Turtle~~~Always doing thing slowly~~~

With no place to place its heart, no place to go
It’s a sad turtle
Because you have a lot of scars, because you’re alone-
Is that why you’re hiding alone every day?
I can’t protect you anymore or love you anymore
It’s my heart aching story
It’s okay if it’s a little late
Just take step by step, slowly~~~~

it's picking from Davichi's song "Turtle", nice song and i started falling in love with this song, a great mean for using Turtle represent someone who always ding things slowly and hiding himself/herself inside a shell, like turtle, walking slowly.....
With that slow speed, they won't go so far,
with that slow speed maybe there are troubles in front and they don't know....
They will stop when facing problems and try to heal their heart before continuing their journey,
that's why turtle is always slower and slowest~~~
They will find that no place to go after all the slow moves....they are always alone, that's because it takes time to heal their heart like their moves, after a long long time, they will start with a lonely life.....
Dear turtle, I see myself when I see you~~~~~
that's why I will match my steps with yours, which is slower
So that you won’t have to cry by yourself anymore~~~~

This is what i thought from the song~~~nice lyric....

First time i watched F1 live after i entered my teaching life...haha is trainee teacher XD
Wow, Kimi Raikkonen, still the same and i feel very happy for his comeback to F1 last year and he won the first Australlian Grand Prix this year, but maybe the strategies and not raining, Kimi didn't make a miracle again at Sepang circuit.....Nevermind,, as long as you still have strength to fight with that guy, actually after watching the race, i started to hate Sebastien Vettel and i think he is rude by ignoring the team manager's instruction, why did him still want to pass Webber, his teammate actually???
Ya, i knew that he is in pole position and lost it when the changing tyre strategies, but Red Bull still lead....
I found that they didn't even speak with each other after the race, Vettel passed Webber vigorously actually, not the passing situation actually, and we didn't see anyone of teammate will do something like this before, so maybe he will lost many respects after the race~~~~

One more funny thing is Lewis Hamilton and also his girlfriend, Nicole from Pussycat Dolls ~~~
haha~~~he went into the wrong pit lane when coming to pit...hahahahaha!!! Laughing much for it!!!
He came to Mclaren again, we can see how he missed that team, is his team when he was debuting in F1 until last year.... Will him comeback again for Mclaren??? haha^^

From the race, all i can see is poor Alonso when facing 2 Redbull cars and crashed some.....I hope he will still stay for a round and went into pitlane, but although the car facing problem, he didn't allow Webber to pass him and that cause the car can't stay anymore....very unfortunately.....

You can see different kind of people in this world, there are cute funny people who still missed his old teammate and made mistake went into the wrong pitlane, first time ever i saw in F1 race - Lewis Hamilton 

A people full with thought of winning and ignored the team order, that's what we call teamwork???? LOL~~~ Hey, a young people and won the title back to back, why do you take it so serious in passing your teammate?- Sebastien Vettel

Poor person and experienced many unfair thing just because he is old.....i think he was receiving team order for letting Vettel overtake before.....- Mark Webber

Someone who will not take serious for the race and hope for a point at the end....didn't take risk in passing and stay for his place..... But i saw many dangerous overtake in this race and my heart felt worry so much....Luckily, you have point XD haha^^- Kimi Raikkonen

Maybe i don't know what is behind it, and maybe the team will always protect the person who will have more chances to win....Maybe that's the reason Rosberg didn't overtake Hamilton at last????
this is reality, the best one will always get the best, people will always being around the best, the first and only one~~~~
How about the second???? They are also great enough but people always forgot about it..... They will be like a turtle, walking slowly and can't find a place to stay when there are something happen, nobody will look after them, they just kept focusing on the best......that is why we didn't see how hard they work for a good place, and when they have the chances, the first one will always grab it without any of feeling guilty and pity....at the end, what do we can know by the word "Sorry"? After you hurting someone? 
Sorry, just 5 alphabet and we are innocent to think that is enough to heal someone's heart? Not that easy, your act just like saying that you are the best and nobody will have effort to beat you, in the deep of your heart, you are thinking so and what do you mean with that "Sorry"?

Turtle didn't have any impressing thing inside, they did everything with their hard working and not giving up, i will always support those turtles, i won't let them being ignored just because they are not good enough....
The first not always the best.....that's just outside, but the second will always good inside~~~~

I believe in miracles~~~that's why i believe in you, second^^

Hwaiting turtle!!!! Don't hide yourself inside again~~~ Stand up and do your best!!!  

I'm hot right now...

I never been like this before, yes, i wanna scold some CB people and just wanna speak out what i feel right...damn it!!!!
I just watched a fanpost video for U Kiss last performances "Man Man Ha Ni", and really looked great! But at the end when they come to front stage and make some interaction with KISSME, that happened!!! Again!!! Hey, do you have brain? have mind? and are you INSANE??? Why do you kept doing that stupid and nonsense and useless CB　thing to my idol actually??? Wei! We didn't do anything and never unrespet someone although not my idol, what the Shit thing you did last night???!!!
Why you wasted your money to buy a light stick and throw to them??? Just for boo-ing them??? Stupid bastard!!!!! Hey, what are you thinking for buying fanzone tickets just to make our Malaysian felt shameful for your stupid act??? Please stop this!!!! They are idols, they practicing hard just to stand at the stage and received our love, not like you, stupid!!!
I never feel bad like this before, i can't figure out if yesterday i had sudden thought and went for this, what will happen??? I can't imagine!!!! Don't waste your money at here, if you really have strength, prove that i'm wrong don't do this again and again!!!!
U Kiss coming not for you, for us! Kpop Lover, Kiss Me.....I like them, and i saw Kiseop taking someone's phone and self camera-ing, Omo!!!Jealous!, I'm sure i will grab for a front place if i'm there....I hope i'll be there and cheer for them....T~T this happened again....And somemore is enough!!! They have suffered much more at here, they lost their I Phone last time and now, receiving your light stick attack???? What the hell you did for them????
If you just don't like their song, don't come there, don't listen to them, don't ever step nearer and do some stupid thing!!!! Araso???!!!!
I'm wondering what the hell made you so jealous and feel hate to them??? What's wrong man????
Your act really "mempersiasuikan" la!!!!
p/s 不喜欢可以不要来！没人拿着枪逼你去看！　
那么花心思买荧光棒丢他们，不如去做多一些充实自己的事！！！还有，就算不喜欢，可以不要听，不去回应，更别去捣乱！！！拿那个票送我更好！
这次，你们真的太过分了！！！！如果今天的表演也这么样，你们等死吧！！！
Blackjack 们！！！加油吧！！！
好后悔没去，不然。。。。。。对不起，骂了好多臭话。。。。我忍无可忍啊！！！
什么鬼性格来的？？？？
Watch this and you will understand why I'm hot right now, sia sui la you people!!!!

当男人陷入爱情时~~~

哼著沒興趣的情歌
世上的偶像劇也都像是我的故事一樣
以前不在意的外貌 現在卻花很多心思
現在才了解咖啡苦澀的味道


時光飛逝 令我內心著急
想像妳在我身邊 一個人拍著獨角戲


當男人戀愛時
一定會常常猶豫不決
但想為她做的事實在很多
掉入愛情時
給她我人生中所有的東西
只渴望她的心
掉入愛情時


漸漸變紅的臉頰
開始變暈的腦袋
我只想要妳
I`m On My Way
我瘋狂似的告白
當男人戀愛時
為了一個目標努力不管一切
絕不會讓妳後悔
就像世界末日般將我擁有的都給妳
All I Have

就像幼稚的孩子一樣 莫名奇妙的笑起來
沉浸在自己的世界裡 自己當導演


當男人戀愛時
一定會常常猶豫不決
但想為她做的事實在很多
掉入愛情時
給她我人生中所有的東西
只渴望她的心
掉入愛情時

無法分開的深深投入
書中的字在跳舞 因為妳
就算是電影演員和天上的月亮
也是妳的樣子
每天描繪妳的模樣
妳在我的懷抱裡
就可以安心
在只為了你的地方 我的愛絕不冷卻

如果妳能感受到我的心情 妳也會陷入愛情的
若是誰向妳暗示 是希望你明白 就像我現在這樣

當男人戀愛時
一定會常常猶豫不決
但想為她做的事實在很多
掉入愛情時
給她我人生中所有的東西
只渴望她的心
掉入愛情時

當男人戀愛時 當男人戀愛時
當我戀愛時 當我愛上妳時

大爱！！！！当女人陷入爱情呢？？？？哈哈~~~就像现在，看着这可爱的歌词微笑。。。。就算只看荧幕也能够激动，想大声尖叫！！！无限，果然没让我失望。。。。。还喜欢这首歌。。。。

看看mv里他们的恋爱方式，好可爱吧？又不缺浪漫的感觉。。。哇~~~~~我彻底的、彻底的陷入恋爱了。。。

多么希望现实生活会有那么完美的男友。。。。就算只是短时间内。。。。因为，我享受恋爱，不强求恋爱，到了该放弃时就放弃，该开始时开始，结束就彻底结束，话说：好久没恋爱了。。。忘了那种又酸又甜的感觉，心跳加速的感觉。。。。。好久好久没恋爱了。。。。

我，还有希望吗？年龄不小了，就算恋爱也不会甜蜜，当恋爱由最初的甜甜蜜蜜、为对方赴汤蹈火，到一个程度，变得现实，为恋爱而恋爱时，一点感觉都没有。。。。只是在进行日常生活中需进行的事而已。。。。这种恋爱，既不甜、也不浪漫。。。。那干脆单身算了。。。哈哈~~~

陷入爱情的女人，不理智，从头脑中晃过的一切一切，她都会毫不犹豫地说出来，做出来，她不怕挫折，她一心一意希望对方明白她的小小心意。。。。

她不轻易放弃，她不想结束，她会继续毫无分寸地疯狂下去，她会做出一切傻事只为了得到他的注意，但，有时候，陷入恋爱的同时，女人变成女生，只投入在自己的世界里，回到当初单纯的她。。。。

当女人陷入恋爱，她会尽力不露出自己的缺点，只让对方发觉她的优点，但，她却会有想过毫不伪装的出现在男人面前，但还是下不了决心，因为，陷入恋爱的她，希望对方看到她最好的一面，她的努力，是多么的花心思，打扮自己，讨好他。。。。

当女人陷入恋爱，她会忘了应该做的事情，只为了那个男人的一切着想，同时，她却不希望男人看见她伤感的一面，她需要甜蜜，她需要呵护，她需要爱，但，她不会说出这一切，她让男人幸福，让男人恋爱。。。。。

我无法想象当我恋爱时会怎样？当初？现在？未来？没想过，我会享受，我会心动，我会心跳加速，但，我太平凡，没有魅力。。。。所以，没恋爱的资格？ 我，不想自己争取，我期待缘分的到来，但，我的平凡让我很自卑，糟蹋了缘分。。。没有信心，所以一个又一个地错过。。。。恋爱，好难！

 但是，听着歌，享受音乐的同时，我可以感受到陷入恋爱的感觉，看看结尾，他们也只在想象陷入恋爱的滋味，我也是，我觉得我也和他们一样，表情、动作、一切一切都显示出我好像陷入恋爱。。。。但，有几个真正恋爱了？？？还在期待吗？我也是。。。。。

我喜欢，短暂的幸福，我觉得今天的我好幸福，听到熟悉的声音、看到熟悉的面孔，我好幸福，周围有那么多讲义气的朋友，那么都疼爱我的家人，那么多能有说有笑的同学，我好幸福！

我好幸福，可以过追星的生活，可以得到固定的职业，可以一一实现梦想，可以跟他们做承诺，可以看某人实现他的承诺，我好幸福！我可以往更高的梦想前进，我好幸福！

我有机会见到地球另一边的人们，我真的非常幸福，我好贪心地说，假如身边的人也能像我一样幸福，我就真的真的太幸福了！ 有机会期待，等待，不是很幸福吗？

这种幸福，应该胜过陷入恋爱吧？

p/s：朋友们，我们一起实现承诺吧！！！！韩国！五年后见！

倒数：四年九个月~~~~加油！

D-Day ^^

21st March 2013, D-Day!!! Yeap, today is the day, i have decided everything, i think many people will also take this as their D-day right????
Cheering for my sister who will take her result today, hopefully everything will be okay and she will get a nice and suitable colleges.....I think she can do it, cheer for her, it's time to prove that although we are always chasing for a star but we are always on top, like our stars^^
D-Day for, meaningful~~~ I knew GD will come Malaysia once again, is my chance to meet him in three years back to back!! wow, fantastic baby!!! I think is his style to write something nonsense when he is feeling stressful right, i'm also the same, thanks for giving Malaysian fans to cheer for you once again, yes sir! We are one of a kind!!!! get your crayon!!! In my heart, i will go for you once again, i won't regret spending much money for it because i know it worth and it is always more than what i have expected....
One more thing , due to my financial problem i won't go to see many kpop star and this year may become my last year attend for a concert....a paid concert....
It's time to give up this for a nice trip, is my Korean trip with my sister and my friends, so i must save some for this....
My target:
I wanna go GD World Tour (will go for sure if nothing accidentally happen)
Infinite Global Tour (is them Infinite!!!! Of course i will go and it is my awaited moment all the time!!! By the way, Malaysia please??? XD)
That's all my target, and if i'm lucky i will take part to grab some tickets for MTV World Stage again, remember last year??? It rocksss!!!!
 Sorry to say that i must give up Twin Tower Alive Tour (T~T 2NE1, BSB, U kiss)...TVXQ World Tour (U know T~T)....Asian Super Showcase (LOL, who is the last team performing by the way)....A Showcase that included Beast 4 Minute and GNA (I think i'm always missing chances to see Beast live...Junhyung ya!!!)...
But i know it worth right? p/s: no pain no gain XD Give up is for gaining somemore....
Hwaiting!
One more, D-Day!!!!Infinite's comeback....I can't wait to listen to "Man in Love"....and more from them!!! Infinite, I'm always Inspirit!!! So, please come to Malaysia once!!! I have missed GDA....so please make a meet or showcase or even concert here!!!

Everybody looked stressing, i'm relaxing XD

Maybe just now, i just wanna spend my time relaxing before facing many things which i haven't touched....writing reflection for my math microteaching and Mr. Khiril's reflection.....mind map...haha^^ Don't think about it first...My tummy just fulled with Tomyam, Greentea, Chatime...Many more...So i can't fall asleep yet.......
I'm listening to Kpop Star Top 5 song, the most favourite is 2000won, again^^ They sang "Lonely" by 2ne1, really nice you know, especially the intro part...I like the rapper....and they're alive~~~againXD  Too fast to die...hehe, someone's tattoo  XD You know what i'm saying...
Feel a bit sad and disappointing because Racoon Boys out this time, actually they are more talented and i felt touched listening to their song, although there are not so good comparing with other...Actually they are strong enough walking from the time they were pairing for group mission, they sang "Thriller" and caught many attention, continuing with their song "Like This", my favourite all the time!!! And Minseok's rap "Run Devil Run" , women spotting a man by his car key, while man will spot a woman with her look....what a nice lyric^^ Continuing with "Love On Top", "Now", "So Hot" and the last song "I'll be missing you" I cried when seeing Mckay talked about his thoughts....and seeing his mother cried and he cried at the end of the song, very touching moment..... I never thought that they can't get into Top 3, I hope they will...but...Anyway, i hope they will be debut as Racoon Boys again and bring lots of song for us.... Please.....T~T
Suddenly listening to a song long time ago, 2pm's "Tik Tok" nice......
I'm waiting for "Man In Love" full album, 21 Mac, why so long????
Who will be the last and who will be the next teaser??? LeaderGyu or L ????haha^^
waiting another teaser from them after Hoya's ^^ Hoya, still a hot guy for me, one more time, i'm praying i can see them live, when my dream will be coming true????
I'm watching a new drama by IU "You are The Best", this is the very first time i will chase for a long episodes of Korea Drama which is 50 episodes man!!! Hopefully I can finish it....nice^^

 P/S :2000won hwaiting!!! Finally YG casting them!!! I like their stage always, although judges seems have many comments on them....You can do it!!!! You are creating miracles all the times.....made yourself into Top 10, and now Top 4! Please make it into final, i will be happy XD

Opps~~~^^

当我们认为时间渐渐淡忘一切，却发现原来那一份心意一直都没变，我-爱-无限~~~~
对，今天看了无限D5 的预告，又陷入爱情了！！！当然，这绝对是对偶像的爱~~~
人，怎么可以长的那么完美，连性格也那么的。。。wow。。。爱死他们。。。
期待队长的预告~~~
你知道短短的六十秒能发生什么事吗？？？陷入恋爱。。。。队长教会了我。。。
你知道其实歌词和舞蹈的融合也能够非常浪漫的吗？做我的人。。。浩沅教会了我。。。。
你知道一秒的眼神能够杀掉不少的人吗？黑色主义者。。。。明洙教会了我。。。。
你知道人其实一直处于一步白痴，一步天才的路线吗。。。。不想变白痴的东雨教会了我。。。。。
你知道歌声、笑容、脸，只是透过荧幕却能够如此的心动，如此的历历在目的吗？。。。。南优铉。。。今晚，教会了我。。。
我，学到了无限的爱、无限的知识、无限的梦想、无限的魅力。。。。让自己，变得更加无限！
人，是永远在进步中的生物。。。。向前走，但却为了进步而忽略了身边好多好多更美好的回忆，失去了，才来后悔、惋惜。。。。

我认为自己被爆炸的魅力迷着了，但还是暂时的，因为他们当时的美好。。。
原来，我更想见识的，是无限~~~无限的美好。。。。就算透过荧幕，不到一分钟的个人预告，我还是感觉到心动，每一首歌，每一个动作，我都感到非常的心动。。。。。怎么办？？？

所以说，人，只会在外到处徘徊，最后，还是回到原点，回到当初的你，回到单纯的你。。。我，从新回到了无限帝国！

一年的空洞期令我到处徘徊，我，好像回去了~~~ 多亏你们，无限！

你们是我第一个真正看完综艺、歌舞、mv 的队伍。。。。

应该是历年来最了解的团体吧！

我，不容易心动，不容易紧张，不容易。。。。。。（其实也不是这样，但感觉没那么强烈）

Man In Love~~~~ I can't wait to listen to this album.....
Kim Sunggyu, Jang DongWoo, Nam WooHyun, Lee 
Howon, Lee Sungyeol, Kim Myungsoo, Lee Sungjong~~~~~

人非圣贤，孰能无过？？？

人，一旦犯了错，就得承认，改正，而不是怨天怨地，自欺欺人。。。
所谓的了解，理解，谅解，就算得到这些所谓的，那你还是犯错了~~~~这就是现实，所以道歉了过后也得修改，看看自己到底犯了什么错，对，身为人类的我们，难免有时会犯谢小错误，但当这些失误非但不承认反而更理直气壮时，你输了~~~你无法改正，纠正，让下次的你变得更强，更好！
说实在的，人不是冷雪动物，不会对周遭的事情永远都处之泰然。。。。失望是难免的，但人们选择埋怨或改变却是一切的开始，一旦开始了，就很难收拾残局。。。。让事情越来越糟糕，缘由于不肯承认失误。。。。
我，不是圣人，会失望，会谅解，也尽量去理解，但，这一切一切，都需要时间。。。。我不能够对着戴着假面具的人们嘻嘻哈哈地笑，不能够对着虚伪的赞美开开心心的认同，不能够接受内心诅咒着你的人对你却开开心心的，这一切一切心计，别以为我没看穿，只是不想计较，不想变成像你一样犯出同样失误的人而已。。。
所以，无论有多困难，我会选择谅解，可能我是那失误的一个。。。当你发现我对你冷言冷语时，可能我失误了，或我已知道你心中的秘密。。。。我在学习谅解的过程，请给我时间，让我做得更好！
反观有些人们，虽你懂得他的不好不好，但习惯了，谅解了，接受了，那并不成为某人与你之间的隔阂~~~
所以犯错的我学会从中学习，不会埋怨，选择检讨自己。。。。。再怎么不了解对方，也会懂得他，的的确确失误了，没有任何借口，不逃避。。。。说了那么多庇护的话，就只是为了不承认失误？？？？你，我会看不起你！

I'm going crazy!

Yea, assignments.....one by one won't stop.....sigh~~~
I have tried my best to become hardworking, but...still i'm lazy~~~ XD
listening to music, seeing tweets, watching variety shows.....lots of things i have done, but still i can't touch my assignments~~~ Don't know how to describe it, feel bored when read about the question, thinking about some new ideas in creating a good and creative RPH, it is tiring....Ideas won't just come out but it takes times, and we all knew that when you thought you are thinking about something new, someone has used it before, or there are someone does more than you.....so, don't know how to say, maybe this is a fair game, a fight of creating new ideas??? Haha, i guess so. Actually i didn't care more about it...
Sometimes i'm figuring about how if i am the one alone??? I don't know actually.....I hate being lonely life, so i tried my best to forgive everything, and open my mind, thinking in different way when someone treat me not so nice.... Maybe they will accept me once they realize who the one i am..... Just some figure out of my mind...
In this world, nobody will really care about you and if there are someone, there should be you....the only one will care about you....~~~ So, don't expect someone will always beside you, calm down and fight for yourself! Hwaiting my friend!
There will be someday nobody beside you, please bare in mind and appreciate what you have and what you get.... Feel thankful always because you are not alone~~~~
Is tiring when we fight in a lonely world.......
Music really is a best healing in my life......"Crescendo"~~~~~
You can't fly when you don't even try!!!! Try it! Make it as your best life ever, do all the crazy things and go all the places for fun,~~~

Listen to this song, is healing !
 Sistar's "Alone" is always the best song in 2012.....and of course Beast "Fiction", one of my favourite song until now....
listening the boys version, Kpop star's 2000 won "Alone" also nice with the rap...

If you want a person to respect you, please make sure you will respect him/her first~

Yea, I'm very hot now, actually talking about respect, maybe i'm not showing a good attitude but i should say that, i can't be close to someone i can't even find a topic to talk about, and i can't pretend to be close with person i don't know, so, all i can say is i am who i am, i don't want to pretend, maybe sometimes i like to praise someone so much, not because of i like to pretend it just i think she deserve it and this is what i think in my mind, the truth.....
Not because of anything, just something had make me feel uncomfortable, someone who talking about respect to other people in fact she don't respect us, how can we respect to her word when something she talked was nonsense for us???? Maybe i will sometimes rude or didn't talk anything, but i think i don't need to try to "bodek" or saying something untrue praising word or doing something to caught your attention....I didn't have any word to talk to you, sorry to say about this..... I'm acting like this not because of i hate you or i don't like you, but just because something you think you are always right but my thought is different with you always. Maybe sometimes you think i'm rude but i just choose to keep quiet because i didn't have topic to talk about with you, i'm not act didn't respect, but if you still wanna think so, i have no words to say...
Talking about respecting, do you think you really respect about us? Saying we are doing other thing when you are talking, yes we are wrong by the way, but you didn't even show some respect when talking to me, don't you? Please make some eye contact with person you have talked to, not others, is very RUDE you know? It just my opinion~
Everyone has their own uncomfortable thing, for me, is important to make an eye contact, is something we can show respect and a sign we are listening.....But, if you didn't even see me when you are asking, i don't think you are such a respectful person, so i can't make myself respect to you....
it just my little opinion, and maybe we are not good enough to talk to you,but before that and even there are discussion among us, i will try my best to make interaction with you like what you want, you think our communication skills and cooperation not good enough? Please take a look for other units before you said this~
I think we are good even though sometimes will have some argue, that's life. Sorry if i have some misunderstood but i just wanna say out my opinion....Sometimes I cant accept your thought just like you can't accept something from us....
Anyway, there are still a year to go and hopefully it will past faster and i will try my best to "respect" your thoughts.... But i swear right here, i will try my best not to become someone like you in future.....Not my style.... Sorry for not talking to you, not making a good interaction with you..... Just like what i said, i don't force myself to make contact with you because i really didn't have any topic to talk to you, seriously~~~~