Tuesday, September 22, 2009

OMG!!!!Pls help me!!!!

I really get confused now......... Don't know whta I should do now........ Assignments, i really hate it! It has broke my holiday's plan...... I can't play my favourite SDO because of these all stupid assignments! Maybe i really not suitable to become a good teacher because of my attitude.... I'm not hardworking at all, how can i teach my student in future? i really can't imagine about it........... Stress, stress and stress................. I really feel bore of doing such this work! I think i'm wrong for choosing teacher as my future.... i really wrong! I can't go back already.... RM100.000 lol! Don't play play man! I'm not a rich person. I should think about my family, my mom, dad bro ans sisters. They all have put a lot of hope for me.... I'm they only hope, so i must be stong in facing all this nonsense. I should not give up like that easily. No road for me to choose already, the only thing i can do wait, be patient, don't give up........till 10 years........ That's not my style man!

i really surrender for my beloved family, for their hopes....... really....
i want to travel overseas.... but i didn't get the chance.... I just can sit here and wait..... No hopes... i'm getting almost crazy already....
I haven't suffer like this before..... Everyday your life just fulfilled with the stupid assignments, nothing fun you know? Got problem with your roommate who you need to face at the same room for the rest five years. I don't want to be like that... Hope God can help me to change her attitude... Being with a person that impossible to be your friend is suffering....
Five years, or i must say ten years..... i need to wait, but now is just begining... the first two month. How can i stay until the end? i'm not that strong, i'm not that clever, my standard is only average in that institute. i really don't know what will happen to me in future. I always ask myself that i really want to be a teacher? i really want to waste my life to teach the children although in my heart i haven't thought to be before? is that only my choice? Who can answer me?

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