Born to be somebody

Justin Bieber's song, sounds nice and i damn like it right now...
After watching his concert n 3D movie, feel like, this week is gonna be his week^^
Like him so much!
Guess what, i have watched 2 concert back to back....XD Like it....I like my life going on like this, no more worries, can it stay like now?
Even i'm still single and maybe for a long time, but i still can enjoy my life like this......
I'm just thinking that if everybody can leave everything and just enjoy their life sure it will be a wonderful world~~~ But it just my imagination....
People have higher expectation for themselves, they don't want to live their life simple, so that's why war happened everywhere....
So, all we can do just praying that everything gonna be fine soon, I will not count anything on those people who like to create war but i thanked to them because they made me feel more satisfied with my life right now....
This is called dramatic life.....Life is real,neither drama nor dream can describe it....This is life, my life...
I'm hoping that 2012 is not real, can it delay the date until 2020 or later? I want to enjoy my adult life, enjoying something i haven't experienced before.....
I always scare of the end of the world.....
God, can you give me more time to treat my family better? Let them have a better life....I want them to see me grow up and become someone can make their life better....I wish i still have the strength to do it, If next year not the end.....
I promise i will do anything i can to make them happy.....
I miss them.....and always live them.....

Happy Birthday, which i distributed special to him.....
I still remember, his birthday but i scare.....I can't read his mind at all, who is that "she"???? Who know?
feel more interested with this person.....The person always emo-ing and feel lonely, i hope i can bring happiness to him, can't i? Why a person aged 18 can think so many things like that? made me wanna understand him well if he allow me to do that.....
But, thinking I'm just a burden to him, useless thing and even maybe he is thinking I'm just someone passed by his life a while, and gone.....anyway, happy birthday to you, Thank God bringing you to this world making me happy before.....Making my heart touched for the first time, I can't forgive myself because i have forgot your birthday by the way you called and still remember my birthday.....
I just wanna become your friend, share what is in your mind right now......
In my memory, always you are the one who tell me your story.....
Hope you won't treat me as your burden.....when seeing your blog, i really wanna touch your heart and know what really happen to you.....Can you let me understand you? If there are no one accompany you this birthday, I will make you happy, as a friend.....
wanna says something, i'm not falling for this person, just an ordinary friend....and i think i can share everything with him.....

April Fool and i become a fool.....

Damn it!!!!!
Changing from not really comfort become HATE!!!!
Don't make me hate you......Now i'm not because i'm always so kind to give you second chance, and also last chance....
Why don't want to speak out loudly, i don't bother you mad at me, but can you just tell me????
I will try to fix all the mistakes i did because i may not know it is a big mistake i did.....I'm always the straight forward person, hoping everyone also straight forward to me......
But, you choose to tell all this behind me, that's why i really don't like about it......
Maybe people thinking i'm a selfish person, i didn't consider about you, but why you don't sit at my side and consider about me first?!!!
I'm sure that i really feel guilty about that before.....But now, i'm not! I know someone will feel guilty than me....
Think about it, don't make me hate you, don't act in front of me, because i won't act, i'm not a good actress.....
Now, i'm thinking that i'm a fool because always thought this is my mistake......
You know what made me a fool? Everyone know it......