧感越来越增加~~~我好担心这样的我。。。。
我,本以为自己拥有好多谈笑风生、聊聊心事的朋友,现在,好像渐渐变成只有我。。。
我,本以为自己可以开心地笑,说我很满足,其实,只是在自欺欺人~
我,本以为对人家的言论置之不理,但,原来我是多么的介意人们的一字一句~
我,本以为已找到志同道合的朋友,但,开始觉得自己只是被利用的存在~
我,本以为只要不介意可以更开心,但,我现在很痛苦~~~
我,是独行侠,没有能够真正聊心事的朋友~~~~
好害怕自己现在那无助的感觉。。。。。
我该怎么办?

我真心对待所有人,真正把所有人当作朋友。。。。但,我发现,日子久了,我变成被遗留的那个。。。。

我累了,不想再主动,换来他人的不屑,又何必呢? 我何曾未尝试过敞开心扉,只是。。。。。。好像没人愿意听从我心里真正想的是什么吧?

坚强够了,我也是有脆弱的时候~~~~

只是突然觉得很心烦而已~~~~ 因为,其实我心里一直那么想~~~~~

写了这个过后,算是倾诉了,所以,对这个恐惧感说再见了~~~~

Saturday, November 15, 2014

遗憾?

五年半就这样接近尾声了~~~各种方式的叙别会,各种面对面试与考试的过程~~~我,终于踏上毕业的路了~~~ 老实说:开心,因为挨过了~~~ 伤心,要离开了~~~ 担心,在什么地方重新开始呢?~~~  压力,有了责任感这包袱了~~~~ 遗憾,有什么遗憾? 说来,其实遗憾也蛮多的,没有和好感对象有过好好沟通的机会,没有大开眼界,认识更多的朋友~~~  没有真正和朋友们疯狂一番~~~~ 还有,没有接近离开离别的感觉~~~~  唉,写到这里,挺遗憾的,虽然尝试过许许多多疯狂的旅程,吃在这儿吃不完的美食,唱永远唱不完的K哥,逛永远买不完的衣服、用品。。。。但是,人都是难于满足于现状的生物,所以,难得会留下一点点的遗憾。。。

看回几年前写过的愿望单,大约大大小小的事物我都成功完成了~~~
但,还是留有一点点遗憾,有了这些遗憾,让我更加有理想,更加有勇气,更加想将所希望的事情完成一番。。。。比如:和家人旅行,简单的愿望,却拖了那么多年还没有完成,我们手头上都有做不完的工作,这就是一个遗憾~~~

再回想起来,五年半以来经历了不同的,各式各样的人情事物,开始觉得人类是善变、冲动、难以信任还有多种复杂情感的生物,包括我~~~~
经历了这些事物,思想成熟了很多,同时心门越来越狭窄,开始不懂什么话该说,什么时候说些什么话,说什么才不被讽刺、伤害,怎么说才能够不被针对,现在想起,也难怪一些说话较直接的朋友怎么变得更小心翼翼。。。。不是我们变了,而是我们为了适应生活而改变~~~  现在,再也没有坚持主见这种东西,因为人们只选择听从他们想听到的话,相反地,当听见难听的话,他们就算一笑而过,心里难免会留下一个刺,从此警告自己不再发言,因为害怕那颗刺越刺越深。。。。就算心里数值多好,也会被刺激吧!

现实,就是如此的恐怖、残忍,不知什么时候因为一些小动作,你,会失去眼前的一切,只有忠于自己,别让自己受伤害,其实也不会很自私吧?
我说过:我有付出努力! 但曾听见有人说:这就是你最好的努力吗?
是的,没有付出,所以也不指望拥有什么,因为,无论怎么说,我还是得到好多好多了~~~~
要说遗憾,就是自己没尽全力~~~ 所以,落后了~

这个地方,带来许许多多的回忆,我们,又长大了~~~~ 懂得包容与面对~~~~ 但是,这样的我,幸福吗? 有时候会这样问自己。。。。我,幸福吗??? 这样活下去,我开心吗?
好久没问自己的心理感受了。。。。。乐观的我,去哪里了? 开始有点担心了吗?因为长大了? 好想跑下一切,过无忧无虑的生活,但理想与梦想终究在起床时就消失了。。。。问世界上的人们,有多少人已实现梦想了? 活着,就代表有机会实现吧!不开心,只会让自己过得更遗憾。。。。这就是人生~~~~

听着喜欢的音乐,看着自己喜欢的节目,吃自己喜欢的食物,对着电脑荧幕哈哈大笑的生活,随着毕业了,应该也会渐渐减少吧!那些时候,我真心觉得很开心。。。。

我,得替自己设定过后的生活吧! 希望五年后的自己(二十八岁了)看了这个梦想单时,会发现自己已经完成它了~~~ 五年后,我还会关注这儿吗?

梦想单:
1。让家人过得幸福快乐,弟弟能够顺利进大学~
2。与家人去韩国旅行,包括大姐与baby~~~
3。认识真正爱我的人,谈一场轰轰烈烈的恋爱~
4。结婚~~~ (虽然好难想象)
5。与一群朋友背包旅行,疯狂玩一番~
6。参加同班同学的婚礼~
7。 得空时,与VIP,Inspirit 一起出来喝茶,做善事~
8。开一间托儿所,或幼儿园,与家人一块儿经营~
9。与自己喜欢的歌手碰面,拍照或握手~
10。拥有自己的房子与车~

在这十个愿望,我又能实现多少个呢?

Sunday, September 7, 2014

Show Me the Money^^ Last...

Keep asking myself, since when i have interest in Hip Hop?
Ouch...finally Bobby won^^ Win Team B and IKon^^ Congrats again to Bobby...
Real hip hop? Sometimes feel confused and now, i really like hip hop....rap on stage and entertain the audience with some diss lyric? haha^^ Enjoy this show so much...This is some of my review about this show.
You can't forget some people's face, voice and lyric...
The first thing i love this show is because someone called IRON....or Junghunchul (i only know his real name during final round...YDG said that, haha^^) I love him so much^^ Even his voice and his reggae style..."Nice to nice to know ya, let's do it again...", i like his style of music in hip hop industry, i knew he almost become a member in Bangtan...Can't imagine he dance, really...His smile, and when he said "YDG no doubt" with smile face.....just love him so much!!! Arghhh....if i have chance to go travel in Korea, for sure i will go a underground hip hop concert!!! swear! So high.... Hopefully can listen to him live...especially the song "Venom"....The lyric talked about his early life...living a life like trash....won't repeat the life again, yes you won't, he is "东庙 swagger", IRON! so many things to say so i just use Chinese....haha^^
说到IRON, 真的真的,假如听了他说唱, 肯定被他迷倒,实力,外貌具备,可惜的是决胜局败给了Bobby。。。。i feel like, ouchhh....jinjia~~~haizzz... But he proved to everyone by now, his song during semi final topped korean music chart!!! arhhhh! I knew it will happen! I can't stop listening to his song when i on my way doing my assignment that day, just keep on repeating without getting bored....whole day i was listening the same song^^


The picture i did for Iron, hehe^^
I know i will keep watching him....Until he becomes the TOP! Who's the top, who's the top, who's the top?! ME!!!!!like he said...The lyric really nice....have a listen to his music, nice underground rapper...
So, my wishlist will add one more thing: Watching an underground music live!!! Rock and Hip Hop!

Second, i can't stop laughing when looking at my sister's favorite, GIRIBOY!!! haha..."24, 24, 24,24,.....", "pakkae pi hunda julu julu,pakae pi hunda julu julu,........." "Show me the money, show me the money,....", all just LOL!!! Yay, he's good, talented, have music sense....and cute, but....just feel everytime he performed just made me remind back his lyric...keep on repeating lyric...But, it's entertaining, just feel sad he always lose when facing C Jamm, but i like the way he didn't put any XXXX word inside his lyric, almost every contestants did it....

Third, of course YG IKon's B.I. and Bobby! i'm watching this show because of them, wanna see can they get through and also Tablo, Haru's apa^^ Yes, finally Bobby managed to win in final round, while he facing IRON(omo, my bias).... But they make the stage hot!!! Especially Bobby's "Ka(Go)", keep on replaying it too...hehe... "L4L" combining Dok2 and The Quiet, btw, the quiet really have a calm voice and i still remember in third round when Dok2 asked"When is your last time crying", he answered "When i was born"...hahaha!!! just laught out.... Don't you think is funny! Will talk about him later, back to Bobby "If u didn't know, now u know, baby baby..." that part just Epic! One more the song during semi final, "i'm back on the microphone...say hip hop!" also...keep on replaying, and final "Throw your fist and Bounce" nice lyric! Feel happy for him because he can use the money buy a house for his parents who's hard at USA....He's not rich, fly to Korea for his dream, bring his parents a better life, he can do it! and a 19 year old boy didn't meet his parents for 4 years because he can't afford a flight ticket... He deserved it, the money, best rapper, and the win! Looking forward for IKon's debut.... Talking about B.I., sad to see him actually always forgot his lyric which can become his phobia on stage...but great to see he get through it during his last stage "Be I"...sounds nice... And the episode when he forgot the lyric he will ran to the crowd....and shout something to Olltii (my favorite too^^), nice! just nice^^ "wanna step in me be better than me? or earn more money than my company?" haha^^ "Life is money, money is my tissue".... He's a cute boy at the backstage, when he get scold by Tablo, the face, like a young little boy....I know he will success...Work Hard!

Forth, Swings style, "NO!" and "FUXK" , "SHXT"....and more...hehe...I like his producer team with San E, both of them know how to play well in hip hop....and when they have different opinion also...Swings really like his JUST MUSIC people, Vasco, C Jamm and GIRIBoy, three of them made ti to top 6 too, nice! He also very emotional, when he cried for both his guy, C Jamm and Giriboy during 3rd round...Although Vasco and C Jamm both lose at semi final, but they earn respect! Salute! To Swings....When he perform nice! His expressions also very macho! The show will be bored without him...seriously...

Fifth, talking about face expression, i think about Olltii, young boy but mature rap style... He is unlucky....He is good also, especially acapella rap...(rap without background music), "Why need Team A and Team B, I can also be a winner even i'm alone", haha straight shooting our YG!  He also very cute, chubby face, and when he talked about"Dollmodel"...All just nice! Sad case when need to eliminate one frm him and Bobby, so he lose.... I can't forget his expression all the time, when others performed on stage, like when L4L, Bobby showed his charm to the audience (of course girl), he just...haha, throw something, shaking his head...I'm just OMG why you so cute! An emotional ICON from SMTM3.... Hopefully can watch him from underground music showcase too....

Sixth, YDG style, haha Shinmanbo! This one also can keep lisening, i'm just why? why YDG picked such a "strange" person? haha...Even all the producer off the light during second round...
YDG like him so much! But, he's unlucky when Vasco choose him, he said "As long i can show on TV right, shXt", haha...Entertaining also...But, his rap has his own style, actually, no bad...I ws laughing when thinking of his rap, not good, but attractive...haha....Manbo hwaiting ba! Have a drink with Swings already? When i watched back the producer's performance, wow, YDG! No wonder Iron choose him since beginning of the show....He had his own style, can watch his weird style from Running Man too...Actually i hate him when he didn't bother about Iron when during top 8...but when i realised he just wanna gave Iron a chance to try out producing music his own, just felt touched! He's Hip Hop GOD! "Hip Hop Saving Team"....

Seveth, that girl, Yukjidam, although she made many humilating thing, but everyone will remember her "Hip Hop mit dang neuo", haha^^Laughing again...But she will have a great future if she managed not to forget her lyrics....maybe she's still young? No experience...?

Eighth, "That's no no", Masta Wu! Just addicted to his word, that no no! Forgot lyric? that's no no! Pouring water to audience while doing mistake? that's no no! Singing rock on hip hop stage? that's no no! Ouch, just addicted.... He is that's no no hyung for the rappers^^ Even when B.I and Booby did ice bucket challenge, also nominated that's no no hyung^^ haha.... And Iron also imitate him, "that's no no~" Masta Wu, epic!

Ninth, Saying contestants who talked harsh words the most, C J A double M^^ this ain't shit, bitch i'm the shit, you ain't shit, i'm the shit bitch! wow, the song keep "pit pit" sound because of these...haha^^ Salute! Secy chic guy C Jamm....still young, sure will see him more in future... now my mind keep on playing his song "A Yo"..."what the fuck is going on bro?", wow... plus his sexy body, i wanna see him perform live too!!!

Reflash back SMTM3, i think of many funny things... TURN UP ! And i learned a lesson from the show, maybe we didn't expect anything in the beginning, just hopefully can reach some target, but when we climb higher and higher until the end, we will feel like, wow, can we just become the top? like Bobby and Iron, they actually didn't expect can reach final, like what Iron say, he just expect can stay until the producer 1st round....but he keep on made it to final....Yes, he felt like why don't we just win, for YDG? haha...This is something called human being... So is not our fault to having a target, or an aim for victory.... Just how you deal with it, work hard to win...just like that! So, i will always support those who want to do better... If we didn't aim something, will we reach the top? reach for a better place?

Like during school dyas, we always worked hard for getting a better result, so we can further our study, get degree....Without a hard work, can we do it? of course no! So, i will respect those always fight for themselves! Turn up! They deserved it, right? Now, we also fight for a posting place after we graduate....growing up, up and up! Climbing upper, upper and upper... So, don't blame people for working hard...Blame yourself not working too hard... Don't feel jealous for those having better result, because you didn't work harder than the person...Something i have learned from this programme...

Just so many things to write for this show...and i will stop here...if you wanna know more, watch it!
Show Me The Money 3! Once again, congrats to Bobby^^