wow~

today is mai's birthday and we are having a very very great time gather together...
special thanks to ah teng, because she fetch me go to penang's Neway so i can meet with they all, and luckily it's wednesday and i not need to work....haha^^
But something bad happen too....teng receive a "saman".....what the.....
Should blame that police....OMG!
"kamu akan dikenakan saman sebanyak RM200 kerana bercakap dalam telefon semasa memandu di lebuh raya".....so unlucky...
"kamu mau kena saman ke?" what the....
so we give him duit kopi RM100.....can drink a coffee with RM100....shit....
but, it can't stop our happiness when we reached Neway, singing karaoke from 7++ to 1++. special thanks to leng's boyfriend who is working at Neway which give us benefit to sing more, actually our time is till 12am only....
really miss the moment together....
mai, heok, joann, leng, teng, san, yong, narea and ryan....XD
Hope next time we can hang out like this again.....
miss they all so much, and now all of us busying with our things.....sad....and there are just a little time we can hang out together, and thank God i can meet with them....
this is the only event make my holiday become an unforgettable holiday....
miss you all!!!!

Haizzz...

Don't know why.....i feel some....."失落感"
有种挫败，全军覆没的感觉。。。。怎么办？
觉得自己很很很白痴。。。。笨蛋，每次对美希望的东西抱希望。。。。。怎么办？
可以不要让我胡思乱想了吗？？？

幸好，家人都很好，对我很好。。。。。
如果不是，我一定撑不了的。。。。
老实说，想念好多人。。。。。
没见过面有六年的同学。。。。。
毕业了两年的同学。。。。
感觉人生真的是一直在轮转。。。。。。身边的人随着年龄，都是不同的。。。。
小学，一群好玩的朋友。。。。。
上了中学，又学会更刺激的。。。。朋友又变了。。。。
到了现在，来到人生该定各自未来时，朋友又变了。。。。变成事业接近的。。。。同行。。。。
但是，还是会回忆起自己当初的那些无知，幼稚，可爱的朋友，想念他们。。。。
希望能出席那聚会。。。。怎么办？
我想保留所有的一切，希望大家会记住我。。。。哈哈~
因为，我也是很想你们。。。。。。真的。。。。
无论你们现在在哪个角落。。。。。期待~~~
今天有那么多感触，就因为昨晚和一些老朋友联络，谈了起来，真的忽略了他们。。。。。
加上工作时遇回好多中学同班。。。。。想起大家疯狂的事，我还能那么疯吗？？？

like a star

A song...nice^^ i like to listen to it....
Again long time didn't update my blog already....T.T
Feel very very busy la....haha^^
One thing to say......I get my salary already^^ and i have bought a new shoes and now, i am focusing on a new sport shoes and also formal wear....Hope i can buy it....XD
One problem is, no time....I have worked so so hard for the salary....RM1000 ++ !!!! I want it soooo much, so i must work very very hard....without rest except wednesday....So i can update my blog today.....
When i earn more and more money like now, i can spend it whatever i like.....
Now, one more big big problem, primary classmates gathering! OMG!!! Held during i am working......Sienzzzz....
I wish i can go because in my memory, i haven't went even one time, although they have held it twice a year, or maybe more......Maybe they have forgot about me, who knows?
Actually wanna gather with them and see what they are doing right now...
Someone was going for A level next year, to continue his dream to become a pilot......
T.T sure is bad news for me.....Party.....
But now the important thing is working~~~

haizzz....

Second time update my blog....
Actually i think now i can get in with them...Good...Although i am older....
Gambateh^^
Working with all people younger than me....nice, make me feel younger....
i think i will miss all the time with them...
Thanks Chia Wei and her friend who can accept me....I will do my best to stay good with you all....btw, Chia Wei is my sister....XD
maybe sometimes will feel bored but....is okay.....
Working with you all make me feel very happy...

Working~

Haha....This is the first time i update my blog since the midyear holiday....haha^^
Say hello to my little diary and i will try to update more and more from today...
I'm very tired of working today...and very angry and disappointed with all of them...
Feel very unlucky since i have been working...
first, hit the steel wall....OMG!!!! Is hurt!!!! But, after that i'm okay already, what an embarrassing moment... Sure many people are laughing at me...
The next day, i adjusting the shirt and....what the ......I have 2 years experiences although i not working at there 2 years already....and....don't know why...hit something again, light bulb!!!! and breaks......
the glasses fell at the floor and hit my head again!!! Sad!!!
And....no mood to say it already...just let it go....
But, some funny things also happened....
my sister and her friend, just 15 years old, and 3 part time worker, same age with them,...
i have to make friend with them and OMG! Guess what, really didn't have any same topic with those "piggy" ^^ They are so cute! the way they talked.....Very like a child, yes, they still a child.....
and my sister has made some nickname for them, cockroach, bee, elephant, big mouth...
wow......Sure i laugh everyday because of their act....childish act, make me reflash back some sweet memories with my part time friend when we are same age as my sister....Funny.....Meaningful XD

Stupid...~~~

Yor....What the....!!!
I woke up so early and now telling me that the exam is at afternoon?!!
haizzzz.....A bit angry and tired, thought can go back after exam, but now.....
need to wait until afternoon....
And somemore...my broadband is not functioning! i can't play games and online facebook....
I hate it!hate it!

我不受这一套~

很奇怪叻。。。一直在检讨自己，可是，还是做不到！
我做不到随随便便认识一个男的，然后拍拖，就算我又多渴望。。。哈哈~
失败！
因为没次都忍不住对他们冷言冷语的。。。。好笑！
真的不知道能讲什么，没共同话题！Out!
讲那些喜欢来喜欢去，见几次面而已？ 幼稚！Out！

累了。。。。为什么现在的人都那么随便？是我太土？
交友，我很乐意！但讲不到几下就讲喜欢的。。。。。累！
有点不喜欢咯。。。。。。。
所以每次都失败下场~

从讲话的方式就判人死刑，应该吗？

20 and 17?

Aduh, something made me headache again....
姐弟恋？妈呀！真的要气死我了。。。。
虽然我也是有过，但差三岁？！未免太离谱了？
成功就好，不要等下又分。。。。。哇。。。佩服她！
一个小弟弟也要。。。。帅是帅！可是。。。。小了一点。。。。
唉。。。。。头痛，现在真不懂谁才是姐姐，好像是我。。。。。显~~~
总之，只能盼她能找到最爱咯。。。。。。

Going back home

First time think that going back home is such a great feelings....
Haha~ I can't sleep, wanna eat many food cooked by papa and mami....
I wish i can fly back by this time, without anything worries....XD
I know my life is hard right now, but i will try my best to earn more money when i step into the school and teach the pupils.... I want to make my family feel better unlike now...
I will say we still can survive in such this life but is hard....
not really poor or not enough, just not enough for me.....
I want better life, to realize all my dreams.... Yes to catch up my dreams...
1）i can go travel some places in my country, Malaysia...Yes I did it by going to Cameron, Genting, KL, Penang, Melaka and Johor, is enough already~
2) To travel to overseas, at least a country, maybe Singapore or Thailand....If can, I want to travel at Italy, Spain, and France, my dream countries....
3) Still travelling, but with my family.....
4) I can go for a concert, no matter who the presenter is...I think i can did it next year.
5) Go clubbing! Having fun....maybe i can do it this year....before it ends...
6）Dating~ I miss that moment....
7）can date with a guy maybe is an actor or any famous people (maybe will not realize)

Can get together with people i really love at the end,....
Wow, so many things have to be done, can i?

If i want~

If i want to go back home, i didn't need to hear others say about....I just go back, this is me....
Actually saying in hostel is also such a boring week for me, and i know it is study week.....
Actually in my schedule, there are no such a word "study" and i'm just telling the truth not lying.....
Maybe people will think i am lying in this case, but i really hate study!
Doing revision is such a boring thing, and i will choose to spend my time go to entertain myself....Don't you think so?
Is such a big deal for me....
I don't know what will happen to me after this semester....
People is getting closer and closer after a long period, but why i didn't think so? Even feel so? Like become further and further....Don't know how to say, maybe i should go back home and relaxing myself, now i don't even recognize who myself was....such a sad thing for me.....
Who am I? What i'm trying to do this one and a half year? Why i feel like i am wasting my time?
I am going to be a teacher on future....can i do that?
If i really can't do it, i will choose made myself fail in the exam....is good for me ........
But, i will think i have already spent one and a half year at here, and studying with nothing (i don't know why i still staying at here).....maybe i should try my best to do all these thing~ Sure i will become a good teacher....XD
I still thinking if i choose to continue my studies at Form Six, what will happen to me right now? Same as my friend? Fail??? Get a bad result? Fail in MUET?
I don't know....Maybe i should look forward....no choice....
Really suffering to pretend i'm okay studying at here....this is the truth....
I want go back.....Maybe just get something from my family, their support....

Still~

Tired~ But if didn't go out, what can i do? what i can eat? So many wh questions....
moody right now....headache and boring~~~
I want to think for something i can do to avoid myself being boring~~~
Why am i starting to think about many impossible things?
Can i just stop think about it for a second?
My God! Is that mean i am getting older and older? So i have started to think about my future? Or what?
Tired.......

still in love XD

one of my favorite JYJ's song... nice.... 10000 times like it XD
don't know why i always listening to JYJ's song.... Very nice and comfortable...Good job man for singing English songs....I like them soooo much!
Start looking forward to their concert next year! haha^^
I'm trying to find as if i can find their album, but i didn't so sad~ Maybe i shall go Hong Kong Video and search for it....wow....
Suddenly become big fans of them.....There are many more songs nice....like I can't soar, Ayyy Girl, Be the One, Found You, Empty, Be My Girl....and more XD
One more thing, maybe there will be the end of the world during year 2012, so i must do something so i won't feel regret all the years i had lived in this world.....I must try to realize all my hopes and dreams and all my family's dream....I will spend more time on them....
I can feel that.....God began to take the life of human slowly, step by step....start with some virus....then wars.....and natural disasters, accidents.....all happen non stop in our life.....So must appreciate all the things we had right now....Our family....
Suddenly i miss them sooo much.....Can i fly back home right now?

Everything is back XD

Glad to see my friends are fine again....XD
haha^^
Hope tomorrow we will have the happy moment...haha^^
haha^^

Maybe i should think of something good for me already XD
i just realized that if i can speak out all the things, that means i'm fine already...i'm still me.....haha^^ ignore me XD

Talking about an ideal guy, or an ideal boyfriend for me, suddenly i have such this thinking...haha^^
1) he must be handsome, for sure, but if not really handsome never mind (i am lying haha^^)....

2) i want he knows something about music, for example he knows to play some music instruments like guitar, piano, violin, just either of them...XD

3) no need too tall...but better he is taller than me....haha^^

4) He is a humor guy, and like to talk funny things and always make me laugh....
* important XD

5) He knew about sports news, and know to play some balls....(eg, basketball, badminton, football, tennis, motor racing.....etc) better know one of it...haha^^

6) He can sing....sing love song by playing music instrument....have a nice voice...and most importantly, he know about romance, and if he can surprise me anytime...XD I like it....

7) Dancing....know to dance....wow... break dance XD

8) I will totally fall in love with him....

9) sometimes he is cute...no need to pretend in front me...

10) No need to be so gentlemen... Just need to be mature enough... I hate some naive act^^

11) He cares about me, messaging me always...

12) If he can be like Nickhun from 2pm, kim jae joong (Hero) from JYJ, Junsu(Xiah) from JYJ......One characteristic of them....

13) He can protect me always.....

14) He has some value that i can cheer for him always....

15) He is a shining star....wow! that will be great!

Conclusion: 3 of them is the most ideal guy for me right now....i wish to have such a exciting journey of love...Sure it will be fun....
Almost perfect, but who suit it? haizzz..... My prince, when will you appear???

SAD MOMENT IN MY CLASS~

Everything is unexpected.....XD
i don't know why~ Something will happen suddenly, even we don't want it to happen....
Why? Why always at this time our class will have many problems?
Today i can see there are different atmosphere in the class, like it will be burst at anytime, this is what i am worrying about....
Actually i don't know what is really happening, i just heard it from other friends...

I want to find someone in my class to share something happen in my life....XD
Like i may fall in love...or i want to share some Korean music, but nobody cares,....
I know actually i'm not like someone important in class...
Without he/her, they just feel can't survive, that is what i think~
If i disappear by suddenly....nobody knows and nobody even cares...
Yes, i am always trying my best not to know anything....unless they tell me.....I know i am not worth to tell because my mouth can't keep any secret....yes, i admit it....haha^^
If i know something, i will try my best to help them who face problems.....
What must i do to help this class just be as when we just meet each other?
Something weird happen....even though someone closed to each other can be no longer good at anytime and i am worrying about it....

B 型女~

有你在的地方一定有欢笑，你善良，调皮，任性，霸道与贴心。你看起来活泼好动，但实际内心深处，你有些自卑而自负，你希望自己能把事情做到最好，你很在乎别人对你的评价，你的性格像小孩，单纯直接，情绪化，喜怒哀乐写在脸上，你没有心机，但也缺少些自我保护的能力，你表面看来很容易相处，但想要走进你的内心世界其实并不容易，你需要人家的鼓励，包容，宠爱和肯定，其实你也常常自我反省，你希望自己能做到起码80%的完美，但你似乎没那个毅力，所以你的情绪变化无常，一定是被这些因素困扰的。

今天的我要向大家介绍几首韩国歌。。。。超好听的。。。。。
2pm 的新歌~ ｉ＇ｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｔｈｅｒｅ～　
ｂｅａｓｔ～　Ｓｏｏｍ
Ｓｅ７ｅｎ～　Ｉ＇ｍ　Ｇｏｉｎｇ　Ｃｒａｚｙ
ＪＹＪ－Ａｙｙｙ　Ｇｉｒｌ
尤其是最后一首。。。超好听！
Ｘｉａｈ　Ｍｉｃｋｙ　Ｈｅｒｏ～好帅！

Adam Lambert

He is a good singer, but, due to people had convinced that he is a gay, he had lost in the final of American Idol.....He supposed to win that time, he had a good voice, powerful and i like his song soooo much....
Actually he is a gay or not really an important thing? I don't think so...
I found out there are still many people have such that narrow thinking....
He is coming to Malaysia for a concert and we as fans should cheer for him, and not criticize him because he is a gay...
Many people asking about his sexuality issue rather than listening to his song and shout for him....
I want to be one of the audience....But....I'm still in Ipoh....Attending classes.....
Hopes he can come again next time!

U smile, i smile

haha^^ Bieber's song again.... Nice^^
listening to this song while typing this article...
Actually because of boring, i have became active in some groups again...
When i read Ryan's wall which asking a question "Do you think that love at first sight is possible?".... Suddenly wanna do a survey to ask people's opinion, and that is what i get...
Is possible but it may not last longer....
Still can be said it is possible to last forever and never change the feelings....is a good feeling, but hard for people to experience it....
But there are also some of them always experience this kind of feelings. But for them, this kind of feel just a temporary feeling and cannot be last. This is what i said, maybe among all these people, there is someone who you really fall for....and i can be last forever....
Actually the probability for people to find true love at first sight is...0.00000001% ? or even worse.....
maybe i will start to do more research about that...and someday i will find my true love XD
sometimes really envious with people who always get together and closer to each other, people in relationship....
Someday i will get one, but when is it???
I hope it can happen earlier, before i am getting older and older~

sienzzzz~

人为什么那么自恋的，难道我一定是非你不行吗？神经病~什么时代了？
你不珍惜，我为什么要珍惜? 我才没那么笨~哈哈~
所以呢，女生也该理智点，别再为任何人要死要活的。。。。没用~ 没人会珍惜你的。。。。所以，提高自己，让自己变得更有价值，自然有更多人欣赏。。。。告诉他：“没你也行！还会更好！”
听到那些人自恋的说你还喜欢他，想念他！什么东西？为什么要想念你？
既然都有各自生活了，请放手。。。。
会是，更好的~
别让他觉得你很厌倦。。。。。

跟他chating 了~
哈哈~真爽~ 小弟弟~ 加油！

等到了。。。

终于等到了，千年一次的10.10.10 10:10 好开心~
觉得值得纪念咯。。。。
很不错的一天~

纪名浩~

这个人很厉害~他不是明星~ 不是什么出名的人~ 就是引到我的留意。。。
是面子书的一个朋友。。。。大我妹妹一岁~哈哈~
当然不是喜欢他，也不是产生什么兴趣，只是引到我注意咯。。。。
看名字就很特别了，我所认识的人应该只听过一个姓“纪”的。。。。
奇怪的姓。。。。
就是又特别加上特出。。。。这些是从他“状态”看出的。。。老实说，要在年纪轻轻就有一定的程度真的很难~
所以：佩服他！强中强，遇强更强。。。。跟其他州手没分别。。。不错~ 他是个热爱羽球的人。。。。应该很厉害吧！有潜能，又会游泳，跆拳道，会beat box。。。。难得一见。。。。哈哈~
就觉得人太厉害就开始觉得压力。。。可能吧。。。小小年纪就得承受那么多，真可怜，明明赢了，还是被讲，被批评。。。唉，幸好我不是压力中成长的，谢天谢地，谢谢爸妈从不给我压力，很好~

今天是十月十日一零年。。。。千年才见一次的。。。10.10.10...是值得纪念的，好多人选这一天，结婚，拍拖，和恋人或家人度过，还有，今天还是礼拜叻。。。。更特别，不知你们有没有在此时去喝亲戚的喜酒呢？
我呢，则是像普通一样度过，早上就去踢球（很明显，被逼的）， 然后买晚餐。。。。然后睡觉，发我的白马王子梦。。。。哈哈~
到现在，很闷，就上了面子书，写了那么多。。。哈哈~
等一下，会等10：10 10.10.10 的到来。。。。期待。。。。

Honestly

We don't know who are we behind ours.....like sometimes, somebody we knew well doesn't like what we think about, and sometimes betrayal can happen in anyplace, anytime, anyone around us....So, just say truly, have you ever hurt somebody accidentally?
Maybe you had, but you don't know it....
Like what we think right now, everything just nearly to be perfect~ Is that perfect will last long? How long? Forever? Non stop? There might have one day, one day which you will face the truth, nothing can last forever, even how sweet, how happy, how much you want... It can't...
Just ready to face the truth....Nothing can last forever, maybe you will not be the one get hurt...
Someone is play a fool! Just want to warn her that she is nothing~ Nobody will be sad without somebody, they will get a new person soon~
So, what you did, you will get what you will be paid~
Actually this is just caring about my friend, doesn't mean anything for me...
Just think sometimes, why does we be like that?
Don't know how to face the truth, not even when you really fall for someone....
Why not just try it? Everything also need a try before we know how it feels...
trying is just made you become stronger~ Not other means...
I always want to become a journalist, write about some articles, or books about me, my life, what i have faced, my own experiences, share everything with all the people...
So, i am always thinking about sometimes i may have became a famous writer, write something about our lives... and all the meaning of lives...
I will start by keeping update the blog... write my experiences...
Listening to music can make me feel better, i have more idea in writing...
Doing things right is my purpose....
And help to fix up all the bad things in my life, hope someone will appear soon to help me fix all those things....
My dream.....To live a simple life...with someone i love so much, and my beloved family and all the trustworthy friends....Hope i can get more than that....
Dreaming about can get a guy know what meant by romance....A guy can entertain me, can make me fall for him, do every stupid thing for him...
Even i don't meet anyone like this yet, i'm sure i can get one soon....By that time, i will not think about handsome guys, or like other guys appeared in front for me, this what we called destiny, my destiny, i hope it can as beauty as the wonderful story.....
Date with someone famous....Is what i always dream for~ Like other girls, simple~

Steamboat^^

Hope that i can make it~
i want to eat steamboat~ aim for it soooo much^^
tomorrow i will go to eat~ when i am thinking about this, i can't stop think about many delicious food in front of me....
OMG!!!!!!
Very hungry right now!

Gambateh^^

This is what i said to my sister, wei^^
Hope she can get a good result because i can see she put many effort on it, every time i go back i will see her studying Math, for her exam, and keep on asking me when she have something don't understand~
Hope it will help me get in a better class next year, i really hope so...
If can, hope she can surprise us one more time, like what she did in UPSR. Something good but unexpected...surprise^^
i think she can do it~
hardworking person will get something nice for them, and i'm not one of them, so am i deserve to get a better result? or what shall i do to make myself become someone can compete with other person?
If i really can do so, i should do it before, not now...because i know my future already, no matter what i do, what i work hard for, i am still a future teacher^^
No more forensic and no more journalist~
i get a pay back because i am not trying harder~

Hopeless,useless,speechless

i don't what is happening and it makes me very scared~
i don't know what to do right now~ what will happen soon? can somebody tell me?
i'm sick of this kind of life~ meaningless....i want something more~
Why i'm always the one gonna be sacrificed? i hate it!
Somemore, why when i'm coming back here everything bad will come around? i don't understand~
can somebody ensure my family will always safe and happy? i am very scared right now....
i need someone to hear what i am going to talk about....Without using suspicious eyes on me....Can you?
I get angry just now, i don't know what should i talk with him....even though i am regretting right now~
Is he really made me regret to do so? why he don't ever care about us? Can he spend more time on us? Stay at home please!
i'm sick of the day waiting for him to come back, worrying about him, scared something might happen to him...even i am afraid to answer the phone....i just keep calling and calling, can you don't make me worry about you?
My tears drop uncontrolled when i am typing this, is real~
i feel scared, i don't know what is gonna be happened soon...
i'm not angry of you, just worrying what happened to you, I am your daughter, i will try to help you even though i don't know whether i can help or not...
can you just stay away from such these thing? Get back to us please, don't ever made us worried about you~
very suffer to hide the feeling you know?
i have said that i will not go back anymore after this and i am wrong....
i will still coming back...even though every comeback made me sick and sad, and suffer....
i do all of this for us, our family~
Please don't go away~

Is Over!

Many things happened, but now is over, what left is just two more presentations....oral is over, just like that only, wow! great great great!
Please don't bother about me, i just simply write what i wanna write, not referring to any of you, so please don't worry~
everything is about privacy~ i think....i didn't have it~
Don't know why i feel like that~ Hoping that one day i can get my freedom, a real freedom, not only for a while, but forever^^
Today's oral can be said very hard, the topic "Education"....seems very hard to speak out...i have paused so many time, don't know what shall i talk....but luckily all of it had past....Good!
So, is party time! Will go out later.....
hopefully will have a great time later~
p/s: i'm the one who put my privacy and freedom in my top place, don't you ever challenge me with that! I hate it~

其实~

你说你~被人利用~你有没有想过，你也是一样，一直在利用人！
人就是这样，互相利用~就是有这类型的人，才会令我们平静的生活变得充满烦恼~
所以，真的能避免人与人之间不会互相利用吗？
老实说，我也一样，为了某某目的，利用了不少的人~淡，我也清楚，相同的时间内，我也会被人利用回，只是不懂几时而已，有时，不懂好过懂~
在这里，希望明天的考试能够顺利过关吧！
真的对我的组员怀有万分的亏欠，就是不会计时，害到我们浪费了很多时间~
讲得又不太好，组员太强了~就是这样，希望他们别怪我~~~
怕怕~~~~怕以后不知怎样过，怕四年难过~
怕家乡朋友疏远了我~~~~~好多好多怕怕~
其实，我还很想你的，我还喜欢你~ 你呢？

LOST WORLD^^

i'm very happy today......XD
i can give up everything~ ya, everything....i knew i can do it, and i have done it^^
a full release for me right now.....when the things become impossible, i will try to forget it^^ maybe it is good for me to pay my attention on my teenage age.... doing something meaningful like hang out with my friendssss.....it's gonna be a great time^^
i can't wait for that moment, Lost World, theme park..... a bit like Sunway Lagoon, actually i haven't go either of the places....so i must go and find out the water park...it is good for me^^
already packed what i should bring for the trip...... After coming to this college for one and a half year, this is the first time i go the nearest water park....i really can't wait for it^^
Hopes everything will go well tomorrow ^^
wow~~~a great memory for me.....
one week later will be the angels and owners meet each other and play together....
with no doubt, there is hard for my owner to know me in real.......
Hopes he doesn't mind, i don't know how to talk, how to make us more closer, i just try my best^^

Wish me luck^^

The time is coming, 2 hours to go and we will meet together for the celebration of mooncake festival~ hahahaha^^
Everything will go on without any mistake, this is what i hope for this function~
Okay, actually today is my father's birthday^^ very happy but i can't go back home....That's why i feel sad all the time....

I got to move on and be who i am

i gotta go on my own way, like what i'm feeling right now.....

at least for now, i gotta go on my own way........

the song's lyric is like that:

i got to move on and be who i am,

i just don't belong here, i hope you understand

we might find our place in this world someday~

but at least for now, i gotta go on my own way...

hopeless, breathless, the beginning of the sad atmosphere~~~~

but, i must leave, i must choose the right choice, not sticking around there....doing nothing~

So, i will try to forget everything and start my life right now, i have many friends concern about me, i will try my best not to let them disappointed...

So, everything is over right now, i hope you knew it~

haizzz...

don't know why....my heart like...unpredictable.....i don't know how to describe it....

always think about something unnecessary, it supposed to be impossible! i try to remind myself not to think on it, but i can't , please, somebody help me help me......if not, i think i will be dead...

sad i can't go back home and celebrate mooncake festival...i want go home~~~

somemore, there are tiring for me....many presentation with no breaks....how i'm gonna handle all those things?

i can't eat, everytime i eat, i feel like wanna vomit, can somebody help me?

i think i can't withstand anymore, i want burst already!!!!!

i can't finish even my lunch right now, just eat a little bit only.......

中秋节快乐~ 不快乐！

哎。。。。不知道做么，今年的中秋节有点怪怪的~有点想回家庆祝的感觉~

妈咪没做工。。。。大姐早放工~ 能够一家团聚的~唯独我。。。有点想哭~ 想家~

再加上拜五就是爸爸的生日了。。。。希望能陪他度过，他都要到五十岁了~

呜呜~ 想想想~ 真的。。。。

怎么办？

开心是开心，还是缺乏自信。。。。不是我，一定不是我，别胡思乱想了~

哇。。。

朋友的歌唱比赛，他进到三强，又选中他应该唱的歌~不错不错~。。。。

很开心，因为喊到沙哑不是白费的~哈哈~ 他得了第二名~

先别说这个了。。。。

今天的呈堂好像不太理想，有点失望~真的。。。。有种怎么努力，也比不上别人的感觉，也怪自己当作草草了事罢了。。。。。如果努力些，不带原文上场，就会比较好了~

后悔莫及。。。。。哈哈~ 无论如何，过了，过了，很好！

接下来还有很多东西等着我叻。。。。

我觉得，不知为何，突然了解一件事，人，还是以貌取人的多，或是于利益作为中心，每利用价值的人，是不可能得到更好的。。。。。为什么？

有点苦恼，有点难过，有点不满，更有点不服。。。。

怎么做才好呢？要怎么证明我说错了？ 我说错了吗？

希望如此。。。。。

Sober

I am talking to him right now, late night, i don't know why...
at first, just wanna do a survey with him, so desperate....last minute find people for my survey...XD
then, i found his humor and can't stop talking with him...what does it feel?
people love logical thinking, and so is him.
he just found out his friend betrayed him, get his girlfriend, so he is very hurt now, and tomorrow is his trial exam and he is still talking with me right now....
i think he will choose to go back china with his father who worked there since he was young. China?
he is the one who went for Shanghai Expo last time....Why? he still appear in my life even though it is impossible for us to get together, just best friend, if he think like that...
Erm....flashing back the great time i had with him last time...
Maybe when i already forget about him, he will try to appear in my life again...
i don't know why, these few days i can't sleep well...tomorrow after depart back to ipoh i must have a nice nice sleep...i scared i can't withstand anymore!
one more person, also suddenly appear and suddenly disappear, i hate him! if i can, i don't want to talk with him anymore!Why i am the person who need to work first? i don't want be that person~

No idea! No idea!

for my assignmentsss! really feel sick of it! what must i do right now?

i didn't touch the assignments yet, still waiting~ waiting until when? i also don't know...

i still have time to posting something at here, very weird isn't it?

i also don't know why i always stuck in fb and games....didn't even touch my assignments even it supposed to be finished early. then, i'm sure i can go happy hour already, why i always like that?

i can't stay like that anymore, i must at least do something today, for math or english or both! i don't care! must force myself to have idea for it...

Everything can change...just a moment.....

like a feeling.....maybe you think that you like a person, so much, so desperate....but maybe after a long time or maybe just a short time, you don't know what it feels already~

Like me, i think i like this guy and that guy, but just after a while i saw the one who is better, i will forget about the guy i had said i fallen for him before....Why?

Just .... you want to be the one who hurt people or the one been hurt? Maybe i had chosen not to be hurt, so i try to forget all those impossible things in my life, try to lock myself not to fall in love so easy....

If you have heard i like someone and someone, sure is fake~ if i really like someone sure i will not speak it out! because my face is very thin...hehe^^ i guess you all understand what i'm talking about XD

okie, i must start my assignment now! and i will write about italy, my favorite country^^

Tired...until.....

你知道吗？人尽然能累到不累。。。。唉。。。。那就是今晚的我。。。该说。。最后一天工作。。。。本想晚点去的， 老板娘叫到。。。。不能不去。。。。

一天二十四小时，我花十三小时工作。。。。应该说是十四小时阿！

多恐怖！人多。。。。蛮爽的。。。因为折折裤。。。。。招待招待顾客。。。。就这样~十一点晚上了！今晚，我就是这样~

哈哈~想想做多一天就可以真正享受我的假期，真的很开心~

快快！撑完十四小时！加油。。。。

哈哈~最重要，赚钱！

又每晚可以坐mercedes 回家~

老板娘亲自载耶！爽到~

Miracle!

Miracles could happen....and i believe that~ i know something real and full of happiness will happen...and i am waiting for it~

You know, in the world maybe just a miracle can happen in a month... Somebody you love will fall in love to you soon......That is really special and amazing!

Not just what you think.....but is real! Not just in your dream, no more dreaming~

If all this become real.....i will.....wow~ i can't imagine it~

Just guess what will happen to me soon and check it out~ XD

Amazing^^

When you know about something that will make you happy.....That's it!

i'm very happy to hear about that.....although not from the people i want to know.....

Wishing them.....really.....

Teenage Dream!

i'm still teenager! i have my own freedom! i don't want my life full of studies, assignment and all these stupid damn thing! i want to leave......

If give you to choose:

A. work

B. study

C.both

what would you choose?

But i have no choice....my only answer can choose is C both! i need to do both thing during my teenage stage....

people going back for holidays....but i am going back to start my part time work....zzz....

Lazy, although sometimes is fun.....

再让你选：

谈恋爱还是等到毕业才打算？当然是谈恋爱对吗？

问你们吧！一次巧妙的相遇让你爱上他。。。。你会在这时争取吗？

等？等他？现在的社会还会有“等”你的他？有吗?

我看，这些，戏中的一切一切，都是假的~

如果真的有真爱，为什么还没出现？为什么还会有哪些花心汉？

希望大姐能早些清醒。。。。了解所谓的爱，别再。。。。沉沦在他那儿。。。

头痛~头痛~

3 in a row^^

wakaka...can't believe i just do it! at ipoh....first time ever!

just watched City Under Siege, Grown Ups and Phua Chu Kang The Movie^^

it's fun......

at first we watched City Under Siege at 4:15-6:10

then Grown Ups at 6:00-7:45 (we enter the room at 6:10)haha^^

after that Phua Chu Kang The Movie at 7:55-9:40...wow! very rushing until we just had our dinner after we reached our college. And i'm still eating the burger now.....feel a bit vomit because we just eat KFC and now Mcdonald.....haha^^

very tired but i will try my best to finish what i wanna do for the group assignments....hope that i can finish it as soon as possible so i can relax and change my mode into holiday mode!

somemore, i had to work for teh first week holiday....first time ever work with my sister sure something funny will happen....

my elder sister's boyfriend(seriuosly?) will come to visit her 15th....haha^^ sure he will "kena" with me! haha^^ damn stupid guy.....fast fast nreak with my sister la！ Geek! Just not really like him....i always like Han Ting to be my brother in law, he is handsome, know what my sister need, and they are working together! a bad guy is nevermind for me, just he know to come back to your side at last....that is the important point.

don't know when can i meet a guy like that? is that i'm too "挑剔"？

this too ugly i don't want, that too short i don't want, the guy i haven't met before i also don't want....i just want a right feeling in a right time.....is that difficult?

haizz....

what is love actually? a fool?

seeing my sister change her couple like lightning, Oh My! i still wondering if she knew what love meant.

Actually very worried about her la, that guy, Oh My God! Geek face, a terrible look! are u sure want him to be my brother in law? impossible^^

write a song for my sister, what the hell is this? maybe i'm more mature than her...even though i'm younger, just, dunno how to say...

haha~

just now go watch Step Up 3 with Chin Yee and San....nice movie...

Moose....great n cute, especially the way he perform in semi final (i mean in the movie la). what a guy! haha^^

Besides i have met our maktab friends there, one from pahang de and other from melaka, unbelievable! haha^^

Of course in the cinema also meet with my senior, who come back for PBS. And i, will be back to iph tomorrow, so sad......

Tomorrow still wondering if i need to go back my secondary school to take my original SPM examination's slip. But everything is what we call "takdir"

haha^^ cuz i left my comb in my friend's car, so i need to follow her back to school...Oh My God~

累。。。

刚刚在家乡的电影院看了一部电影~哇料~原来戏院是那么的烂，服务超“周到”的，还要去买爆米花哪儿叫服务员来替我们买票，真实的，。。。

又没有荧幕显示。。。够力！

唉。。。。不能埋怨这么多的。。。。这就是城市与家乡，华人与马来人的分别吧！

我家乡有两家电影院，但这两家竟可以差这么远。。。。唉。。。。

还是不说了，越说越气！

这就算了。。。原来在怡保久了，开始习惯哪儿了。。。。哈哈哈~

所以见到这儿的人就觉得有点怪怪~

变了~老实说。。。。差别很大！

唉。。。。课业又再没动到。。。。。。。

惨！

Haizzz...

what a boring day, all people go to work...nobody accompany me.....

haizzz...

My friend is busying prepare for their trial exam already...feel regret didn't go to penang...i should go...then i can meet with my friend already...

What a day.....

Sure i will be very very boring today, let's start my assignment n go out tomorrow....sure!

虚惊一场

wa.....what a....

真是，朋友的电脑无端端不见了。吓倒我。。。。唉。。。

原来是学院HEP收了起来。。。。气死人了！

神精病！无端端开什么玩笑，吓到我们半命了啦！

拿人家的电脑也没讲一声。。。。

经过这次，以后不要乱乱拿电脑放在图书馆了。。。。。

小心一点~

原来学院也会生产出小偷。。。。。

What a day...

这种是叫幸运还是倒霉？

其实应该很开心才对！但。。。还是做不到。。。真笨！又白费一次机会了。。。。真没用啊！

彭嘉嘉啊彭嘉嘉！为什么你那么没用？应该趁机证明给大家看，你不是没魅力的！

你还有本钱，不用怕人家讲你。。。。不用怕。。。。

开心？好奇？没用？乱？

被这些思想给烦着了。。。。

睡不着，怕吵醒同房。。。。打字声尽量降到最小声。。。。

今天应该爽才对呀！别想这么多了。。。。

明天要回家了。加油！

凡事开心就好！

Vampires suck......

later i'm going to watch it^^ happy*

but something is disturbing now.......like something wrong recently....haizz.....don't know how to describe it....

I need something which can make me more patient in facing all the things happen recently....

i wish everything will go well soon......as soon as possible.....

sad for them anyway, that none of my business, trying not to "kepo-ing" too many things.....

just take care^^

Maybe i'm not a good person, but i'm trying t be good....not in the education but in my life.....

Trying to avoid from being hated by other people, that's all i want.....

人生。。。

唉。。。。有机会让你生存，为什么要这么样了解自己的生命？

就算累了还是要撑下去呀！为什么？

天下那么多女人，真的非君不娶吗？什么时代了？

真的很不值！有些人甚至没得选，但你有！为什么这么折腾自己？

你还有家人，朋友。。。。。。替他们想想嘛。。。。。

既然你已选了这条路，希望黄泉之下你能安息吧！

虽然不认识你，但太可惜了。。。。。

希望大家别变成第二个他。。。。没有事比活在世上更美好！加油！

haizzz....

那又何必呢？
干嘛整天吵吵闹闹呢？唉。。。。。。
累了啦。。。。。可以和平地谈一次吗？
好怕。。。。班上出事了。。。。。
不想要这样~

haizzz.... Actually....
在感情的世界里，永远不会有对或错的，砍开一点，就会比较开心。。。。不是吗？
这条路，既然已选择了，就料到会被伤害，所以，不能怪他的无情，只能怪自己天真。。。。
但，天真也不尝不好啊！你开心过，甜蜜过，就已足够了。。。。
伤害？ 真的要那么计较吗？ 至少他带给你快乐，欢乐。。。。。
将开心的都记住，伤心的忘了它，那就没事了！
忘记虽是一件难事，但也要忘记！
没有事情是百分百美满的，再幸福的日子也会过。。。。变成过去。。。。。
珍惜眼前有的，就是实际！
朋友阿！有另一半的要珍惜，没有的。。。。要把握！让自己活得无遗憾，至少可向大家说，我曾经拥有过，虽然我已失去了。。。。
美好的事不会永久，不美好的也会度过，变成回忆、过去。
珍惜眼前人。。。。。让自己幸福！记住！幸福！

爱？

唉。。。。。很累哦。。。天天都在赶课业。。。要半命了！
神啊！救救我吧！

???

sienzzzz lol....actually many assignmentssss wait for me to finish it....but, always have something disturbing.....in my mind, ask me not finish it.....haizzz.....feel lazy to do all the works....
after not going to online for a long long period...
suddenly wanna play sdo....ok...sdoing for a while n continue my stuff...

dying la......Help!
how can i handle it?
very tired la....how i wanna start my pengantar pendidikan?
no idea.....haizzz...
feel lazy to do the powerpoint for BMK....
can i juz ignore it?

Dream?

i had a very nice dream yesterday, is about...........i want it to be real...can i?

Oh My God! Didn't have any ideas for my EQ assignment! make something not the real....
Think of it.....
Help!!!!!!!!!!!
>.<

sienzzzzz...alone at the room.....nothing can do cuz i can't excess to my facebook....
maybe is a sign for me to start my coursework....

apa ni?

生气~
什么东西都是你们知道罢了~ 我是什么？
一个小角色，一个不被注重的，一个没人想要认识的~
这样也该通知吧。。。。刚才真的要骂人了~ 真的~
当你们是朋友，你们却当我是狗屁！你们给我记住！
我也不想记仇~ 是你们害我的~
你们能做的东西，我也照样能~
静静别当我是病猫！
这次，气不消。。。。。。

haizzz..

what a suden decision made by me, i wanna relax before the moment i promise to try prepare for it....
maybe i should do it, haizz.z....
BMK assignment, i have began to do it, the first assignment taht i had touched for this semester, proud of myself?! No please....
seeing they all quarrel for just a small little thing, so maybe to stop them to blame it to each other, i shall volanteer myself to do it, in additional, my tiltle is the most suitable title to do the public speaking~
Why? The lecturers who just attended our class an hour per week, give the work more than the lecturers of our major subject...
Feel lucky to have Mr. Khiril and Mr. tan as our math lecturer~ haha^^

追求？

开始觉得自己很傻，很傻，超级傻。。。。
一直渴望被追求的感觉，可是呢。。。。哈哈！一点都不爽，而且还很烦。。。救命啊！！！
我要被他气死了！救命啊！！！ 我以后不敢了，不会那么渴望了！一点都不好玩，傻的！
觉得自己很笨！气死。。。。无言~
看来，被追求也要看对象的。。。。。他，他，或他？哈哈~
我没得选~看天咯。。。。给我怎样的缘分，希望是好的吧~ 一点点帅，体贴，对我好，有百变的讨好招式，忠心，和我有很多共同点，至少要会一个运动，哈哈~老实说，外表不太重要。。。。
但是呢。。。。这种人好难找哦！
前一个算不错了，还是。。。。。zzz。。。。

Smething old is better than new?

人家都爱说：旧的往往比新的好。。。。是真的吗？不是贪新恋旧的吗？唉。。。真是的，要说人都是变得很快的动物吗？人性？！
唉，自己也是一样，不知道自己想要什么。。。。。奇怪。。。。。
我有感自己有点怪怪的。。。。。
真的要人家替我决定吗？
有些东西，拥有时不会珍惜，等到失去了，才来后悔。。。。。
所以，千万不要做让自己后悔的事。。。。。

Take It Off

wow....Best song.....
haizzz....don't know why like that....something will change without any notice....very dangerous.....
so...must be prepared all the time so nothing will change yourself.....
Gambateh^^
wow, chat with friends at SP. Suddenly teh feeling of missing began to attack me.....
don't know how....miss them soooo much^^
but very very long time didn't hang out with them already.....
is there anything will change when we meet? i don't know....
sometimes feels liek i had made a wrong wrong decision, how? how to fix it?
pay the money? i didn't have it. Just run away? No! Of course!
Why people can feel suitable with their life so fast? but not me?
Regreting....how?
1 and a half year wanna be the end already......
Maybe i just suitbale to work and earn money....maybe~

Something Bout Love...

看着其他人出双入对的，怕有一天，剩下我一个人。。。。孤零零。。。。。怕。。。
爱情？ 真的要拥有了才会开心吗？有了才会幸福吗？没有不行吗？唉。。。。。
人家都是甜甜蜜蜜的。。。。。就算单身也至少有蜜蜂，唉。。。。唯独我。。。。。
看来，要开始唱Lonely的歌了。。。。。可怜。。。。
又有一首歌，出现在我脑海里，Lonely No More....... i don't wanna be lonely no more........
haha^^ 奇怪奇怪，东西有时，不会珍惜，没有了。。。才来辛苦。。。。埋怨。。。。
唉。。。。幸好有家人，家人对我最好！
想家了。。。
Final Decision: Love can be your love to your family and friends.....not only to a specific person....you know what i mean....^^

addiction...XD

I like this song soooo much, it seems very meanful for me.....really^^ i like it....
From the way code v sing it.....nice.....

累。。。。

回家回家。。。。。。。本该是很美好的事，但，想太多导致有点不想回家。。。。
想等九月。。。。哈哈~
吃着炒饭。。。。又饱又饿。。。哎。。。。。。
有点觉得自己不太满足，有朋友又有人陪，还想要什么？
就好像有些事，有些人，对一些东西，永远都有gap的存在。。。。。
又说人家做得不好，以为自己做得很好似的。。。。。
又乱乱发脾气，来到这儿就是这样了，还发什么鬼脾气？
说自己做不到，跟不上，你不是做得很好了吗？！
这些人，既然那么不满足，那干脆死掉算了！来这世界干嘛？ 这里没人得罪你的。。。。！
人，来到这世界，当然会有些挫折，不必一直埋怨，让自己过得不开心。。。。。
记得！这世界没人得罪你的！

HAHAHAHA^^ can watch predators finally, although not really interesting as what i'm expected....but fine....i have watched it! no worries about it already.....
really waste a lot of money this week.....T.T
must begin to save money already.....
but what i must say by now is...."SALT" ! i'm coming^^

Haizzz....

为什么？为什么我整天都忘记些重要的事情。。。。。比如：忘了买这个那个。。。。
哦。。。。fullscap paper 也忘记买，一直都提醒自己要买要买。。。。哎哟，又忘了！
气死人了！
讨厌！
生气！ 连一些小事也记不起。。。。
竟然过了两天才想起。。。忘了。。。。。

First time...

今天是我第一次演那么长的戏, 大戏剧! 哇........真的很紧张............
怕自己演得不好，害到所有人。。。。。
可是，得加油咯。。。。。。 还有一些时间。。。。。
慢慢来，希望不会害到全班啦。。。。。

dun let me hate u~

i hate you!!!

真是气！
爽爽就冷落人，爽爽又找回人。。。。什么意思？
需不需要那么小器？？？？！！！！
神经病！ 不会不会再睬你了！不会！
就算你真的找回我也不会不会睬你。。。。。
讨厌鬼！。。。。。。

事情的背后~

唉。。。。。
事情发生的背后，总会有它的理由，
世上绝对不会有解释不到的真相~
这是真的。。。。但，有时，有些事绝对能够令你认为它没有理由。。。。
唉。。。我也不懂自己在写什么。。。
无聊，想写写些东西。。。。就想到了这个，理由？
好期待游戏的开始~~~游戏？？？
最近染上看电影的习惯了。。。。。。电影，电影，。。。。。
究竟，在我寂寞无助时，谁？谁能在我身边呢？？？
加油！我能度过的。。。。有什么事我没试过？！
一定能~度过。。。。。

there goes my baby~ usher

there goes my baby
(oo girl look at you)
you don't know how good it feels to call you my girl
there goes my baby
loving everything you do
oo girl look at you

bet you ain't know that i be checking you out
when you be putting your heels on
i swear your body's so perfect baby
how you work it baby yea
i love the way that you be poking it out
girl give me something to feel on
so please believe we gone be twerking it out
by the end of the night baby

i've been waiting all day to wrap my hands
around your waist and kiss your face
wouldn't trade this feeling for nothing
not even for a minute
and i'll sit here long as it takes
to get you all alone
but as soon as you come walking my way
you gon hear me say

there goes my baby
(oo girl look at you)
you don't know how good it feels to call you my girl
there goes my baby
loving everything you do
oo girl look at you

i get the chills whenever i see your face
and you in the place girl
feel like i'm in a movie baby
i'm like oowee baby oh
like waterfalls your hair falls down to your waist
can i get a taste girl
no need to keep this baby
i ain't ashamed of calling your name girl

i've been waiting all day to wrap my hands
around your waist and kiss your face
wouldn't trade this feeling for nothing
not even for a minute
and i'll sit here long as it takes
to get you all alone
but as soon as you come walking my way
you gon hear me say

there goes my baby
(oo girl look at you)
you don't know how good it feels to call you my girl
there goes my baby
loving everything you do
oo girl look at you

and girl i feel like it's our first time
everytime we get together
baby loving you feels better than
everything, anything
put on my heart you don't need a ring
and i promise our time away won't change my love
there goes my baby
(oo girl look at you)
you don't know how good it feels to call you my girl
there goes my baby
loving everything you do
oo girl look at you

there goes my baby
(oo girl look at you)
you don't know how good it feels to call you my girl
there goes my baby
loving everything you do
oo girl look at you

难~

如果这么容易让我喜欢一个人，那就好了。。。。。可是，真的很难~ 喜欢一个人很难~
到现在，还是他。。。。奇怪，真的很失望，当收到他信息。。。。
他今天会去怡保。。。。可是，我却回去双溪大年了~
这就是有缘无份吧。。。。没了。。。。
教会的活动我也不会去了。。。。
不会想他了。。。。

damn it!

i dunno what happen to me today...everything not going well....
this must began with when they announcing to go celebrate the day we all meet for a year....OMG!!! i wanna go shopping and release tention....watching predators....everythig seems gone.....
最后还是去了。。。。可是竟然那么倒霉！那部戏在五点四十五分才有。。。。。就只能随便看别部戏了。。。。显~~~
蛮好看的。。。。可是才发现原来我的薪水竟然还没进~ 哇料！！！ 做了那么久了。。。。薪水又低。。。。有那么迟拿到。。。。。气死人了！！！！ 害得我本以为有一笔钱用的，又没了！没了！真的很不爽~ 好了，又要再次和父母拿钱。。。他们的生活也没好到哪里去。。。我怎么那么自私？？？？？ 他们挨到那么辛苦。我就爽爽向他们要钱。。。。真的很恨我自己！！！ 今天的不爽就是不爽我自己， 那么厉害花钱。。。。。。用什么还？？？？
在的士上，忍不住流出了泪水，我怕！我开始怕了！我的心好痛~ 想到爸妈我的心好痛。。。。
打到这里，又想哭了。。。。怎么办？ 不能哭！！！ 要回去了。。。。。
真想回去了不再回来。。。。很笨的想法。。。。。
我好想爸妈，大姐，嘉微，运宏，运健。。。。。。。。

geram-ing....

guess what! something makes me really geram and hate it.....damn it^^
really like wanna use my hand and hit the wall or anything around me....hate it hate it!
privacy...i really want some privacy...please! stop disturbing me.....
my laptop, my phone and everything belongs to mine seems not to....like everybosy can hold it, use it without my permission...
if u are mine, will u get mad and fed up???!!!!
one more time i need to stress this....privacy...........don't make me do the thing i dun want to....

boring~

sure it will be a boring weekend for me, preparing for many presentationsss.....
bik, bi, chinese.....this two subjects just our minor subject, why i feel like it has became a major subject???!!
even the major subject, mathematics also more relax than it.....haizzz....
must find a way to go out, to withdraw money.....
but....who have time to go out with me? everybody is busying with their stuffs, and this make me feel like wanna go back home....what a boring weekend.....

本来，我一直忍。。。。忍。。。。。可是真的很辛苦。。。。
我不想每次都是我在忍。。。。你明白吗？？？
我可以不要知道，我可以不知道，我也不想知道。。。。所以，可以要讲的活，不要在我面前讲吗？？？！！！讲了又不给我知道，什么意思？？？
我只有一个要求，不要在我面前讲！！！！ 我怕有一天我忍无可忍。。。。。
人的忍耐性是有极限的。。。。
如果换成是你被这样对待，你要吗？
劝劝大家！如果有些事不想让人知道，请。。。。请。。。。别在她面前讲。。。。会令别人胡思乱想的。。。记住！我也会记住的。。。。。
不想被伤害，请别伤害人。。。。。
不开心时，部落格是发泄的最好地方，因为，我找不到我能够信任的人。。。。。
要找一个自己信任的人是很难的。。。。记住！
我不知道自己要的是什么。。。。zzzz.......

Thomas Muller XD

i'm gonna keep focusing on him recently....
it should be said that i started focusing about him when the match of germany vs. england in world cup final 16....this guy rockkkkk the show!!!! he scored 2 goals which made germany won 4-1 to england.....besides, i also found that he still young, just 2 years older than me XD
actually i didn't watch the match before, just knew the result from website.....haha^^
then, i always guess how is the look of this guy, is him same like the type of michael ballack or klose??? or just like kahn, podolski, philip lahm....cuz i haven't heard about this guy.....if not because he had scored in the match, i think i won't keep my interest on him....
the fact is......he really cute!!!!! and he will become the future star for germany^^
this i know it when i watch the match germany faced argentina, my favourite!!!
watching my favourite team being blash by germany, i feel a bit sad and disapoited, i didn't see any interesting score or shot from argentina, from messi, from higuain......
however, the one who help germany lead at 3rd minute, Muller......from time to time, i begin to view my sight on him....what a handsome guy! even handsome than ballack or klose, i just tell the truth! i got a feeling that he will rock the show soon^^
Thomas Muller! even i will not support germany at semi final due to they will face spain, my top favourite.....i hope you can do well in that match^^
haha^^ like people say, if a team won england at final 16 or final 8....when england try hard to get to final 16 from the group.......the team will finally won the cup!
so.............work hard for Muller^^

waka waka!

first time ever! watching football match live with my friends at ipg ipoh! wow!!!
shout until no voice....cheer for argentina, but the winner is germany...a bit disapointed....
but i also saw someone who is the hero for this match, thomas muller....^^ handsome^^
he scored the first goal for germany.....haizzz....juz begin 3 minutes....
i don't know what is the facts disturb the presentations of messi, higuain, n others argentina's player.....or what i can say is germany perform a very good defences n attack....
really....

这世界就是这样，有些东西总有一天会失去，永远都挽回不了。。。。
别人永远是“得益 者”。。。。。

for me, i will try my best not to give such that"people" to get what they want....so cruel isn't it???
this is what we called earth! world!
if you didn't do as what i say, maybe the one who lose everything is you.....
they will also treat you like that, people always jealous and selfish....
so, try to become selfish from this moment, helping doesn't have people's pay back....
they just pay you will a cruel heart.....

제가 당신을 미워!

不喜欢被隐瞒，不喜欢特意去听人家不想告诉自己的东西。。。。这就是我！
最重要的是绝对绝对不会特意去破坏别人的关系。。。。这就是我！
讨厌那些自以为是的人，更讨厌那些明明不管他事却要做到与他有关系的人。。。。这就是我！
不喜欢的人就不会特意去讨好他，不会去和他有更好的关系。。。。这就是我！
不喜欢插手人与人之间的关系，你们问我，我只回答，不不知道。。。。
好的，我会替你们传千里！坏的，我只会静静，当作若无其事。。。。这是我！
我不想任何一方受到伤害，更不想任何一方不原谅对方。。。。我要大家和平过日子，大家能开开心心相处。。。。
我不会因为人家说我太吵而停止当“小丑”！小丑还是会继续为快乐而奋斗，为悲伤而。。。。突然想不出该说什么，不喜欢幸灾乐祸，不喜欢幸灾乐祸的人。。。。这就是我！
不该听的不会听，就算听了也扮不知道，因为不管我的事，不会想太多。。。。人家要讲就会讲的，勉强去打听是笨蛋的行为！我就是这么想~
希望他们能够放开包袱，做回朋友，再由朋友和好如初，做回伴侣，因为，他们只要时间，时间让双方成熟，重新开始。。。。了解对方。。。。

아주 화가 ！

why？ why? tell me why?
要开始哼起歌了。。。真的忍无可忍了！
幸好没听叶的话去将头发染成棕色，如果染了，就死定了！
还好，还是等回去大放假时才染吧！剪也是一样，头发现在不长不短很辛苦。。。。
真想剪就剪！男生头就男生头！气了！不能再容忍他们的残酷，他们的偏心。。。。分明针对我们的。。。气死人了！！！！！！！！！！！！

continued~

last time i have talked about the jetty, yes...too many place to go....
3rd day: early in the morning.....wei ming bring us go to eat breakfast at a kopitiam.....招牌菜是鸭面，味道还不错叻！之后就去jusco购物中心走一走。。。。午餐则去吃鸡饭粒，它的饭好像饭团一样，一粒一粒的，真的很特别。。。。伟明也带我们去逛逛土产店，有好多好多特别的东西。。。。休息一阵子后，我们又去伟明家做客，他母亲准备了好多东西招待我们，真的把我们招待得很好。。。。。终于，到了我最想看的节目，sukma 篮球比赛，的确让我们见识了文通弟弟的光彩，他真的很厉害。但是很可惜这场比赛吉打输了。。。。这可是我第一次见证这么大型的比赛叻。。。。不错~
下一个则是一条很长很长的旧街，好像很有历史性的。。。。那儿卖好多好多便宜的东西，我也在那边扫了一些东西。。。值得买，非常便宜。之后又去吃宵夜，哇，可以说整天都有节目。。。很爽^^ 吃的是很特别的“咯咯”， 很好吃~
第四天: is our last day stay at melaka, i'm gonna miss it sooooo much......having a great time at there. after having breakfast, we go to dataran pahlawan, no bad......very very long shopping mall, after we cross a road, we can go to mahkota parade, is also one of the most famous shopping centre in melaka.

you know what? i'm having an awesome trip to taiping, melaka, muar and batu pahat^^
nice trip......
start with first day, depart to taiping with wendy, kelvin, cherry and ea......
after we had reached there, a fellow couple osc n pei zhen come bring us for lunch, then we go to zoo taiping, taiping sentral, muzium taiping, osc's house, taiping lake......then have a dinner in a cafe....nice for us to gather and talk......
then we had to bring wendy, kelvin and ea back......
after that, we go to stay at pei zhen's house, very thank to her parent for their serve.....
very nice talking with peizhen and some girl talks with cherry......
second day: wow, damn tired when we need to wake up at 4++am, first time ever! boon thong had drove to taiping started from 4++....reached pei zhen's house at 5:20 am.......need to say goodbye to peizhen, thanks for everthing....^^ then start our journey, to osc's house, then to melaka!!!
yeah!!!!! a long long journey so we had to stop for a few times to rest, eat.....
finally reach melaka or A Famosa at 10++ am.....then go for safari and watch the animal shows....keep close with wildlife.......and then we had to go, go to wei ming's house.....
going to night market nearby for a while, then having dinner with his family, nice! all of it is seafood....tastes good^^ then wei ming bring us to portugis' town, going to jetty.....looking for the night view of the sea.....
wow, so many things so i can't type it ....
will continue typing it soon for 3-7 day trip....^^

很闷！！！！！！！！！！！ 闷！！！！！！！！！！ 闷死我了啦！！！！！！！！
怎么办？？？？ 我的眼泪受不到控制。。。。掉下一颗又一颗。。。。
我累了，累到。。。。。眼泪掉了。。。。
不是伤心，不是哭了，就只是累了。。。。
明明睡了大半天的但却那么累。。。。。
好像要病了！惨了！
这样的或要去玩也不爽。。。。唉。。。。。
前两天才出去，今天乖乖呆在家却令我病了。。。。
真是的。。。。。

settle!

yes!!!!! finally!!!!!
he give me to go already.....wow.....
luckily......
so if we don't give up everytime, we will get what we want as the result, i have suceed to convince him give me out already.....
don't give up! never give up! yeah! you can do it!!!!
you will win! with the tough heart, you will always win!
yes! i did it!
thank God and thanks dad!
released......

为什么？？？

我真的不明白。。。。在最后一关，你们竟然不赞成。。。。
我开始无言。。。。不懂要说什么。。。。
我真的能够处理的。。。你们可以相信我吗？？？
给我一次机会可以吗？？？？
给我去旅游的机会，给我更多的自由空间。。。。
我相信他们，我相信我的朋友会小心的，这并不代表我不想多抽时间和你们相处，只是这真的是我梦寐以求的一次机会，不懂这次去不成，下次能不能有此机会了。。。。我怕。。。。
我怕没机会了，你们可以让我去吗？？？？
我不是一直只想出去玩，却没想后果。。。。我不想让自己有一件烦人的事。。。。
即然有个开开心心的机会，为什么不去珍惜呢？？？？
我懂，你们只是为我好，但，就让我做主一次吧？一次就够了。。。。
爸爸，我懂你是疼我，怕我出事，我答应你，我会尽我所能安安全全地回来，开开心心地回来。。。。

suddenly feel wanna ask somebody going out with me....
i'm very boring by now~~~
soemore, i din't feel wanna take a nap although i am tired....
i wanna spend my time at this college, find somebody to talk with me, is great!
for me, everything is over with the end of our second semester....many things can happen....
i don't know what i will get for my exam....feel scare for it.....i don't wan to receive a call.....a call that can change my life....i'm very afraid....really.....
many things i want to do ni this holiday, but i think it will never change me.....i will always be the same person.....
what i'm gonna spend in this hour????? what i can do for this hour???
somebody can tell me how?

boring weekdays...

not going out, without any interesting activities......oh my god!!!! i hate this!!!
to control my rate of spending money, this is what i need to do, save, save and save~~~~
next time i will go melaka and johor with my friends, sure it will be very exciting, and i hope so, if i will not vomit, that's will be a great holiday for me....
so i must ready....... with the medicines.....haha^^
sometimes, we must let go something important in our life....for our goods, and for a long lasting friendship with others.....
i told myself evrytime not to be so selfish......
i try myself to help others because i treat them like my good friends, nice buddy......
actually i want to try something new for myself, a tatoo, or a new hairstyle, is that better????
i wanna try everything before i step into 19th......that's what i wanna do for now, travel, travel.....and travel!!!!
explore something i haven't knew before......

hungry hungry and hungry....
somemore just wake up and very tired....after a long nap in the afternoon T.T
why still feel very tired????

halfway gone....niceeee song...i like it sooooo much!!!!!
haha^^
最近我整天胡思乱想。。。。唉，有够笨叻。。。。想不可能会发生的事。。。。
希望奇迹可以出现。。。我需要奇迹。。。。。
真的觉得自己很厉害花钱。。。。越来越厉害了。。。。又不会赚回，以前就算花了多少都会想办法赚回来。。。现在呢。。。不知花了家里多少钱了。。。。
不能在这样下去。。。。。
一定要忍！忍！ 忍！！！！！ 加油！！！！！
去玩这两次就该停了。。。。
好好的玩一场吧！！！！
不可以晕车。。。千万不能。。。。不然去玩也没意义。。。。。
好期待哦。。。希望能够去玩，趁现在十八岁。。。。过几个月就不是了。。。。
好好利用这时关。。。。。
你能的！

wow, long time i didn't leave something in this page.....miss you soooo much blogger^^
sad......this week i think so many things....everything coems suddenly and keep in my minds...
feels like begin to lose control....help me please.....
i must begin control everything, if not, i'm gonna have a big big troubles.....

哇。。。看到人家情侣在一起那么久了，到最后还是分~ 有点心酸。。。。。
到底哪种关系才能永久呢？？？？ 有谁能告诉我？？？
现在，什么都不想~ 只要。。。。。。去玩个痛快！！！！！
明天，终于上最后一天的课了。。。。有点兴奋~
可以去松一松了~ 可是没人陪我。。。。。
原来，单身真的很可怜。。。。。。
需要好多好多的朋友才能满足自己。。。。。不然，就会很寂寞~

其实，有一刻，我想去相信了。。。但，那一刻不长久。。。
之后又会不信。到底他们讲的，我该信谁？？？？
谁讲真的？谁是假的?
谁真的为我好？？？？？ 唉。。。。。
不想了！不想了！越想越没自信。。。。。
假的！假的！一场游戏罢了！玩弄我的游戏！
那么喜欢玩，我就奉陪到底吧！
让你们玩。。。。。

第一次收到花，蛮爽的。。。。哈哈~
对象是谁对我来说是不重要的，主要的是他们的心意，真的很开心。。。。
谢谢朋友们的热情，至少我不是一人独行的。。。。
谢谢大家的关心。。。。。
非常感激^^

tired....

有时候，被人讲也是很累的。。。。唉。。。。
就算有多不在意都好，还是会令我们有点尴尬。。。。
希望我们不要再这么尴尬吧。。。。。
因为我害怕和朋友的关系搞到很尴尬。。。。。。
换一句话，勉强是不会有幸福的。。。。。
哈哈哈~ 希望所有人讲过就算了。。。。^^
但是，有时候被讲能够看到朋友们的兴奋以及开心的感觉，觉得自己就算被讲到几千次，几万次都好都是值得的。。。。。。
让他们开开心心，我也会很开心，不要影响大家的关系就行了。。。。。

好感动。。。

其实，有时候，一些些小事情，可以令我感到非常非常的感动。。。。。
我好开心。。。。终于能够受朋友的注意了。
我不懂、不知道他们所说的是不是我，但我希望我是。。。。
一向来都希望人家能够了解我，这次是真了吧！
感动又开心。。。。哈哈~
一些东西，看了真的会眼湿湿的。。。。好感动，不知不觉地，很开心。。。
有人注重我，我真的很开心~
真不懂就只是那几句竟令我那么爽，找到一个真心对我的朋友是比一切更重要的。。。。
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~~
总算能够挨下去了，至少身边有个朋友，一个真心对我的朋友，我的要求不多，我只要这个，我就满足了，就是那么简单~
真心对人总算有成就了。。。。。。
现在，我有留下来的理由。。。。。因为，我有朋友。。。。
我想找个男朋友，我想谈恋爱，我想疯狂的玩一次，至少，问心无愧。。。。
但，有时候，不是随随便便的人就能够令我满足。。。。我想要的，是一个真心对我的人，不会花心，就算是一个花心汉，也得在最后回到我身边。。。。。。。。。他可能没什么好，但他会讨好我，陪我，安慰我，逗我开心。。。。。。
他不必花无谓的钱来满足我，但他必须制造浪漫气氛，每天都对我很好。。。。。
最重要的是：我不能容忍他心目中还有另一个女生。。。。。
简单来说，只要他心中有我，喜欢我，那就行了。。。。。
我不介意他与其他女生接近，只要心中有我。。。。。。就是那么简单。。。。。
我曾经想和一个帅帅的白马王子在一起，但深入一想，我要的不是那个。。。。。。
那个虚伪的脸孔，令你天天提心吊胆的。。。。。。。不是！
五月八号。。。。。他来了，到这儿了。。。。。来见见我。。。。。。
可是，你能再次面对曾经伤害你的他吗？？？？？？？真的能面对？？？？？

看完了“老公万岁”这部电影，觉得蛮不错的。。。。我也从那部电视剧的一些对话学到了一些东西。。。。。做得潇洒的都是赢家，哈哈~ 那些扮可怜的，需要保护的未必能够赢得芳心。。。。
这一点我非常的认同，有一些人就是爱扮可怜以引起其他人的注意，但人们最爱将自己的注意力放在刚强的她，表面上坚强的她。她，虽然很自立，由于生活所逼，但还是有个脆弱的小心灵在她的深处；反观另一个她，表面脆弱、可怜、无助，但事实上她有多么的狠毒啊！！！！
扮可爱、可怜，为了引人注意，她的确成功了！！！！ 所有人觉得他最可怜，都很同情她。。。
但，她不是赢家。。。人们帮她是出自自然的怜悯心，不是爱，那不是爱，真正的爱是另一个，刚强的她！无论她如何装可怜，还是失败了。。。。
我好喜欢戏剧的这一部分，做人没必要装，希望现实世界的男生们能够做得像电视剧中的男主角，分得清怜悯心和爱，别搞错你对你心爱的人的感觉。。。。。
我也很钦佩一些人能够潇洒地表白，但愿他了解她的心意，这是她的小小希望，她只想让他知道，至少她已尝试了，他有何反应都没关系，至少她没任何遗憾。。。。。
对！至少心中没有遗憾。。。。。

我好怕．．．

每次都很怕，怕这个那个．．．．．
我很想很想逃避一些东西，我还在克制着，应该会没事的．．．．
很怕控制不到情况，怕越帮越忙，怕自己真的做错了．．．．
最好笑的事还是我觉得自己有点被冤枉的感觉，不知道为什么，自己好像搞扎了所有事情，其实最怕还是有人会因而讨厌我，我怕，我怕被人不爽，被人讨厌的感觉．．．．
因为我要所有人都很开心．
朋友们讲我太幼稚了，哈哈！不幼稚的或我觉得自己会是很恐怖的，我怕．．．自己变得很恐怖，变得有野心，变得会争取，那个时候，我不再是我，更不用说所有认识我，了解我的朋友，你们会问自己，这个人到底是谁？是我们认识的嘉嘉吗？？？？
我不想改变，何必要委屈自己和别人呢？做回自己不好吗？？？？
但是，有时候不变的或，我可能就永远得不到我要的东西了，我不强求太多，我只想看到所有人幸福，开开心心而已．．．而我呢．．．还是做回自己比较实际．．．．．
我很笨，总是那么的笨，永远不成熟．．．．如果有一天真的要争取，我一定是失败的那个．．．
慢慢地期待那一天，期待自己能够为自己争取一些属于自己的．．．．
要如何是好？？？？？
我不懂几时开始有点想放弃的感觉，有点不想再都下去了，我不想去解开自己心中的谜底，我怕，我怕以解开了，我会失去一切，．．．．
我要做的只能忍声吞气，最好的方法只有如此．．．．．
真的，在这黑暗无助的晚上，我好怕好怕，怕自己有天会受不了，会崩溃．．．．再这样下去会让我很痛苦．．．
ｐｌｓ：　让我猜对一次吧！
我很需要。。。。。。

当我们和一个人交朋友到非常信任时，就会发生一些误会？
小误会慢慢地演变成大误会，甚至有人开始责怪你，这种感觉令你非常的难受，不知找谁诉苦，诉说。。。。因为，你找不到你信任的人。。。。。
我好想好想找个人谈谈，发泄发泄，因为。。。。我很辛苦。
一直疑神疑鬼也不是办法，解决才是关键。。。
逃避不是办法。。。。。哈哈^^
累了累了，天天都一样。。。。闷死人了。。。。
我想出去，走走、血拼、玩电动、总之，我只想轻松轻松。。。。

累了。。。

我真的真的很累了。。。。。可以不要再提吗？？？？
我开始分不清谁才是真正对我好，谁才是对我不好的。。。。
快撑不下了。。。。谁能救救我？？？？
帮我分析一下。。。。到底是谁？
谁是真心对我？？？？
谁真正为我付出？？？？
别再一人一句了可以吗？？？？
我真的很辛苦，不懂谁会了解。。。。。
为什么有些离得远的，会突然离得很近？？？？
然后又很远很远。。。。谁才是真心对我的？？？？
开始觉得我不该再胡乱相信人了。。。。太恐怖了！！！！
我撑不下了！可能搞到最后，没人会相信我，但，我只想说信不信由你，我也不能阻止你们不信任我。。。。。。我只想让大家能够开开心心的在一起。。。。
我只能说：“ 请给我时间证明一切！”
别再让彼此的误会加深了行吗？？？？？？？？
我很苦~ 不知该信谁。。。。。。。。
当我们用真心去对待时，为什么总会让彼此的误会加深？？？？
可以对我坦白点吗？？？？？？
开始恨被人欺骗的感觉。。。。。。
我不会再当鸡婆了。。。。。不会不会！
这一次，我只会静静的分析。。。。。。
突然很想念我的好朋友。。。。。。你们最了解我，和我有共同点、特点、又注重骨气。。。。
琳、 叶、洁。。。。。我很需要你们。。。。。
因为，我已不懂要如何面对这一切了。。。。。。
累了，烦了，没有力了，也没有勇气了。。。。。
不要再问我，我分不清。。。
算了，别再评价人了。。。。。。。
友谊会因而淡的。。。。。。。。。。
只是凭知觉吧！彭嘉嘉！清醒吧！这里没有人关心你的，都是怀有心机，别再笨笨的被他们骗了。。。。。别再受他人影响，做回你自己！或许，那是更好的解决方法。。。。。
今天真的很心痛，不被理解，不被重视，不被肯定。。。。
你们到底当我是什么？？？？？
只是救生圈吗？？？？
我可是真心付出的。。。。。。。
白费了。。。。没了。。。。。
既然都是假惺惺。。。。那就看吧！谁才是赢家。。。。。。。

无话可说。。。。

其实，我一直以为自己很了解朋友的。。。。。
现在才发现我错了。。。。大错特错。。。。
我根本不了解他们，我看。。。没有一个朋友是我真正了解的。。。怎么办？？？？？
自作聪明。。。。死了。。。。这次，我输得很惨。。。。
输到我不懂自己输什么。。。。我。。。。真得很没用。。。。
为什么所有事情不能像我想象一样发生？？？？？
难道我真的猜错了？？？？
为什么会是这样子的？？？？？
现在，我的脑海只有问号。。。
好多疑问。。。。。
谁能替我解开呢？？？？

haizzz.....very boring o....
my friends all having their own life already~~~~ haha^^
maybe just left me alone only..... haizzz...... feel a bit sad o.....
but really happy for them too...i'm glad if i can help them solving such this problem....
i hope i can do it.... really~

happy happy and happy...
i like my classmates soooooo much!!!!!
now and.....forever!
suddenly feel very warm and nice being in this class....
having very good friends....talkative friends, friends who can share secret with you....
i like the feeling you know?
hopes.....we will get together no matter what is happening.....
friends like family.....~
i always think like that~

Having a great great time at butterworth...
haha^^ watching such "horror" and "scary" movie....OMG! actually not horror at all@@
but, this is my first time go out with Catty after many many times we have planned it....haha^^
Finally la! but a bit shy la course she is going with her future boyfriend ma.....he is a nice guy o... treat her very nice, just the time factor and courage only left...
Catty said wanna heard him said he love her face to face then only can get in a real relationship....
haha^^ what a relationship! if you didn't know it, you may guess they have been together already, same like me.....
when can i get a nice person arhhh????
just explore first, i'm sure i will find it soon...
can i get what i hope for? to get a real relationship before i turned older, 19 years old...
i hope my 18 year will give me a nice and sweet memory, no matter with family, friends or a lover...
although can't get together in long period but i also hope that i can enjoy this 18 moment, i am trying~ enjoying it, clubbing, shopping, knowing more friends, knowing more about my classmates, make my life full of event.....
very nice man! maybe one day when i recall it back i will not regret it, because i have done what i should do for this moment....
middle of April......still have 8 month i will not 18 more.....
use this 8 months wisely.....explore more!

what is the real feeling when you fall in love with somebody???
actually i haven't fell in love yet, but i wonder how it feels...
suddenly wanna try to make myself have this feeling, sure very interesting right?
fall in love, like somebody, what is the difference inside????
we must go explore more to make ourself more understand about this feel, explore and explore...
one more time, we must have the right to choose what we like and what we want, nobody can stop us.....
waiting, next week sure all of us will have fun, haha^^
it's time to go cameron!!!!
this is my first time to go there, sure it will be fun^^

sienzzz...
but it works.....just now not stay at home till an hour, i go out with my friends already ...
haha^^
actually is damn tired but i think it worth....
don't know when can i meet them again.....
haha^^
having a very great time in station 1.....listening to the music....nice~
sure very enjoying this type of lifestyle.....
tomorrow will go to watch the thai scary movie at 1am......oh no....
sure very scary.....
must be prepare for that, if not.......die....
shouthing voice sure will be heard by tomorrow....haha^^

worry~~

just sometimes maybe i'm too sensitive, something is different by now....
actually i don't know what is the differences....
trust the wrong person really can make us lose everything, honestly.....i afraid of that...
lonely, no friends.... i hate that feeling, so i always try mt best to make friend with all the people especially my classmates.....hope they will not hate me.....@@
i scared that someday i will hurt them, my lovely classmates....
because of i like gambling, playing, loafing, talking, gossiping and many negative things.....
is there someone who hates me? gossiping about me?
hopes that i can disapear in their life??? i very afraid....
actually just because of some small matter will also make me think too much.....
i'm not the most important person, i know nothing, i'm not good in socializing......i....
maybe i just try to entertain all of you, maybe something will make you all hurt or hate...
but, i just wanna make all of you happy, please don't blame me.....
sorry my friends if i have said something i shouldn't say.......
please accept my apologize.....

down....

see all tghe people have their own couple, my heart suddenly feel very down, iu als don't know why i have this feeling, i shouldn't have this feeling, i should be happy for they all....
how about me???
if they all have their couple and then ignored me, i will be the poorest person in the class, seeing all my classmates own their lover and get together...
actually sometimes i'm not quite happy la, i will be lonely soon.....hehe~~~~
hope they all will appreciate what i have done for them so i will not be lonely after this semester....
cause i really scared the feeling of being alone....
haha~
anyway, congrats to all of them and i will also happy if you all can get a good realtionship~

我真的很啰嗦。。。。。
哈哈~讲这个讲那个的。。。。。
唉。。。。。
不想让他们向我一样而已。。。。。。
跟不上对方的脚步。。。。很辛苦的。。。。
累累累~
最近都没有什么新歌。。。。。
有点累。。。。

boiring boring and boring....
suddenly don't know what to do.....
onlining, fbing, msning....then nothing....
please.....i don't want to live in such boring place...
give me some fun, some joy, something can impress me.....
if not, i'm sure i will boring until die already~
God please help me make my life more enjoying and exciting.....
By this time, i can just asking God to save me...
i have nothing to do......
very boring life.....

甜蜜？

今天终于看到了班上的第一对。。。。好甜蜜哦~
哇。。。。。在这里衷心的祝福他们天长地久。。。。
太可爱了！哈哈~
突然很渴望谈恋爱。。。。一定很好玩的。。。。。
只是之前谈过一次短暂的，好希望让我有一次好好谈恋爱的机会。。。。。
我会好好珍惜的~~~~
看到他们那么甜蜜真是羡慕死人了。。。。。
期待下一对的出现。。。。。哈哈哈~
直觉告诉我。。。。。他们要出现了！只是不懂是哪一对而已~
班上同学都迎来桃花运了。。。。。真替他们开心。。。。
自己呢？耐心的等吧。。。。
因为爱情~就像魔术。。。。来时大家都抵挡不了。。。。。
去时也没人挡得了。。。。。。
唉。。。。。。

wa...suprise!!!

wow, i can't believe what i am hearing about this few days, espacially these few weeks....
feels like....Boom^^
haha~ Glad to see them...hehe,you all know la, no need to explain more about it.
haha....don't know how to say, hope all will be stable, nice, good....
actually, really don't know how to.....
Oh My God!
what a day! what a week! what a sweet moment!
i'm always happy to see all my friends have their couple, someimes i will be jealous because i haven't met anyone who can give me the "feel". Even if i have met, it also not last longer......
but, i always glad for them who has found their lover, really...time can change everything, i knew it and i agreed about it....
time....can change many things...
it takes my feeling deeper and deeper, and i can also make it disapear.....^^
don't know why but i very happy this week although it's a busy and tiring week......
sweet moment for they all.....
~ what i have predicted before have became true~
~ good! ~

sienzzz..

本来以为。。。可以轻轻松松了。。。。
但。。。。突然间好多东西要做。。。透不过气了。。。
我真的好累好累。。。。可以不要再这样对我吗？？？？
可以让我开心点吗？？？？？
我想去玩，去旅行。。。。。不想再做这些东西了。。。。
为什么？在这儿竟然是那么的累？？？？
透不过气了。。。又跟我讲有书法班。。。。
我想睡了。。。。。。。
累累累！！！！！！！！
我。。。。要倒了。。。。。
好累好累。。。。。
我想休息。。。。。。。
真的。。。累

Publish Post

了~~~~~~~

爽~

这几天真的很爽。。。。。
跟朋友去槟城。。。。玩得很痛快。。。。
很开心。。。。开怀。。。。
也让我更了解班上的人。。。。
也让我感到蛮欣慰的。。。。。哈哈~
真的很怀念。。。。。。
我好想好想。。。。重回这种感觉。。。。
可以再让我们班有如此一聚吗？？？？？？
非常非常希望大家能够再一聚。。。。
哈哈哈哈哈~~~

了解？

唉。。。。
转眼间，十点多了。。。。
时间为何过得那么快？？？？
可以慢点吗？
我快要跟不上了。。。。
好苦哦。。。。。
开始对自己不是很了解。。。。
好像什么事都不满足的。。。。
好的，坏的，都在埋怨。。。。
唉。。。。。。。
到底要我怎样？

自卑

不知为什么，读了浩严的部落格后又种失落感，他们。。。。。
简直是。。太太太太太勤劳了。。。。
的确应该留在这里。。。而我呢？
我什么都不是，整天在想用最快的速度赶完课业。。。。
根本没想什么，最重要是赶完了。。。。。
几时会想到我作对吗？要纠正吗？可以吗？跟其他人一样吗？
我没想太多，最重要是做完了。。。。松了。。。。
唉。。。。。。
我知道不该这样想，这就是我啊！改不掉的。。。。
对不起~ ~ ~
有时不是简单就好嘛？ 为什么将事情搞到那么复杂？
我讨厌自己为了别人而改变。。。我也不会不会不会。。。。。
为了别人而改变~ ~ ~
不好意思，要将我懒惰，没用，没出息，无药可救，
我可以接受。。。。。。
看来。。。。我是绝对不会改变我的风格的。。。。
想改变我的人，抱歉了。。。。

mistake?

我不知道这样做对不对~还是博一博吧！我真的很累，很累，非常的累。。。。。。
心里很不舒服，很辛苦，谁能救救我？
透不过气的感觉真不好~ 被人当救生圈的感觉更不好~
如果是这样，我宁愿没朋友~ 要一个真心的朋友真的那么难吗？
我不明白为什么？为什么我就是这样？
唉，所有事情都有它的尽头。。。。。几时才是？我等得好苦。。。。可以尽快结束吗？
胡思乱想对谁都不好。。。。
这些事只能默默地埋在内心的深处。。。埋到几时？
谁能告诉我？ 我到底还要等多久？
直到我死？ 一生一世？哇。。。。。
等不到？
总之，一切都不完美，不长久，我不会期待，不会等待，永远都不会。。。。
我才没那么笨！
够了，我真的受够了。。。。
要善待自己。。。别再做令自己痛苦的事。。。。

haizz......

meet you again.....

blogger~ made me sick~

don't know what am i talk about right now~

poor~

the weird thing is~~~~~~ i am very tired than ever~

why is it hard for me to continue fighting?

suddenly hopes that i can quickly find a couple so i can really date for a long time~

maybe it just my dream and maybe it will as what i'm wished~

i hope so~

no need to understand what i'm trying to write, cause myself can't also understand myself~

sincerely, i don't know what i want~

i want...................

今天决定剪了那个难搞的头发，整个人松了很多~哇。。。。。
对自己的新发型也蛮满意的。。。。。只是要留长的或，要等很久了。。。。
今天听到爸妈在讨论拥有自己家的事，哇。。。。。
真希望真的成功地买到那屋子，那。。。。。我们再也不用天天为根本不属于自己的房子还钱了。。。。
真希望是真的，最重要能够搬到靠近他那儿。。。。哈哈~
这应该是好心有好报吧！
爸爸做了许多好事，最后终于有人珍惜了。。。。。^^
真的替爸爸感到开心，
这房子的价钱可以疯到很高的，但那人念在我爸对他的情谊上算了很便宜。。。。
哈哈~
希望这单交易能成功~我们就不再搬来搬去了。。。。
有个固定的家。。。。
听爸妈讲得那么开心，真的很希望会成功。。。。
我一定会帮他们分担的。。。。
五年后，为了你们，我一定会撑的。。。。。
让你们能够安享晚年，不必再劳碌。。。。
哈哈~~~
看着他们天天那么辛苦，自己又不争气，天天向他们要钱，明知他们也不好过。。。。。
他们还是掏开腰包， 拿钱给我。。。。。
想到这点，真希望自己快快毕业~
不可以让他们在受苦~
五年，很容易过的。。。。。
我一定要挨过。。。。。

wow..... many things to rush out until i have a long time didn't leave a post at here already~~~
many things i have experienced recently, running 2.4km....wow,.....damn hard....
physical test......sit-up,......
oh my god, last week is like a devil for me.....all things not going well, my computer can't open, all things no backup, all gone.....need to do it again, it just like i'm deserved to be such person who will do the work at last minute, you see!
so i will do it if i'm deserved to be like this, no need too hardworking la....
wow, don't talk about the bad thing, because i'm soooooo excited today, first time ever will feel such excited, all england semi final, f1 first qualifying by seeing schumacher coming back again! oHHHHH! awesome! can;t wait to watch it, it just like everything had changed.....many new racing team, wow!!!!
can't wait to watch it...

wedding dress.....suddenly become my favourite song.......
i like it so muchhhhhh.... when i watch the mv really got some touching.......
好像有种爱人结婚了，新郎不是我的感觉。。。。哇。。。。
这也令我开始喜欢上太阳的歌了。。。。。。
真的很好听，对一个一直听英文歌的人来说。。。。。真的很难得，对吗？？？
每次听这首歌都有很多感触。。。。。。
想了很多事。。。。。当然有好有坏，
不懂。。。。。。就是。。。。。感觉很怪。。。。。
唉。。。对一个从没拍过拖。。。。正式拍拖的人是很难了解的。。。。
我？？？？ 到底是怎么样的人？？？？
有时很迷茫。。。。在那么大，那么复杂的世界寻找自我。。。。难， 很难。。。。
我想找，。。。
我？跑去了哪里？
我的尊严，我的特点，我的喜好。。。。
我的一切，
不可说我自私，人的本性就是如此。。。。。
我想不必想太多，但事与愿违。。。。
越不想就越想。。。。。。
算了吧。。。。。。。
别计较太多，别想太多。。。。。。
但还是不知觉的想了，。。。。
我已迷失了？？？？？？
去了哪里？？？？
在找着。。。。。。。。。。。。
沉思着。。。。。。。。。。。。
告诉你吧！很多事已忍无可忍了。。。。
班上有点怪的气氛。。。。。。。。
让我觉得好不舒服哦。。。。。。。
或许我不适合当老师。。。。。。
或许我不该离乡来到这儿。。。。。
但。。。。。
都已来了。。。。。。就要开始习惯。。。。
为什么我需要花那么多时间习惯呢？？？？？？？？？
当我们想念远方的人时，不由自觉地会胡思乱想。。。。。
我就是在胡思乱想。。。。。。。。
想着。。。。。^^

sad again~

it suposed to be very excited about the new year festival today, but why i can't even think about it .....the sadness which you all sure can't feel about....i was wondering what was happened to me recently?????
just.........something disturb me. no body will care about it, about me, about what i'm feeling......
you know? this istitution made me felt like oh damn! can't imagine......sick......
headache, sadness, all started to appear on my mind.......
what the hell? why????? i always be the weakest and the most unimportant, if is like that, please you all, no need me as the joker you all can also alive....please, let me go~~~~~
this will make me more suffer, i hate that! i hate that!
nothing to feel happy in this place.... My God! please bring me away from this! please...i'm bagging you @@.....
i will not longer stand at this place and act like nothing is happen.....
laugh happily always......ya i'm very happy with some of them in our class, made our class fun and full of joy! without them, i think i can't survive in this class.....
and one more, trustworthy friend......i'm not happy.....you will help me....thanks sooooo much....
i think i will try to stand off.......acting, cause you all also acting in front of me, why i must be the stupid person who treat you all better? no way!
no mood to perform now.......low.......
sorry if i'm not performing well today because i can't!
nothing made me to smile facing audience.....nothing, not at all.....
p/s: sometimes you say other person but you didn't mention that you are sucks than they all!

shocked!

wa liao....怎么也不肯相信自己听到的。。。。
他。。。就这样走了。。。。。。
前天才讲到他有多可爱。。。。。
哇。。。。真的被吓倒了。。。。
有点想哭。。。。

对不起。。。。我不能出席聚会。。。。
我很想去，但却担心。。。。
要开课了，什么都没做。。。。都不知道他们会怎样对付我叻。。。。。
该怎么开口说：“不好意思，我在这假期只顾着玩，没动到功课。。。。”
他们真的给了我很多压力。。。。。。
太勤劳了。。。。唉~
真奇怪自己为什么有时间去玩。。。。甚至写小说（写爽）。。。。
却不去动那些课业。。。。。
没办法~我就是我。。。。。
觉得他们很倒霉和我同组。。。。。我也不想。。。。
一直讲人懒惰。。。。其实最懒惰的是自己~~~哈哈。。。。
加油吧！

......

我真的开始不了解我自己了。。。。。。
不知不觉又去看回一个已和我一点关系都没的人的档案。。。。。。
很怪。。。。。对她的东西感兴趣。。。。。
就只因为她是你喜欢的人成曾喜欢的那个。。。。。
她和他。。。。根本不可能了。。。。。。
她已有了另一个。。。。他？？？？？
不懂他在想什么。。。。。
不懂为何，就是不喜欢她。。。。
不是吃醋，只是不爽她对他的态度。。。。。差到~~~~
他的内心应该还忘不了她吧。。。。毕竟伤得太深了。。。。。
只要钱。。。。向“钱”看齐。。。。。
haizz。。。。。
习惯就好~习惯就好~ 我也不懂几时又变回这样子。。。。。。。
哇~~~~~~~~烦死人了！！！！！！！
突然很想那帅哥。。。。。。。。。真的很帅。。。。。
今天和一些很久没见的朋友玩真心话大冒险。。。。。
其实一些只是第一次见面罢了。。。。。
向不熟的人讲秘密。。。。很怪~
也因如此知道了原来一个好朋友曾拍过拖。。。。
从中二到中五。。。。。。哇料！
我们竟没一个人知道。。。。。
她可瞒了好久噢。。。。。佩服。。。。。。
之后，一个朋友突然问了一个不知怎么回答的问题。。。。。。。。
你曾喜欢过你朋友的男友吗？？？？？？ 我有吗？？？？？
我承认。。。。。。曾经。。。。喜欢别人的男友。。。。。。。。
该不算是朋友吧。。。。。
当时都对他不太了解。。。。谁知他已有女友？？？？
他也向我表白啊！
都已很久了。。。。。但一个问题却令我想起。。。。。
要见回小学同学了。。。。。
好期待见到xxx........
不知他们还会认得我吗？？？？？？？？？？
不知会有话题讲吗？？？？？？？

one more day gone already... suddenly realised the time passes so fast lol....
haizzz.... why? when we suffering for our assignments, it passes slowly, but when we are enjoying in our hometown, it just passed...... day by day.....
hate this!
so miracle i didn't go out whereas my sister went for a party... haizz....so pity, i just staying at home, blogging and watching movie only.....so boring!
.............................................................................
don't know wanna write what....

second day~

it can say that a great day, i mean yesterday~
but a little bit bored.... don't know why today didn't go outing....
haizzz.... so boring.....
hopes that my friends will come and fetch me out, cause i'm now really boring....
still wonder why the whether is damn hot during last few days..... very hot!
until need to go bath many times.....
hotttttttttt! this is what no good about sp.... everything is better....

boring o~

dear, once again..... boring....
suddenly......he sms me, we had a long period not contact already....
when i come back sp, everything is like wanna repeat..... keep on repeating....wow~
very boring, i reallt think everything wanna repeat back already...
glad to hear that my sister got her little fans already....one more thing, she become pretier with her hair staightened.....^^
wanna change my hairstyle but still can't decide if i wanna go cut it or leave it....
hearing jj lim's song, meanful..... like many feeling come back....feel better, more feeling...
unlike at institution, very boring......everyday assignments....presentations.....gerko......exams....
back to my hometown really can make me relax......^^
facebooking, msning, blogging, smsing, this what i do when i back here....
funny right? this can be also boring but.... i like it.....
hearing songs......i like it.....
smsing with him......damn like it (although a little bit bored).....
msning with friends.....
btw, by this time i don't want think about it already just hope that this week can pass slowly.......
i don't want to get back to reality soooooo fast^^
please,.....

damn...

suddenly feel a little bit moody, i think my friends all become further and further from a day by a day.....far away....... suddenly fell weird.... very weird...... some people began doing such boilkot....stupid! i hate this.... really....
but i still want to be myself, stay the way i am,...... no matter who wanna say something no good about me, i can stand still.... without worries....^^
it cannot disturd my feeling of excited cause i wanna meet with my primary's friends already.... very happy la....haha~ but a bit nervous and scared.... how are they now? what are they doing? studying where? i wanna know all these.....
but for sure i'm not the popular among them.... just like a suppoting character only.....
wow...... a lot of assignments waiting for me.......scared i can't do it.... what should i do?????

haha~ not more than 15 hours... i will be back....
wa.... feeling great...
besides that, we will celebrate three febuary's baby birth later, can play fireworks lol...
haha~^^
nice~~~
i think today i smile the most....... very happy.... meet.....^^
reunion is great and awesome!!!!! i like it^^
wow....
can't wait.....

CNY^^

wa.....真的要说时间过得真快~
这么样就二月了。。。。。新年了~
要说时间不够，忙到半死。。。。。
没用~只能争取时间~唉~~~~
好多课业等着我们呢！真的会忙到半死的。。。。。
轻松的日子为何那么快结束。。。。。
真希望能一直停留在农历新年那儿。。。。。
哈哈~应该是不太可能吧。。。。。
跟朋友亲戚相逢。。。。。这是最特别的一次。。。。
现在是所有人等待你回去。。。。。真的很特别~
真想念那儿的朋友~

Once again i'm going out, i feel that recently i always go outing lol.....haha~ It's quite fun can watch movie at midnight. What i could not expect is the ticket's price is nearly twice as the usual. I can understand it. It's weekend. i Forgot about it until i'm showing my student card to the ticket counter... haha~ is ok. the important thing is i'm enjoying....
i have started to watch movie at cinema recently, and almost once a week.....
Many homework that i didn't finish yet, still got many presentations to do.....
i think it's gonna be a busy week for me....
but luckily i will go back home at this Friday......
waiting for this moment^^

let's boom the music!

very bad mood recently, maybe is because of homesick or may be not.....
papa mami, sis, bro.....miss you all sooooo much~~~~~
another fact is, i feel some people like"跟屁狗"feel very geram lol.........
don't know who shall i trust and say all the things right now.....
feel unsafe at anywhere......
can i trust you????? this is all i can say@@
feel confused and down, lost direction.....
i wannna come home! go back home! tell everything, my unhappiness to my family.....
my beloved papa, mami, sis and bro....they're only person wh i can trust right now....
really~~~~~
maybe i'm too hot-tempered or i start to feel bore about all those thing.....
become a bad person~~~~~ ya! that's my motive~ a way for me to escape everything.....
can i do it?
i don't know....

stupid~

今天的我真的很笨~
非常地笨~笨到。。。。不能讲。。
提呈西游记时忘了讲明好多好多东西~
唉~老了~老了~
练习体操~更丢脸~
为什么？那么简单的动作我却做不好？？？？
我很尽力地去练~但还是徒劳无功~还是不行....
不行就是不行。。。。。。 只让人家有机会嘲笑你一番。。。。。
真是不值~真的很不爽~ 那些瞧不起人的眼光~怕人害他输的眼光~
我只能一个人默默地承受~ 真的好怕。。。。。。
还好有些真的很好的朋友~愿意陪我做~
愿意教我......当时真的很感动@@
我会努力的。。。 不会让他们瞧不起我。。。。。
一个动作不行不代表所有动作都不行~ 我能的！
是个女生内我是最差，最懒的~ 真怕会连累他们。。。。。真心对我的朋友~
开了一个会议，女生会议。。。。讲了很多东西~
原来我又做了一个超级笨蛋的事~
那些留言是针对我们而来的~我竟去。。。。。。
haizz。。。。。。只能怪自己太笨了~

friend????

朋友？什么人才是。。。。才值得配得起这个称呼？？？？
到底是怎样的人才能真正当我一辈子的知心朋友？？？？
想当初我曾经真心地对待一个朋友。。。。
换回来的是他们的背叛。。。。
曾经很想很想疯狂的和朋友在一起玩乐，。。。。
到最后才晓得他们只是想利用你。。。。
朋友们！你们是否与我有此同感？？？？
真正与他们交心时。。。。换来他们的忽略。。。。
换来他们的瞧不起。。。。。
换来他们玩弄你的心灵。。。。。
换来他们嘲笑。。。。
当他们需要你来当档箭盘时，
就会无比地接近你。。。。。。。
问你一声：“你还好吗？不好意思然你误会了。。。。^^”
假到要死！难道不能对人真心点吗？？？？
这让你我他都很难受。。。。。。。。。
拜托：如果真正有什么不爽请说出来。。。。。。。。
不要让误会加深，解释清楚。。。。。
让他了解，再见还是“朋友”。。。。。
在这想向大家澄清主角不是我。。。。。
只是不想，或许是不能看到别人对待朋友的心灵吧！
希望你们能像我一样，真心对待朋友。。。。。
他们毕竟得陪你们度过所有风风雨雨，
少了他们，你少了乐趣。。。。。
少了快乐的人生，
也因为如此，我付出我的真心对待朋友。。。。。
希望不会换来他们。。。。。。。。
种种的不好。。。。。
朋友，交得有意思才叫好朋友！
我恨庆幸有一堆好朋友。。。。。
也失望曾经交过伤害我的朋友，
真心点。。。。。。朋友~

Going to be crazy!

you all will never expect what i'm doing for this few days!
debate debate and debate!
wakakakaakakakaka~
it's quite fun too for me, for sure it is very tired week~
you would not even expect where i am now.... go playing and hanging out at a place~ haha~
quite dangerous for me.....^^
it's challenging man! i am going to work lol at ipoh......
learn something new at here^^
but today not started yet~ maybe tomorrow or not... but is okay course i'm going out and stay outside^^ good^^
something disturbing me a lot right now~ why i can't stand for a friendship or any relationship for about forever????? i just wonder~
like all my friends can't hang with me long time,.... we all will go to have a conflict each other....
why can't we turn back all the times to the past????
we hang out happily together and always having fun.....
i like the feel when we all still talk to each other without wonder.....
okay, stop talking about that~
i think it's gonna be awesome when chinese new year!
still waiting for it~ got two weeks to go.......

mad~

i feel i'm gonna be mad already!!!!!
真的真的不能再忍受了！！！！！
这是什么朋友来的？？？？？
如果我在讲下去，恐怕就要发火了！！！！！
我很火！真的无法忍受天天“中枪”的感觉。。。。。
我会死的。。。。。
在这样下去，我真的会死的！！！！！
现在连broadband也要玩弄我。。。。。。
一直disconnect!
我真的快要发疯了！！！！！！

心动？？？

我到底是不是心动了？
一个接近完美的男生出现在我面前。。。。
真叫人心动。。。。
但是，我。。。。
如果真的这么容易心动，怎么爱一个人？？？
你曾经无不提起另外一个他。。。。
现在却那么容易心动。。。
彭嘉嘉！你干嘛那么花心的？？？？
不可以那么容易动摇。。。。
难道你忘了吗？？？？
这个人曾经伤过你，
就算他有多么的完美，也没用。。。。
毕竟他曾经伤过你。。。。
不算伤啦。。。。
他真的接近十全十美了。。。
会弹钢琴，会跳街舞。。。。
会打篮球，羽球。。。。
不错。。。。
嗨。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
人算不如天算，
一切随缘吧！
如果他真的要牵我手，我不会拒绝的。。。
因为你有令我心动，
虽然你不是，
我心中的那一个他。。。。。
我在尽力。。。。。接受你，
忘记他。。。。
加油！！！！！
心动是件好事^^

hang out

actually hang out is very very nice for we all..... but.....^^ you know.
sometimes not going out with all people together is the best......
wanna go out just a few of us, don't want a group, too many people and it will also make us go to a place seperately.....=(
i don't like that, if wanna go out together, can we just go together at every place? hate the feel when seperate.....
boring o.... everyday wants to do the same thing...... i am dying~
that's not the life i want~~~no!!!!!
everyday facebook.......blogging, wow damn bore!
i hope there can be more entertain thing happen in my life......
listening to music now........
am i gonna spend my 18th life at here?????

Debate

wow~ full released~ finally it is over!i can sleep early today already~
hehe~ very happy that i have done all this thing, now i can rest well...
feel like lazy to do research for another round already.... sometimes got a little bit feel like wanna lose la.....
haha~ no need to ready for other tittle... no need to let my hand shake.... very hard you know?
very tired to fight this and that you know?
haizzz..... just let myself more busy only.......
don't think and stop think about it! haha~~~
so boring o~~~~still wanna training for senior to see...... damn it! sure will been shooted until......
i should be ready for that~ if not,.... don't know what will happen to me later~
just sing it perform it with no regret! haha~ chia, i know you can do it....
hope i can do it^^
some problem may happen tomorrow..........
hopes that i'm wrong, hopes that there's nothing happen@@
just knowing maybe my ex admirer.... don't know why, feel he is very optimist in his life....
he learn piano, breakdance.... wow! suddenly feel he is very good! don't know he can be that good before~
before that just like a naughty boy who loves to play basketball and badminton.... sporty.... why he change himself to such gentleman already????
wow~ people can change.....

Eat! Eat! Eat!

just "sapu" finish all the food or maybe can be said as supper~ wow, very full now! hehe~
finishing traning for singing performance.... like hell man! always train until 9 something, i wanna die already la!!!!! no voice, no energy and still got many works to do....
debate debate! why all people feel so stressful??? i wonder if i too strict at that time... many people feel stress o~
lol~~~i make people become so stress....
haizzz.... don't what i'm doing now... why i feel so stress o? i mean i feel i make people stress...
actually i don't want to do so....
suddenly,i realised a facts.....
if this world didn't get a bad person, there will not be a good person, for sure there will not!
so, i prefer to be a bad person neither a good person to give the opportunity to those people who wants to be a good person^^
i'm still learning to become a bad person.... i want to....
maybe become a bad person will maje me feel better....
sometimes people may not appreciated what you're doing......
so something that hurt them may raise their attention....
bad girl may be a good choice.....
but not bad at all.... just sometimes.....

今天可以说是蛮倒霉的一天了，哈哈~
一大早醒来— -是下午了。。。。做了测验，唉~ 才两巴仙罢了！今天一定很难过。。。果然！
爸爸叫我如真的要节省开支就不必去剪头发了。。。+.+已计划久了的剪头发计划又要泡汤了！
我已蛮久没修头发了叻！有点不爽。。。
哎~ 之后上网时又遇不到一些谈得来的朋友，真不懂当时他们去了哪里叻！
等了很久还是没有。。。
只好自己乱乱comment人咯。。。。
他没上网。。。。 我真的放弃了。。。。
看到他很幸福，自己也蛮开心的。。。。
虽然还会有点遗憾，但还是算了吧！
还是将这心思花在我的朋友以及关心我的人，可能会更好。。。
对所有人都很好！
电话又没钱了啦！气死人了！！！！ 每次都这样。。。
不知不觉用完钱了。。。。
真的很担心星期一咯。。。。 体育，篮球。。。。
我一定半条命的！！！
还是一整天上课叻！不累死才怪！
我真是个把半途而废的人叻！功课做到一半罢了。。。 又将它丢在一边了。。。。
又要等回去才做。。。。
妈妈又无端端被人抢劫。。。。。幸好没事罢了。。。。
开始担心妈妈的安危了。。。。好怕~好怕~
这次没事，那下一次呢？
我很怕。。。。
天天要过那马路。。。。 真的很危险。。。。
这次只抢到一包油罢了~
你能保证没有下一次吗？？？？？？
只出外读书半年罢了。。。。 家里就发生了很多事。。。。
真的很不安心。。。。
爸爸，妈妈，大姐，嘉微，运宏，运健。。。。
可以答应我。。。。
不要有事吗？？？？？
我真的很怕~~~~~

boring@@

wa.... just doing my luck test... damn dissapointed! just got 2 % only! lolzz.....
haizzz....
how i'm gonna spend this day o? downloading many new songs right now, nothing to do....
i think i'm not cuting my hair already, let it be long...
still very confused, money matter!
i feel i waste soooo many money already! how am i gonna cut the saving?
luckily i heard a good news that i will not pay to buy a new basketball! haha~
this is the most happiest thing i heard today....

Damn bore...

somebody wanna go out! i am very boiring + tired now! damn it! still don't understand something...
i think day by day passed through, i have bored about my life at ipoh.... now i coming back to sp, but still bored with my life...i think i'm getting far away from all my friends... don't know why...
i told myself not to gossip people anymore, i really can held it??? i don't know but all i know i will try.....
people always say when i shoot people make people hurt, is it true?
i know this may make people feel unhappy to hang out with me, but what i'm shooting is just wanna entertain you all only! amke all people laugh and happy, that's my opportunity....
feel a little bit low, need to buy a basketball for Rm35! what the ****! i wanna bankrap already if still like that......=(
not enough money lol...come on! can you tell what can i do to control my savings cuz i really wanna get mad already! RM200 have been wasted just 2 weeks..... wow!
too much for me!.......
now, pay this and that i really wanna get mad liao o....
pj, basketball all come right through for a day! i can't breathe! an hour to rest only then wanna go practise singing!
i really tired if things still go like that!
OMG! can you let this sem passed through fast a bit?????????

and it feels like.....

leann rimes song...suddenly listening to that song and feel very good, nice.... slow and comfortable to hear.....
sometimes the old thing may not be the bad thing, for example this old song(actually not that old la... just for me it can be considered as old only) actually is very comfort to hear that sometimes.... so i have realised something from this song, old thing not suposed to be a bad thing!
sometimes i still wonder about something that happened long long time ago.....
think about it....... regret? i don't think so. i would not regret with what i do long time ago.... no way!
i knew that people always blame this and that and sometimes feel regret with what they do..... but i think sometimes we can't blame all this thing because we have did it and this thing had happened already.... just forget it and take it easy!
even though i talk like that, but also got something that i feel regret after doing it...like not study well before or.... miss someone that might be mine if i want it...
but after a long thought, i wanna let it go and i have learned to let the things go...
it is happen already and the time has passed already, if we feel regret also not use at all....
actually i think that my my patience got its limit and i hate someone shoot me at the back...
i know someone have done it i can feel it. i just wanna tell that i hate all this thing, if got anything, just tell the truth! no need to hide!
hiding your feeling is actually a stupid and childish act! please... wake up man! you wanna step up to19 already, still act like a little girl??? OMG!
i wonder why they still can act like a child, gossip this and gossip that.... haizzz....
my friend! just tell face to face! we still got five years to study at the same class, so no need to hide this hide that, boikot this boikot that, betray him or her.... no use....
it can make yourself been hated only~
think wisely....

又再徘徊到这里，
很奇怪对吗？
我又用华语了。。。。。。
因为一时想不出要怎样用英文表达我的心意，
我很痛苦。。。
要上课又要学唱歌，
突然很想远方的父母。。。。
今天打给妈咪。。。
差点哭了。。。
很想她那唠叨的模样。。。。
虽然很烦，哈哈。。。
因为想睡多几下嘛。。。。
妈妈煮的菜。。。。
超级棒！
荷包蛋也特别好吃！
爸爸更不必说。。。。
更加好吃！
呵呵~
爸爸的肉骨茶，哇。。。。。。
要流口水了。。。。
我要回家！
这个星期再次打破諾言。。。。
本来答应了。。。
要等新年再回去。。。
现在？
还是离不开家。。。。。。。
爸妈！
微，宏，健！
大姐！
我回来了！
^^

playing badminton for an hour and more! i did it! just because wanna train my stamina so i can pass through Gerko and pj test....
hehe~ something that really made me happy the most is finally!!!!! i can go back to my home.... hahahahahaha~ thanks cherry cuz willing to fetch me back.... haha~ thanks soooooo much!
i miss my sister, papa, mami, wei, hon and jian.... glad to meet you all back.... i'm so happy la....
hehe^^
i think i will sleep at my beloved room for a whole day....
cuz need to wait a month more to go back already~

so sad lolzzz.....
why today everything can't go well ???????
firstly, first time meet one of our chinese lecturer, damn "pandai' shooting people....
haiyooooo.....say what sp people mostly wanna married with malay! stupid! damn it! why just place all the things to sp people nia?????? not all sp people wanna go in islamic religion la.... for sure i'm not like that! haha~
then, pj....... the subject that i most hate.... wow, luckily didn't got any fitness test yet, but after lecturer had mentioned what we must do for this sem, i feel wanna die already!!!!!
2.4km!!!!!!! can i finish it? by running? walking? or "pengsan" at the halfway????
i can't imagine it already.....
haizzz....
the most sad thing is i don't wanna "kena' basketball but bullshit!!!! i got it as my this semester Gerko!!!! wow!!!! lolzzzz.... half year lol....... how can i getting through?
one more thing, he crush with another girl already.... so fast....
this made me very sad and feel like losing something@@.... wanna cry now!!!!
but i have made decision to forget him so just wish him good luck.....
the last thing.... the lowest mark among first intake girls in our class... what the~~~~
feel not very happy although i have statisfied with my result already....
but still got a little bit feel sad because my friends all got better than me ma.....
haizzzz...... let it go la....
the exam is over, most important thing is we had pass!!!
^^ cheer it up!

so sad lolzzz.....
why today everything can't go well ???????
firstly, first time meet one of our chinese lecturer, damn "pandai' shooting people....
haiyooooo.....say what sp people mostly wanna married with malay! stupid! damn it! why just place all the things to sp people nia?????? not all sp people wanna go in islamic religion la.... for sure i'm not like that! haha~
then, pj....... the subject that i most hate.... wow, luckily didn't got any fitness test yet, but after lecturer had mentioned what we must do for this sem, i feel wanna die already!!!!!
2.4km!!!!!!! can i finish it? by running? walking? or "pengsan" at the halfway????
i can't imagine it already.....
haizzz....
the most sad thing is i don't wanna "kena' basketball but bullshit!!!! i got it as my this semester Gerko!!!! wow!!!! lolzzzz.... half year lol....... how can i getting through?
one more thing, he crush with another girl already.... so fast....
this made me very sad and feel like losing something@@.... wanna cry now!!!!
but i have made decision to forget him so just wish him good luck.....
the last thing.... the lowest mark among first intake girls in our class... what the~~~~
feel not very happy although i have statisfied with my result already....
but still got a little bit feel sad because my friends all got better than me ma.....
haizzzz...... let it go la....
the exam is over, most important thing is we had pass!!!
^^ cheer it up!

this maybe is my first time using chinese language to finish up this little post.....
有一个人，他的一举一动，他的某某动作，
在此已深深影响了我，我不懂为何，也不懂从几时开始，
他出现在我的小小日记里，
他慢慢的占据了我的部落格，也占据了我的心，
奇怪对吗？
我一向来都藏着我的心意，
但这一次真的不同，
他与众不同，虽然长得不像洋人歌手，洋人演员，
但他却成功引起我的注意，
让我不知不觉把注意力转向他，
望着他，我心跳加速，全身发热，甚至窒息，
我变得有点吞吞吐吐，
当我面对他，心中会有一丝兴奋，
这种感觉是我人生第一次拥有而已。。。。
一见到他，我会有种兴奋的感觉，
见不到他，心中往往会有一点失落，
眼神不知不觉射向他，
有时候，他也望过来时，自然而然感到开心。。。。
有时候觉得蛮丢脸的。。。 哈哈~
后悔当时对他太过冷清，后悔当时说了许多敷衍他的话，
后悔当时不和他多点相处，真的真的很后悔，
但。。。。太迟了。。。。
现在，已没有回头的机会，
如果时间能倒流。。。。
第一天见面，我会选择和他共享午餐，
抽出时间和他谈天，
与他相处，与他面对面，
我会非常开心。。。 ^^
他，已令我走火入魔了。。。。
我已跌下他的陷阱了。。。。
当没有他的日子，我觉得失去了灵魂，
整个人会很失落，无精打采。。。
就像现在的我。。。。 超想念他。。。。
一天没收到他的信息，会很失落。。。。。
一收到他的信息，就算一个字，却令我非常高兴，
至少你还记得我。。。。
我很想你，超想你，
每一份每一秒，
我变了，我真的变了，
因为我的脑海里多了一个你。。。。 怎么赶也赶不出去。。。。
以前，我能够将一个人，很轻易的将他赶出我的为生活，
但是你，却怎么样都赶不出。。。。。
我到底怎么了。。。。
我变得有点少发言了。。。。
再也不能产生话题。。。。
一有时间，就会发简讯给你。。。。。
一有空间，就不知不觉想起你。。。。
一寂寞，你就会出现在我的脑海里。。。。。
天啊！我怎么那么脆弱？
为何会对他倾心？
明知没机会发展。。。。
却还在想着。。。。
为什么他对我那么好？
为什么他要让我留着一丝希望？
在简讯里，你说你很无聊。。。。。
你不会找话题。。。
但。。。。
当我面对你，你总是有说不完的话。。。。
最近的你，非常失落。。。。
我也不好受。。。。。
在与朋友的谈话里，总是控制不了地提起你。。。。
自己也会无端端傻笑。。。。
我真的真的喜欢你。。。。
喜欢上你。。。。。。
有时候。。。。
想想你那可爱的样子。。。。
对着我傻笑的样子。。。。
作弄我的样子。。。。。。
和你朋友要迟到的样子。。。。。
被人报告的样子。。。
真的真的一直在我脑海里闪过。。。。。
我不懂如何解释这一切。。。。。
如果有机会再次遇见你。。。。。
我会把握每刻每秒，
与你谈天谈个痛快。。。。。
因为，
我真的很想遇回你。。。。
真的。。。。。
但，。。。。
我真的有勇气面对你吗???
我开始搞不清我想要的到底是什么。。。。
是他？
还是一段恋情？
我真的不懂。。。。。。。。。
但。。。
他是唯一一个令我心动的人。。。。
到目前为止。。。。
真的。。。。。
我很想他。。。。。。
希望再次听到他的声音，
看到他的背影，
接近他，面对他，
还会有这机会吗？
他。。。。
到底对我有何感受？？？
我想知道。。。。。
但没勇气问。。。。
我和他，犹如两个世界的人。。。。
会有机会吗？？？
喜欢一个人，原来是那么的痛苦。。。。
整个人变了。。。。
变得所有事情都与他有关。。。。
唉。。。
我该如何面对。。。。
这是我第一章华文字文章。。。。。
也是最后一章。。。
写了这一篇，就代表我要彻底忘了他。。。
别再想了，
那是没结果的。。。。
就让他画上句号吧！
再见了。。。。美好的恋爱！
这是最好的方法。。。。
放弃！